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At its core, a space of refuge for the exiles, the forsaken, the outcasts. Shamed for their preferences in life, often not by choice. Historically shunned and punished as deranged, ill, abnormal. Made illegal to exist.
Für diejenigen die allein sind.
It is very warm inside. Deep, plush bass feels like pounding your own heart against a wall of flowers. Or like velvet anal thrust. Caring selectors and sonic surgeons conjure an aural apocalypse, desire and chaos converge in dancefloors in flux. From sparse playfulness to peak time neuroelectricity, from marching yet still armies of extreme BPM to tornados and wind goddesses of Monday dawn. Limbic black metal solos. Brutalism, hypnotism, crystal metropolis, unconquerable castles. Sex by mere presence.
Thousands of bones crying gallons of tears and sweat. The sacred and the profane collide in a frenzied dance of liberation, a timeless realm where sin and salvation are intertwined. Perpetual cycles of pleasure and penance manifest in shared breaths, a communion of souls seeking solace and redemption in fleeting moments of abandon.
Clouds of cigarette smoke, filth, dirt, broken glass and broken hearts. Side quests for metaphors, viagra, bubblegum. Smuggled water pistols bring upon collapse. Existential crises on the dancefloor amidst routine technogym sessions. Crashing handfans and panorama blinds, RAYS OF LIGHT burn through your skull's barriers and… you find yourself eating bananas. Time to change clothes. Come to berg toilets they said. Lost within the sewage pipes, descending the nine circles of hell. Dancing monkeys on acid. Separation anxiety, freezing chests. Time to go home.
Souls borne in all four corners of the world, sirens, disco queens, gothic royalty, polar bears, divas, orc daddies of middle earth. Your father. Business casual, harnesses, topless, naked. Fashion freaks, fashion haters and freaks of nature. An amalgamation, a microcosm of the times. An epiphany.
The time of your life. Come armageddon, come. Endless comedown. All is one and one is all.
Or is it?

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Trip report 300-400ug Sorry for the bad English I'm not native
I had a crazy trip with a friend and we both had a full ego loss, and somehow a consciousness I wasn't aware of was talking in my body (not in my head but literally with my mouth), he was cold and always talking about the mess he created. I remember when I was in that state I was basically a wall and nothing could scare me or hurt me, and I was telling my friend who also was God that I don't care about my own ego because I was basically insignificant and a toy. My friend was so mad at me that I gave him LSD and that he became god, because he felt the ego death like something horrible as he became god again and felt the infinite loneliness again. At some point he was giving me middle fingers and was really cold while I was still in my ego and it hurt a lot, but then lost my ego and was mocking him like a selfish bastard.
Overall it was very chill, we were watching dramas or sex movies to see how we would react. And literally I was still a wall and couldn't even feel a single emotion, I couldn't even feel horny. I was just like "oh look at the dolls they are so happy" while laughing my ass off watching my own creation.
I wasn't even aware of my ego anymore and literally felt like I could talk through my friend's mouth. He said I was also a selfish person (talking to god and also my ego for giving him LSD).
I probably forgot a ton of details but I needed to write at least what I recall before I forget everything.

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The title is a SERIOUS question. I'm an autistic woman and it's difficult to understand when people are manipulating me and why it's considered okay when someone is obviously lying to me in order to get access to sex and why. I need to understand why someone would use someone they don't like for sex, I can intellectually rationalize it but I truly can't comprehend why someone would do that?
I was used by a filthy, depraved sex tourist. Picture your typical looking passport bro looking for sex in countries with dubious laws and a power dynamic that tips in their favor. I don't judge people based on their appearances but when I showed his pictures to my friends as well as the kinds of matches he got on Tinder that he added on FB, they said it's blatantly obvious that he's looking to exploit girls/women and that he has dead serial killer eyes. I later found out through social media that he used the opportunity of being in a new country to sleep with prostitutes and underage girls since he had DOZENS if not hundreds of prostitute accounts added some with CP and suspiciously looking accounts of other girls obviously still in high school. Stuff he wouldn't get away with back home.
Right after PIV for the first time he started spitting out racial slurs like he couldn't control himself and was holding it in. He then said I wasn't his "type" (nothing was said prior to him successfully shoving his dick in me or using me for other things several weeks in a row, how interesting). Why was I chosen to be treated like this? He doesn't treat other women in his life this way. He was in the country I was in for a short time and saw this as an opportunity to do whatever he wanted without it hurting his reputation at home. Only a few of the people in his life believe me or just don't care that he likes to stick it in underage girls and prostitutes. Do I need to walk with a video camera on me at all times to have enough proof? These predators are smart, they make sure there's no/minimal evidence for what they do to you and if you rightfully call them out and try to warn people about how predatory and damaging they are they try to pass it off as "harassment". He pretends to be woke and feminist (at least when it comes to white women and white women's rights, other women are free game to be used).
E-stalking revealed a lot. He dated an obese, conventionally unattractive much older poorly educated low-income/welfare type woman for several years but never posted a picture together or interacted with her much on social media. She just had her own place and he could mooch off her for a bit with access to sex. He tends to do this with girls be thinks are beneath him, I like that she detailed the entire relationship in a blog. He was so ashamed of her that he didn't even introduce her to his friends. Yet he goes on one date with a lolita "model" and has pictures together up on Facebook, he's currently talking to another lolita "model". He's VERY shallow. I wonder if he starved her on this date? Unlikely.
There's another girl, another older woman that's more his "type", she has some social currency, he started talking to her while he was still shoving his filthy dick in me. She's probably someone else he can take advantage of, financially as well since she's invested in his dumb writing projects. She has her own place and business dealing with children. I suspect they dated for a bit but he tends to get bored even if the woman is his "type". Her health clearly declined with a MASSIVE weight gain, mental health struggles but she continues to believe in him. I hope I can fully exorcize the pickme in me before I reach her age and not be stupid enough to waste ANY of my resources on abusers. He just wants to increase his body count and have another place to rotationally get free sex from, it's unlikely he cares about her well-being. He flat out told me he doesn't care if his ex-girlfriend kills herself and yet this person is blessed with real and authentic friendships that will stand with him in spite of the pain he brings to other people.
Worst of all is that he made up his sister's suicide attempt or used it to shake sex out of me one last time because he knows I have a dead sibling and would sympathize with him. Even if his sister truly tried to kill herself, he still didn't like me and already got PIV which is what he wanted in the first place. It was all a farse, he wanted me to waste my money, time and energy under the guise of a "friendship" to use me. He knew PIV was difficult and extremely painful for me because of vaginismus but he felt entitled to it. Honestly, he's more deranged than imagined. His favorite porn star is a dead ringer for his little sister, the porn star is older but they look EXACTLY alike.
Not once has this demon considered my perspective. I was a student at the time and I was short on cash, I would take the bus and metro to see him and this guy wouldn't even have the courtesy to offer me anything to eat. He looked at me like I was a gold-digger when I asked him for food after we spent several hours together... Uses my body, insults and humiliates me then goes back to his life back home, it all works out for him. He lived out of a hotel (not the filthy cheap kinds he takes his prostitutes to back home) in a foreign country because he's a nepobaby with no actual skills other than lying to girls, and it doesn't cost much to get a $2 sandwich when you know someone is coming over, it costs more to travel to and from there. Once he even rubbed it in my face that he was gonna grab something to eat (without me???) and that shitty $5 cheesecake is "too expensive" (because he gets to use my body for FREE), he probably wouldn't hesitate to spend $5 on a girl he considers human. No one should be forced to date someone they don't like, but is it okay to use someone like a free prostitute? To pretend to like them and coerce them into sex then throw racial slurs at them when they're done? To emotionally manipulate them into thinking you like them? I was a free prostitute, he wasn't the one spending his time, money or exerting any energy to see me, he was faking some kind of emotional connection. He used my body like a human fleshlight and kicked me out whenever he would get hungry or bored just because he wanted to be as cheap as possible and that's how much my body was worth to him. I was always giving him the benefit of the doubt because it didn't make sense to me that people could be this way.
I'm supposed to be a good girl after all the garbage this adult male put on me and be quiet while he gets to move on and repeat this process whenever he feels like. I truly despise him, the women that are his "type", the women he would never dare hurt and I want karma to get him. I'm not getting used by him or people like him again. People that think they're superior because of random characteristics they were born with and that they have a right to hurt people that don't fit their arbitrary patterns of beauty therefore they deserve to be taken advantage of.
I doubt I will forgive myself for allowing myself to be used by someone absolutely vile and horrendous. I didn't get anything out of it besides a venereal disease and trauma thanks to this racist and depraved animal that felt entitled to someone he didn't want. I lived in a backwards religious country at the time where pre-marital sex is illegal and had to wait 2 years before I moved somewhere else to get a full sexual health check up because guess what condoms aren't enough when the guy sleeps with prostitutes from third-world countries and god knows what else.
He even self-published books as a teenager about only ugly girls wanting him, here's the kicker. He's literally less than 5ft3in, started balding before 20 and is chronically either overweight or obese, he tends to lose weight and gain everything back cyclically, right now he's getting close to morbid obesity (based on his more recent pictures). Obviously if I cared about appearances I wouldn't have looked in his direction, except I'm not nearly as shallow as him and saw him as a three dimensional human outside of his physical form. I didn't care and clearly neither of his ex girlfriends either but if he feels entitled to use women that don't meet his physical standards, it's important to take into account his appearance. I used to look down on women that use men for their money since I've never been in the situation where I had to do it for survival, but I kind of get it now? Some men use women like free prostitutes, act like $5 is too much but expect you to waste your time and money on them. I can't comprehend how someone can do this to another person and think it's okay?
I don't plan to have sex ever again, it repulses me to be touched because I genuinely believe that the only partners I attract are people that want to get their maximum use out of me using lies/ coercion/ deceit. I don't have any desire for it after this experience, it pretty much solidified what I already know. I always saw sex as a way to connect with someone, the people I attract see it as entitlement and something similar to going to the toilet and to push for as much as they can despite me being uncomfortable with it. I waited a long time and THIS is what I get. A racist, depraved animal. While he never physically hurt me, he probably would have at some point because it was clear that after he was done, he can't conceptualize me as human, I was merely a resource to exploit.
My first boyfriend when I was barely a teen literally tried to lie to me and took the condom during sex, why do they feel entitled? Why do they push my boundaries? Why is my sexual health of little importance to these predators? Why am I blamed for "letting" it happen? Male "friends" always try to make the conversation sexual. Do I have any worth to these people besides being used like a fleshlight? Someone they feel entitled to take from? Why is it okay for these people to treat others like garbage and calling them out on their behavior is seen as "harassment"?
I have tried to date again and I find the experience overwhelming and exhausting. I can't be open with people, I'm always checking if the information they're telling me is the truth (I even caught other men in lies ie married men, men with girlfriends), I stopped using dating apps after the racist and have made efforts to be more social irl through hobby groups since at the very least these people are attracted to me physically. Except, I don't like men touching me at all in any context whatsoever. I feel like I need to date because that's what's expected, but I can't comprehend the point of dating. I always thought I was missing out, but I'm really not. Even a handshake with the opposite sex makes me squirm. Then I realized, I don't actually have to. Relationships and sex in general is not a basic human need, I would never prey on someone I don't consider human to coerce sex out of them. A lot of people demand sex, act like they go crazy without it and like it's owed to them. Most of his friends (regardless of gender) belive in this and that it's fine to lie and treat people like garbage in order to get access to their bodies.
Why am I expected to get over it when it hurts to be treated this way by people I trusted? I wish I could erase these depraved men from ever entering me, it repulses me that I allowed it, it makes me want to tear off my flesh and skin. The only thing that helps curb these CONSTANT feelings is starving and feeling faint, it's so soothing. I know when men express romantic interest in me it's because they want to take from me and hurt me. All the thoughts zone out. These vile, depraved men get to live happy lives getting the stuff they want while I'm hindered on a daily basis with constant feelings of disgust. I know there are good men out there but I don't want to risk getting hurt by another one of these predators. I can't tell the difference when someone likes me or when someone's using me and my safety is the most important thing.
I took his words at face value but they never aligned with his actions. He took pleasure in confusing and manipulating me. What did it matter to him anyway? He's getting a FREE fleshlight. The money and time spent getting there, the emotional manipulation is irrelevant because it's FREE. He's never had to work for anything in his life (no, his dumb self-published trashy incel books don't count). He's never been through any kind of pain otherwise he wouldn't selectively treat some people the way he does. It's either that or he never viewed me as human from start, he probably thought "as long as I don't physically hurt this thing I can do whatever I want". u/juankiblog

I am 28M, right? I still am affected by the things from my past. Most advice boils down to: be confident bro, self-improvement bro, you are choosing to let it affect you....bro, you are a manchild to expect that your partner will help you emotionally, you need to go to therapy if you can't handle your emotions, you need hobbies, and so on....bro. Basically I get the message that "you deserve to be alone you emotional wreck of a human". At this point, it seems that friends are sock puppets and romantic partners are sex dolls, if you get me? If no one is supposed to ever ever ever help me in any shape or form without pay, then doesn't that render relationships nothing more than a business transaction?
Last time what set me off is some ass talking about "you need love" and went on a spiral that made the group essentially tell me once again that I am a victim mentality and that I need therapy. It's feels like anytime I disagree wholeheartedly with something, I must need therapy. Feel anxious that women will attack me and ruin me socially? Oh I must need therapy to accept being a punching bag.
Also, it's been about 7 years since my breakup and yeah, not fun. I tried "dating" but it all feels like an interview and I get a sense that I am just not attractive enough. I am 5"8, average white guy.
I tried therapy like three times and all three times I just felt bored and saw their "tactics" a mile away. I just waited to see if it would be anything worthwhile but nope, just standard bandaid to get me working again. As I often say, I don't need therapy, I need a family (not my own family but a family like mother father and so on)
I would love to be "normal" but at this point I am half a sociopath and maybe half an ASD sorta guy. I can pretend/exaggerate my emotions to keep in line with the social norms but most of the times, I seem to not care? For example, given the current politics, if I walk up to a woman and say I am interested, bam I would probs be done in for harressment. Amusingly, I have no issues talking to men because it feels straightforward. With women, I get a sense that I must be some future villian in their minds. As I say, I just get a sense that I am not attractive. That or I just don't fancy jumping through so many hoops.
Having said that, I seem to do well in situations where I try my best to talk my way out of it. Idk I wish I had a family to turn to for some things like these. But nope, have to spend my savings for some therapist to tell me "let it go and live life", what life? I am old, a guy so that instantly makes me creepy somehow and how can I put it, my adult life isn't much different from what I was a child: always alone, always have to do it myself and so on. So now with these so called "adults" everything is work work work until we die. Sounds like fun.
I am not a victim, it's just tiring to live without certain things in life where people have it. It's because of this that I used to be a pathological liar: sometimes good sometimes bad. Because I knew that if I didn't somehow "make up" things, that ofc people will sense who I really am and hurl even more abuse. So irl, whenever I feel bad I just try to choose my words carefully such that if someone overheard me and gossiped, it won't result in my name being dragged through the mud. Again, if no ons is supposed to support me, why then am I told to trust people and let my guard down more often? This just doesn't make sense to me at all