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My (25F) ex (31M) is completely oblivious of his harmful actions and that has left me spiralling.
2023.06.04 09:50 FearlessPin98 My (25F) ex (31M) is completely oblivious of his harmful actions and that has left me spiralling.
I initially felt a strong connection with a guy I briefly dated. He had made it clear that he was looking for a long-term partner for marriage. Over time, the relationship became uncomfortable as he took on a parental role, offering excessive advice and expressing concerns about my eating habits, overall health, and career. He also pressured me for nudes and engaged in persistent sexting and suggested having sex. Despite my attempts to express my discomfort, he struggled to understand the full extent of the situation. Additionally, he found it challenging to open up emotionally, build trust, and spend quality time due to his exhausting work schedule. My increasing anxiety led to an emotional outburst and ultimately the end of our relationship.
Although it has been over two months since the breakup, I am still grappling with the conflicting emotions I experienced during the relationship. At first, he felt familiar and soothing, which made me feel like he could be "my person." However, alongside that, I also noticed controlling behavior that made me uncomfortable. It's difficult for me to accept that he now appears so cold and indifferent, especially considering the initial care and attention he showed.
I am uncomfortable with his obliviousness. He has been avoiding the issue and seems completely unaware of his actions. Recently, he mentioned that he is willing to listen to my concerns but prefers not to dwell on the past. What should I do to get out of the spiral?
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2023.06.04 09:24 DontScareTheReaper A word about the "Finance Bro" and others who have been infesting this sub in recent months.
Spoiler alert: It's actually just one dude who keeps on making different usernames... because his accounts are getting suspended as soon as he starts posting. Who'da thunk?
All I'm gonna say right now is this... anyone who thinks they're some special snowflake who's above all social rules because they have a personality disorder, and thinks the most oppressed they've been was when they were in a psych hospital, they obviously only think this way because they grew up extremely overprivileged and can just throw money at people when they don't get their way.
And I say this with empathy, having survived a few REALLY rough psych hospitalizations myself. I know for years I've talked on Reddit about how awful it was to go through that shit.
But I don't blame "the system". I blame my mom for starting me on that road to the point where I'm still going down it. No, I'm not okay right now, the six year anniversary was this week and it was the same day as in 2017 so this is the LAST FUCKING THING I need right now. I'm just starting to let go of that shit.
Mental health interventions are generally solved with medication, not by Making Other People Do What You Want. I grew up around money (and briefly had it) with extremely fucked up parents, so I'm used to this type of behavior. Everybody on TMN was surprised at how long I was able to put up with this guy's crap.
But good luck with anyone else ever putting up with you. I am tired after months of relentless texting with someone who I thought was incredibly shallow at best, a total fraud at worst.
So yeah, please. Leave. You were the one who actually said "if you would like to mail me a restraining order" so yeah I think you know exactly what the fuck you're doing.
Anyway I'm about to see little sistefour brother-cousins tomorrow for the first time since Christmas so yeah I'm excited. Not gonna let this dumb shit ruin my night... I'll definitely have more to say about this later when I feel like wasting anymore energy on this guy cause right now I'm fucking DONE with this.
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2023.06.04 09:07 ThrowRAfeelhurt Husband (36M) tried pressuring me (32F) to smoke?
I need advice on this situation AND your definitions of pressuring. btw I have nothing against people who smoke, I just personally don't want to myself especially because I have asthma and a heavy family history of cancer.
My husband and I were at a bonfire with my friends and one of my friends took a cigarette out of the box. she knows I don't smoke, and never have. she said "smell this" and I sniffed it. my husband said "you should try it" and I said "no" and was very surprised and at first thought maybe he was joking. he knows I am personally against smoking and I've told him in the past I would never do it. Again he said "come on, you should try it." I said nope. he said "try it" and I said no. For a fourth time he said "just try it" and I said NO.
Later on our drive home I told him "I can't believe you were trying to pressure me to smoke." he said he wasn't pressuring me. I said you kept telling me I should repeatedly even though I kept saying no. you told me 4 times that I should do it and I kept saying no. He then proceeds to once again say he thinks I should do it and there's no harm in trying. I told him I have asthma and I'm a health conscious person, and I will never smoke, and he knows that. and he said I should try it just once. I asked him why he wants me to and said see you're pressuring me. We ended up getting into an argument.
By the time we got home it was a lot worse and we were fighting about it. He was very adamant that he wasn't pressuring me and his definition of pressuring would be if he kept going on and on about it for a long time. To me he was because he kept telling me I should despite me repeatedly telling him no. I told him the fact that he's trying to get me to smoke when I have asthma and am against smoking personally, to me it feels like he does not care about me. he does not respect my decision to never smoke and he wants me to do something that is bad for my health. he said it's not bad if I only do it once and I can't get addicted from taking one puff. one of my exes did though, he smoked one time while drunk then ended up craving it and became a heavy smoker.
I'm really upset that he is acting like this and it blows my mind that he's completely denying that this was him pressuring me, and he still sees nothing wrong with it and he thinks it shouldn't bother me like this. He says he thought I would want to and gives the reason that he thought I was saying no "for a different reason" than not wanting to and that he thought I would want to do it. This is ridiculous because I have told him multiple times in the past that I have never and will never smoke. He now says he thinks I should to confirm that I don't want to. the way I see it is it goes one of 2 ways. I smoke and don't like it and now I've done something I'm against which I didn't want to do anyway, or 2, I do it and I get addicted. Both are stupid ideas to me.
He still does not think that what he has been doing qualifies as pressuring me, even though he continues to say I should, because he thinks the definition of pressuring is to keep pestering me about it for days. to me it's telling someone to do something despite repeatedly being told no.
it deeply bothers me that he's being like this and I feel like he doesn't care. something else that bothers me too is his reactions (rather lack thereof) to my emotions. I got all upset and started crying because fighting got so frustrating and my husband never shows emotion, he doesn't cry. he will very rarely pretend cry and make a weird face but there are zero tears, his face is completely dry and his eyes are dry, and I tell him stop fake crying. and he will say "I think it feels like I'm crying" He's not and I've NEVER seen anything like it in my life, it's really concerning to me and I'm not sure what can cause someone to have the inability to cry. He's generally a pretty monotone person and when I crack jokes I'm used to other people I know and have known in the past laughing but he rarely laughs, sometimes it feels like I'm talking to a brick wall. :( I'm just honestly concerned he doesn't care about me and I don't understand his behavior. Any advice please? :(
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2023.06.04 08:21 bingalls72 I’d like to share an experience I had that has brought me here and given me faith for the first time in my life.
This is going to be long, but I hope after reading this I could possibly be welcomed into this community. I hear voices and have really unsettling intrusive thoughts that are largely tied to my anxiety and paranoia. This happened after a period of rampant pot use (usually combined with a lot of booze) and a few mushroom trips during my first year of college. While I have had 2 psychotic episodes I am not schizophrenic. They were drug induced. Anyways I became socially withdrawn and was so frightened to leave my school apartment that I would not go to classes or even the cafeteria. Everywhere I went on campus where I heard people speaking I would hear the most awful things. Like the whole school was bullying me like I was some kind of freak or pariah. Que more pot use and drinking to numb the pain. I would tell my friends that everywhere I go people were talking shit to me and I didn’t know why or what I did to deserve that treatment. I essentially would just try to numb the pain with weed and alcohol in vast amount. I also vaped high nicotine like it was air. It was on a constant basis. Anyways it ended up with me dropping out of school and ending up in the secure section of the psych ward for a month. I had the most traumatic psychotic episode my psychiatrist had ever heard of. Like a movie playing in my head I was convinced a man like frank castle was rounding up everyone I ever held dear to me even going back years, and the most wonderful friend group I have ever had, and was murdering them in slow and gruesome ways. It started with my roommates. I could see it like a movie and he’d tell me he was using birdshot to prolong their suffering and would shoot them in the face every time multiple times. I could hear constant gunshots and screaming in the exact voices of my dearest friends and family round the clock. I was at a point where my brain sort of shut down it’s emotional center to protect me from the pain. I would just watch the images play of my roommates, mother, father, sister, brother and grandparents being tortured to death by this man. I was just this empty shell, I think my brain was so overloaded by what it thought was happening it just completely shut down my ability to suffer. Which was awful to say the least. None of the medications were helping until the final one brought me back. Not phase 2 of the episode occurred. I don’t want to go into this part but it was just as detailed and horrifying. Essentially I had a religious delusion that I was in a sort of purgatory and was the horseman of death in the biblical apocalypse. It was like the “horseman of death” saw me as the perfect vessel because of all the death I had witnessed and the complete crushing of my soul. I embodied suffering and anguish. I was a very strong agnostic at the time so it was very strange but psychosis can typically cause delusions like this. See people believing they are Christ and such. The thing is I obviously did not want to be the horseman of death. Yet it was like everything that was happening in my mind would just play out like a movie and I was so out of it I believed it to be true. Also I should note while this was happening there were other people there in similar states screaming and crying and fighting the behavioral health techs. Eventually I got better and left but I hadn’t really been the same since. You can’t possibly imagine the relief and fucking peace I felt knowing that it was all fake, and that everyone I held dear to me was just fine. In the year following I took those meds and it caused much weight gain and I moved in with those friends but unfortunately I smoked pot again and had another psychotic episode. This one was a slow burner though. It ramped up very slowly through November and eventually I went to the doctor when I thought that a black lion demon called Buer was cursing me because a coven of witches wanted me dead. And I could see them doing a blood ritual. Essentially I felt a dark presence wash over me like all the joy and happiness and passions I had were completely taken from me. So I thought I would make a pact with this demon to go back to they way I was in order to keep being the bright person I was just a moment before. Well it turns out this deal meant eternal servitude to this demon. Again I was completely out of it and believing things I never would normally believe. And like a movie in my head these things would play out. Well I went immediately to get back on an antipsychotic and I drastically improved again. Now I know you may be wondering where the connection to heathenry happens. Well this is what happens yesterday. I was hearing voices saying rude things at work I had been feeling this growing darkness around me for a while. and I was just begging for help to anything that would listen. That’s when I heard a deep and calm voice tell me that I was one of his children (like distant af) like many others. I instinctively asked if this was Odin. And yeah that sounds crazy but to me my ancestors were from Sweden so there is Norse blood in me (albeit diluted obviously) and he said a few words and I asked if there was anything he could do to help me. And he said that he could help to help my affliction if the mind. I thanked him over and over and asked what I could do in return. Almost immediately I felt like something was cast out of me. And I felt like I was back to myself before all of the terrible experiences happens and just felt at peace for the first time since that downward spiral freshman year of college. He hasn’t spoken to me since and that makes sense. Since then I’ve been just so much more myself. I’m social and funny and feel able to self actualize. In fact I’m already on that path I think. It’s like he got rid of my mental illness and anxiety and paranoia. To be honest it’s the first miracle or whatever you call it I’ve ever experienced. Some of you guys might think im just schizophrenic but I can assure you that I am not. I don’t know if the demonic delusions were real but they certainly felt real. And all I know is I don’t feel at all like all that trauma is affecting me anymore. I am eternally grateful for what has happened and perhaps some of you will call me a nut job. But the truth is I’ve just had some drug induced psychosis’s. And I finally feel free of all of that. I am mostly curious to hear what people well versed have to say about my story. I hope I’m not ridiculed but am sorta expecting it. Anyways I am now going to learn everything I can about heathenry and try to put it to good use!
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2023.06.04 07:48 Aware_Leader4438 The best benefits of meditation that can help you to improve your inner sole
Meditation is a practice that involves training the mind to focus and redirect thoughts, leading to a state of mental clarity and emotional calm. It has been practiced for thousands of years and is associated with various religious and spiritual traditions. In recent years, meditation has gained popularity in secular contexts due to its numerous proven benefits for mental, emotional, and physical well-being. Here are some of the key benefits of meditation:
Stress Reduction: Meditation is widely recognized as an effective tool for reducing stress. By focusing on the present moment and cultivating a sense of inner calm, meditation helps to calm the nervous system and reduces the production of stress hormones like cortisol. Regular practice can lead to a greater ability to manage stress and handle challenging situations with more equanimity.
Improved Emotional Well-being: Meditation promotes emotional well-being by helping individuals develop greater self-awareness and emotional resilience. It allows one to observe and understand their thoughts and emotions without judgment, which can lead to a decrease in negative emotions such as anxiety, depression, and anger. Through meditation, people often experience increased positive emotions, a greater sense of happiness, and improved overall emotional balance.
Enhanced Focus and Concentration: Regular meditation practice has been shown to improve focus and concentration. It strengthens the ability to sustain attention on a chosen object, such as the breath or a specific mental image, and reduces mind-wandering. This heightened focus can enhance productivity, learning, and performance in various tasks and activities.
Improved Mental Clarity and Cognitive Function: Meditation has been linked to improved cognitive abilities, including enhanced problem-solving skills, decision-making, and creativity. It promotes mental clarity by quieting the constant chatter of the mind and reducing mental distractions. Regular meditation practice has also been associated with structural and functional changes in the brain that support improved cognitive function.
Increased Self-Awareness: Meditation cultivates a heightened sense of self-awareness, enabling individuals to become more attuned to their thoughts, emotions, and bodily sensations. This self-awareness can lead to a deeper understanding of oneself, including patterns of behavior, beliefs, and reactions. With increased self-awareness, individuals can make conscious choices and respond to situations more skillfully, rather than reacting automatically.
Better Sleep: Meditation can help improve sleep quality and reduce insomnia. By promoting relaxation and reducing stress and anxiety, it creates a conducive environment for falling asleep and experiencing deep, restorative sleep. Meditation techniques specifically designed for sleep, such as mindfulness-based relaxation techniques, can be particularly helpful for those struggling with sleep disturbances.
Physical Health Benefits: In addition to its mental and emotional benefits, meditation has been associated with various physical health benefits. It can lower blood pressure, reduce the risk of heart disease, and strengthen the immune system. Regular meditation practice has also been linked to reduced inflammation, improved digestion, and better pain management.
Increased Compassion and Connection: Meditation practices that cultivate compassion, such as loving-kindness meditation, can increase feelings of empathy, kindness, and connectedness to others. These practices help develop a more positive outlook and foster harmonious relationships. Compassion meditation has also been shown to reduce feelings of social isolation and increase prosocial behavior.
It is worth noting that while meditation offers numerous benefits, it is not a quick fix or a one-size-fits-all solution. Like any skill, it requires regular practice and patience to experience its full range of benefits. Starting with short sessions and gradually increasing the duration can help establish a consistent meditation practice.
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2023.06.04 07:33 Major_Dot_3336 Boyfriend [21M] shows no interest in Me [22F] after we’ve been together 5.5 years
we are high-school sweethearts and have lived together for almost 3 years. we’ve always been very close, like best friends & i couldn’t see my life without him. we had a healthy relationship up until my health started to decline 2 years ago. i had to start relying on him for some things like driving. he’s never really processed my illnesses i’ve developed and that has shown in his behavior. over time, i’ve noticed he doesn’t share his feelings anymore and is dismissive when i share mine. it’s almost like he resents me. i’ve had to go through so much, and still am, with discovering my health problems and am going through a lot mentally also. he hasn’t really been there to support me emotionally. it’s really upsetting and idk if i can handle it anymore. he’s become VERY distant and it makes me feel rejected. can anyone pin point a reason to his actions? i’m also very foggy mentally and can’t think…. pls help
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2023.06.04 06:49 Friendly-Platypus-30 My father has changed.
I’ve noticed recently that my dad is pretty miserable. His behavior towards my mom and I has changed drastically. My dad was never the sweet loving type of father he’s always been emotionally distant and not very affectionate, but his love for me was very apparent. In the past couple years the dad that I once used to joke and have fun with has disappeared. He’s become very closed off and defensive and it’s starting to feel like he has little to no respect for me or for any woman in his life. I started noticing this change in him once I hit puberty, during this time I went through all the trials and tribulations that any regular teenage girl does and my dad, already having fathered 3 teenage girls, seemed prepared. Boy was he wrong. During these formative years I went through a really difficult time regarding mental health. My dad made sure I got all the help I needed but missed out on a very important part which was giving me his love. We started fighting a lot and not really communicating, I would go for weeks not saying anything to my dad but a simple good morning or goodnight. I went through this with my mom as well but my mom and I have butted heads even when I was a little girl and the fighting with her was a lot worse than it was with my dad. In saying that, my dad was the person I went to when I fought with my mom until he started taking her side when she was being really horrible to me and all of a sudden my shoulder I could cry one vanished. I couldn’t go to anyone when I was feeling bad so I retaliated and became very cold. Nowadays the relationship with my mom has gotten better and we continue to work on it. With my dad though..stagnant. We’ve definitely been able to get along a lot better than before but it doesn’t mean everything is fine. I want to mend the relationship I have with my father since I love him deeply but anytime I bring up ways he has hurt me he shuts me down and tells me everything i’ve ever done wrong. Just today he yelled at me about being a “know it all” after he mansplained a situation in my neighborhood, even though I saw it first hand. We seem to have a lot of moments like these where he gets frustrated with me and just blows up even when I know i’ve done nothing wrong. I don’t know if the effects of my ice age are still affecting him, but i’ve taken accountability for everything i’ve done that might have hurt him or my family, something I don’t know he’s ever capable of doing. To wrap this up, I hope I can one day mend my relationship with my father because I love him deeply, but it’s going to be his doing because I can’t resolve anything until he’s able to own up to his mistakes, just like I have.
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2023.06.04 06:42 Successful-Golf4953 My cat won't eat dry food anymore, keeps me up all night begging for more wet food
My cat, Ozzie, won't eat his free-flowing dry food anymore. In the past five years I have had him, this was't an issue. Recently, my mom had a scare with her male cat and we found out that dry food isn't the healthiest for their urinary tract, so I gave all three of my cats wet food. Ozzie, being the least dominant, constantly had his wet food taken away so I took to feeding him separately in the bathroom when I fed the other two. I was given leave by my vet to use "urinary health" dry food in place of three cans of wet food every time I fed cats, so I transitioned them to that. But Ozzie, who was experiencing some other problems, got a bit of the leftover wet food. I think he may not like the special dry food, since now all he does is sniff it and walk off, then cry around the clock for more and more wet food. He is a 7 pound cat who had very little appetite until recently and now cries constantly, even biting and scratching and licking me through the night to get more wet food, up to like four or five cans a day.
Is there any way to stop this behavior? It's recurring, often happening at 3, 4, 5, 6 am back to back through the night. I rarely get more than three or four uninterrupted hours of sleep, despite feeding him right before bed each night.
I just wish he would eat the dry food and stop acting like he is starving. Is there a way to get him to eat it again or do I need to transition back to my old food in the hope that he goes back to that?
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2023.06.04 05:46 ProposalEcstatic3944 Sweet Dog Needs new Home Grand Bay, Alabama
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Original post below from rescuer Regina.
Hi, this is a very hard post for me to write because I have been fostering this sweet girl for some time now. I can't even remember for certain because my children and I have been through so much the past ten years. The exact date, even year, is hard to recall. But it was around 2018 or 19 that I discovered this beautiful lady being abused and neglected by her owner in my neighborhood. She was chained to a small deck with no shelter, and I never saw any food or water as I walked by daily. Her owner even tried to run over her with a car, stating she just didn't like her as the reason. She was so skinny and malnourished, and she still has a scar on her throat where she broke free of the cable tied around it. After my very nasty separation from my kids' father, and the death of my own, I moved in with my mother. She knew I was rescuing dogs, and she forbid me to bring any to her home. Rescuing was something I couldn't just turn off though. My heart went out to the masses of neglected, abandoned and abused dogs out there. I never registered formally with a rescue organization because, as previously stated, my mother had forbidden it. But they seemed to find me. Wandering into my yard, one even flew out of a truck that flipped three times on the interstate while I was shopping for campers, which I hoped to make a temporary home of for my kids and me. My home was uninhabitable for us. But when there was no other choice, rescue intakes closed, and a dog either had to continue being abused and neglected or face euthanasia, it worked as a safe place for them. My neighbor allowed me to run an extension cord for heat or air-conditioning, and I went over three times a day to feed and walk them. One day, as I was over tending to another foster, this girl came over for probably the fourth time, bleeding, again, from her neck, and overjoyed to see me as I always gave her pets and treats. Something she never got from her owners. I kept hearing my mother's voice saying "do not bring anymore dogs here!" In the back of my mind. But I couldn't continue to ignore that she needed me. The county wouldn't even come out to do a well check bc she had no history of aggression. I managed to talk the owners into surrendering her to me, as I had spoken with a lady that said she would happily take her if I was able to get her. However, once I met her, I found that she also planned to keep her chained, and was unable to handle her anyway. She was disabled and could barely walk. This girl, having so much boundless energy, would surely be too much for her to handle. She also could barely afford to feed herself, let alone provide vetting and food for this bottomless "pit".😅 So sadly I had to decline this adoption. She stayed at my old home for about a year, until I insisted she had to come home with me to my mom's. She wasn't happy, but she knew county was out of the question as they are still a kill shelter. I have attempted to adopt her out a few times since then. One inquiry turned out to be from a dog fighter. They thought I didn't know. Anyway, Big NO! I drove about four hours away to meet a lady who, unfortunately was hoarding pitties in a small hotel room, and was incidentally giving birth to a new baby when I arrived. My instincts told me this was a very risky situation. Another interested party had a trial for one night. I told this person this dog must have a fence or be leash walked, as she is reactive to small animals. He agreed, but waited til I left to try his luck with letting her free roam in a highly populated area in the city. So I went to get her back, knowing this couldn't possibly end well. It seemed she might end up staying, as I was absolutely mentally exhausted from all the failed attempts, and from being cursed at by several others who failed to pass adoption criteria, which included vet checks, character references, evidence of ability to provide adequate care and safe environment. I have taken some time off from trying to adopt her out. Keeping her just seemed easier and safer than continuing to try to adopt her out. It seemed so unlikely that I would find a suitable adopter anyway, with so many desperately needing help. But recently, my health has gone downhill. I have been managing, but having been diagnosed with spinal stenosis and pancreatitis, along with being a full time mom, and caring for my mother, whose health has also declined drastically, it's becoming increasingly more difficult for me to keep up with the demands of caring for her. I've been tired before, and experienced burn out. But this is something entirely different. For the first time, I'm seriously afraid that the day is coming soon that I might not be able to tend to her. I am having more and more trouble walking. And she has so much energy, she desperately needs to be walked and played daily with to keep anxiety at bay. She is such a sweet girl, and has responded well to training. She is in good health, and the thought of her ever going to the county kill shelter terrifies me. But I fear that one day in the near future, I may have no other choice. As I said, I am managing. It is painful many days, and some days I am literally going on autopilot with no regard to my condition. I will continue to do my best to care for her as long as she needs me. But have decided that, in order to avoid the possibility of having to send her to a shelter where she will most likely be euthanized, I need to put forth my best effort to find her a loving home. She is spayed, and as mentioned previously, has had some training. She responds well to cues when I am able to consistently work with her. She loves to snuggle and give hugs. She even likes to dance with her paws around my waist. She loves kids too, but should be supervised as she does get excited and jump up for a hug. She loves to do zoomies too, and at times will forget herself and crash into her person. Very manageable, tho, by a strong healthy person. Regular walks and engagement help with this anxiety induced burst of energy tremendously. She has been sleeping in an air conditioned kennel, with lots of room in a large fenced yard to roam. But what she truly wants is daily walks and playing, and to be inside snuggling with her person. If you have experience with pit babies such as this, have no small animals, and can and will give this sweet girl the life she deserves, please message me. Please be prepared to offer vet references so that I can ensure that she is going to a responsible person. I am ok with self care such as holistic care and self administered parvo vaccines. But I would need to contact your vet to know that she will be vaccinated for rabies and that you are a responsible and loving pet owner. Also, you and your family must be able to keep her environment calm and without chaos as it is a trigger for her anxiety. I know it sounds silly, but I would also need to know that she chooses to go/stay with you to ensure that she will be happy with this transition. Preferably someone nearby, or I am willing to travel and spend a couple days letting you get to know her if you are willing to allow me to see where she will live. I don't care if you're not a great housekeeper. Or if you live in an apartment so long as you have time to walk her. I will not let her go somewhere she is not happy tho, or at risk of encountering and harming another pet. My ultimate goal is to get better. To possibly have surgery for my back, followed by physical therapy to regain strength, to control pancreatic flare ups through diet modification. And assuming I am able to make a significant recovery, I hope to get even more serious about rescue and go on to save many more lives through training and education. I am actually hoping to be able to attend school for training, become certified at a behavioral specialist, and, at some point, provide training to shelter dogs to increase adoptability, as well as to aide in their success post adoption. For those if you who don't know, one of the number one reasons dogs are returned to shelters after adoption is lack of training. And for those of you who do know, you are well aware of how essential training truly is, primarily for large, strong dogs such as pitties, and what a game changer it can be for them. Thank you for reading. Again, I am located in Mobile, Alabama. I promise, if you are qualified and looking, this could be your next best friend! I have never know a dog to more loyal or loving!
Point of contact https://www.facebook.com/regina.dunklin.50?mibextid=LQQJ4d
2023.06.04 05:35 Temporary-Reach443 My(24F) ex(24M) says our relationship is common. Is this true?
Hi reddit.. So a little back ground is I have been with this guy for 11 years. This year instead of getting me a gift for our anniversary he says he wants a "break" from the relationship to find himself. I agree and it lasts about a week. During this week though I am going through the abortion process because I obviously do not want another child with him. He comes back to live with me but still says he doesn't want us official. I ask if he is sleeping with other people he tells me no. I then find myself smelling a bit funny down stairs so I schedule a pap. Turns out I had an infection and had to be on antibiotics for 7 days. I confronted him and he came out saying yes he was sleeping with other people without protection while sleeping with me as well. I told him he disrespected my health and told him to leave. He moves out for about a week then calls me to come pick him up from his work. I do just to have him beg me to let him come back to me. I will save the details but I feel he really manipulated me into thinking he wanted me back. I found out just days after him being back he is talking to a Co worker that he slept with and stayed with when I kicked him out. I am very uncomfortable with this and tell him to either stop talking to her or leave. He says he can't lose me again and he will stop. A couple weeks go by and he tells me he can't stop. That he needs her in his life. I tell him that he needs to leave since he is choosing her. Thus he does. Immediately going to her without even saying goodbye to our daughter. Yesterday, he is signing my daughter over to me fully and he pops off with saying something about "We don't know what the future holds. I plan to be with you again some day." Also that "I bet a lot of couples go through this situation." I told him I will not be giving him another chance at having me which he just replies with "only time will tell." Is this true? He is my first serious relationship that I have been in so I have nothing to compare to. This behavior from him is totally new and I even suggested that I think he is being manipulated by this co worker that is over twice his age. He has server mommy issues that have been really coming to light since we have had out first daughter, however I have some childhood trauma coming out too. So I get we were both in a rough patch but I am having my first therapy appointment later this month to really get into healing myself as a person to be a good mom. He said he wanted to do therapy but then he leaves again for the second time now. I guess to summarize I just want to know if he is telling the truth on this situation we are in is common?
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2023.06.04 05:21 3cheeseprincess I find Aussie frustrating!
She's 42 years old and is never ready to have a conversation about anything. She's one of those people who "prioritizes her own mental health" at the expense of others. Disappointing avoidant behavior.
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2023.06.04 04:38 Competitive_Army_196 Looking for LCOL but normal/good pay in acct field. Retirement savings good taxes, water supply not drying, lesser crime, etc.
Got my BA in ACCT might get my MACC or do rando courses and take CPA. But also may move if can get a job (i can) right now with some superv exp/costruc work but entry level acct 0 exp.
I am looking to go to state seasons are fine (ie winter,summer,fall, etc all fine.)
dont want like TX, FL, CA, NYC, WA, DE, NJ, AZ, NM.
I like the middle area more i think like WY,SD,ND,WI,OH,IN,IL,IA,MS,AL.GA.SC.NC
only concern with colder spots are: Asthma (dont like the congest feeling from wild coldness), old people (dont want sick or slip and boom taken out by some stupid harsh winter when they prob could get 20+ years still)
I want to get like a LCOL with a good pay. So I can have animals, land, home, etc at kind of younger age. Temps arent 2 concerning, crime rates/rising big factor, enviroment/natural disasters are a concern (ie dont want wildfires ie CA or i 10/20 years for my area to be struggling for Water (AZ)?).
Not that I plan 2, but I would prefer a "logical" idea for gun stuff, mostly with this is just if someone is breaking into my home/still on my prop/ attacking me/ being a danger (crime going up i dont want to get charged on some BS if someone tries to rob/home invade) (NJ),
I would prefer low retirement tax implications (this would not be for my ie not for my 401k withdraw but for elderly people who I will be taking care of their disburstments ie SS/ annuity/ forget other shit but perhaps a benefit state to the. On that topic a state with no inheritance/death tax.
medical care/something within 4 hours for major surgery pref ie cancer (sure most places have this i not could use plane/drive from Lcol savings (doubt needed 4 me, old people mb but both good health, poor knees. a decent cancer screening state would b good (do those rankings even exist?)
States with entertainment of some level would be a plus:
really anything just need something:
ie i like Bball, (Indiana (maybe lcol with high pay), bull riding/horse riding (viewing not doing) might b cool, golfing (for old people not me), socialization opportunities for old people maybe?, swimming, fishing, catfishing, sewing, farming,hunting, gardening, mudfishing, College football clubs, nba teams, nfl teams, mlb, museaum, historical marks, hiking trails, national parks, scenery.
One day in my LCOL decent/high pay job I hope to have someone working for me that can solve these questions so I dont have to both yall. Also if needed I dont have a ACCT focus. I do like taxes (dont know anything at all from college at all at all.) I dont mind other ie just standard act1 etc. jobs. I have few years supervisor exp and lots of years for construction fam business. I plan to like on applications if I cant get anything 55k+ legit ie 3 year supervisor? 3 year supervisor that used _____ required skill for 1 year, ads/customer service/ job req/ finance planning/budgeting @ construction ( I did actually do this just in no way what a pro co. would do more like hours as a kid figuring our product price/costs/ pricing/ft etc. I can say I did that family business for 8+ years idk how that looks resume wise but I include skills in there a job might want ie communication or whatever.
for the like req skills somehting like
bill dot com or
would few dedicated hours of yt not get me to a beg level to start a job? like Bill dot com get invoice bring to there, document how Co. wants??
sql will get my ass but not applying for many with that in req.
for initial home looking 3 be 2 bath 3+ acres, if in cheap lcol then 3bed 2 bath 10+ acre. wouldnt mind 2 angus 1 dairy cows, chickens, garden (havent hcosen size yet not big deal), water supply if possible, need ac/some newer stuff (dont want to buy some shitter that needs hella fixing ie fucked roof or shitty porch etc.
trying to stay between 200/700k settlling more at that 350-550 range.
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2023.06.04 04:34 all-out-of-bubbles Looking to re-home a kitty
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Hi everyone, we’re looking to rehome our kitty. Pickles unfortunately isn’t a good personality fit for us. She is definitely a single kitty, so a home with no other pets would be best. She has had some behavioral issues that we are working with her on and she is improving drastically, she hasn’t had a biting incident in over a month. She has never had a bathroom accident in the almost year that we’ve had her, and is perfectly litter trained. She isn’t the most lovey cat, and won’t curl up with you, she prefers to just coexist with her owners unless she is actively asking for love. She is up-to-date on her rabies vaccines, spayed, and has a clean bill of health. submitted by all-out-of-bubbles to Abilene [link] [comments]
2023.06.04 04:28 chbmg Easy Fixes To Make Survivors and Demons Happy – Saber, Please Read
NOTE: This is a very long post. There’s a tl;dr summary at the bottom Background:
This is coming from a long-time lurker, first time poster, and an Evil Dead fan for decades. For background, I have previous game dev experience, including Unity and Unreal, so I’m (mostly) not talking out my ass, and I've played both sides of this game roughly equally for more hours than I’d care to admit (primarily solo q, sometimes survivor with friends, and otherwise just playing demon when survivor queue times are high, as they have been many times since release). Usually, I just play whichever side has the lowest queue time.
Despite its flaws, this has been one of my favorite games of all time. The original development team was clearly passionate about the Evil Dead. The art, audio, and overall atmosphere are excellent and have superb attention to detail. I love all the random chatter from my survivor, the feeling of rushing through the woods as the Kandarian demon, and the intensity of a close game regardless of who wins. However, most of us would agree that this game has been held back by very poor "balancing" patches since release, as evidenced by polls on this subreddit confirming it is indeed the most frustrating problem.
We've endured shemps duping, brokenly OP characters, fear looping, and many other game-breaking exploits throughout. Bugs can be tolerable and are even to be expected, but the "fixes" almost always cause new issues and take far too long. It is painfully obvious that there has been very little time or effort expended on these issues by the post-release support team. Some patches have been so bad that they shouldn’t even make it to QA, let alone production – I’d be ashamed, esp. given that some of these issues can be fully and precisely patched in a few lines of code. I don’t need to see the source code to know that – even a rat’s nest of blueprints and disorganized C++ code can’t justify it.
I can only hope the skeleton crew that's continuing support for this game will take a few hours to address these issues. More importantly, I hope someone higher-up will recognize that this game still has millions of copies floating around and a lot more opportunities for profit, so it’s worth it to invest just a little time/thought into balance to keep new players and veterans happy.
Frankly, each issue could be hammered out in minutes by someone familiar with the codebase, but I know it takes some time for building and testing across multiple platforms - days is fine, weeks/months is insane, esp. given the current state of the game.
I think it is important to first precisely define how the game is unbalanced, and how this imbalance can ruin the fun of many matches. Based on previous posts and my own personal experiences playing with friends and family at various skill levels, the following pattern becomes clear:
3+ Bad/Low-Level Survivors – Essentially 99% Demon Win
2+ Bad Survivors, All Others Decent to Excellent – Heavily demon-sided (~90% Demon Win)
1+ Bad Survivor, All Others Decent to Excellent – Somewhat demon-sided (~70% Demon Win)
All Survivors Decent, Not Very Cooperative/Sharing – About Equal (~50/50 on Win)
All Survivors Decent, Mostly Cooperative – Somewhat survivors-sided (~70% Survivor Win)
All Survivors with Good Skills/Teamwork/Knowledge – Heavily survivors-sided (~90% Survivor Win)
All Survivors with Excellent Skills/Teamwork/Knowledge – Essentially 99% Survivors Win
Note: Skills/teamwork/knowledge are not necessarily related to prestige level nor gameplay style, though usually survivors with prestige levels have stuck with the game long enough to at least be “decent” (even if they’re still not perfectly cooperative/sharing/etc.). This pattern is only somewhat altered by the demon’s skill level – new/low-level demons skew much more to higher survivor win rates in every scenario, and excellent high-level/prestige demons playing the current “meta” demon skew toward higher demon win rates. Any level 45+ demon that’s decent to good and usually plays non-meta demons like the current versions of Warlord or Necro (that’s me) will likely not skew these results.
I believe my personal experience is a microcosm of the overall balancing issue, and we’ve seen posts on this subreddit that consistently confirm the above pattern. It should be painfully obvious by now to anyone who’s played both sides long enough, and it should also be even more painfully obvious to any developers/publishers pouring over analytics data for the game. What adds insult to injury is that, at the more extreme ends of the pattern, a lot of toxicity emerges. Many survivors go into flashlight-clicky mode when they have the upper hand, and many demons retaliate by dancing with possessions over corpses or other means, whether it’s in the current match or against some innocent victims in the next match (I’ve sometimes been guilty too – I usually just take a break when toxic matches get to me and I turn toxic, but I’m truly sorry to anyone who’s had to deal with any of this crap from me)
Anyway, what will happen if the above pattern continues over time? Well, newer players who are consistently getting absolutely destroyed and possibly taunted at the same time (as either survivor or demon) will either (a) quit the game, or (b) get better. Now, run through that scenario while looking at the pattern and assume the game remains roughly in the current state. There will be more and more new/”bad” survivors quitting the game entirely, and a smaller portion that will only stick with the game if they level up and “git gud” over many hours (becoming good to excellent players). The same thing will happen to demon players. What happens when all we have left are good to excellent survivors and good to excellent demons? Well, check the chart again. Every match will be at least heavily survivor-sided if not a guaranteed win. Survivors get bored, even most masochistic veteran demon players give up, queue times for survivors reach new heights, and the game “dies.” This sequence of events has happened at various times in the game’s lifecycle, but I fear it’s headed toward extremes that will eventually make the game unplayable.
Obviously, it’s no fun to win virtually every time and it’s no fun to lose almost every time. Competitive games are most fun when you have close matches – ideally, there’d be a win rate of about 50% for either side. “But wait,” you say, “the pattern above indicates that there already IS a roughly 50/50 balance for that scenario!” And yes, that’s true. But how many matches are actually like that? How many matches have you personally played that felt close and competitive the whole time? It certainly wasn’t common when we had strong SBMM, and it isn’t common without SBMM either. Why? Because players who stick with the absolutely brutal intro to this game today are almost guaranteed to at least become good/high-level players with solid game mechanics/knowledge (though some will still become toxic/uncooperative teammates or toxic demons). Those who don’t become competent players are virtually guaranteed to quit in frustration, some after just the first several matches where they are either getting consistently annihilated by all the veterans, or clearly being “allowed” to win if the other side takes pity. In essence, the game is just plain brutal for HOURS on end for newer players and can become stale for solid veteran players. For veterans, we have survivors who team up with 3 other veterans (boring due to easy wins, low challenge), demons who can only win by repetitively attacking an inanimate stationary book (boring due to minimal ability to challenge survivors throughout match), or demons who see 2+ bad survivors and have to decide whether to let them win or immediately stomp them to move on (both of which can be boring due to low challenge, and frankly feel bad if harassing beginners). I absolutely LOVE any close matches, win or lose, but they are unfortunately exceptionally rare.
Clearly, the goal of balancing patches should be to make as many matches as close as possible. How? Well, it’s very simple – give beginners a chance and give veterans a challenge. Specifically, force or incentivize gameplay that elevates beginners, challenges veterans, prevents toxicity, and basically “evens the playing field” so that the chart above reads more like “20% through 80%” win rates for survivors rather than 1% through 99%. Thus, the fixes below mostly take aim at mechanics that are abused by veterans of the game or seek to better prepare beginners. Additionally, nearly each of the fixes below can be implemented with the equivalent of just a few lines of code.
I fully believe that this game can achieve a decent balance as a 4v1 asymm. It only seems impossible because the patches for balancing have often failed to address root causes and/or caused new issues. The game can be more welcoming for newcomers (both survivors and demons alike) while still having a lot of the same learning curves and leveling systems to reward higher level play without it becoming outright oppressive to either side.
Anyway, based on a lot of previous posts and my own observations, here are some easy fixes for the next patch: 1. Revert demon traps to their previous behavior (i.e. make it so possessed survivors can be walked into a trap) and fix the fear looping mechanic for SchemeBaal specifically
The latest "fix" for this had a workaround from the community within hours to fear loop survivors anyway and nerfed all other demons for no reason.
This can be easily resolved by reverting to the previous code/blueprints/whatever (or hell, going back to the previous build if necessary), and then implementing a simple solution for Schemer. This solution requires a scalpel, not a sledgehammer, so it should apply ONLY to Schemer. I can think of two easy possibilities, either of which would only need a few lines of code.
First possibility: If a survivor has set off a trap that was set by using the Schemer's special ability, then that trap now has a normal cool down and cannot be "reset" again by Schemer's current use of the special ability. This would allow Schemer to set a trap manually, possess a survivor, run them into it, get the trap reset immediately by their special ability, but then only run the survivor into the same trap a 2nd time. Thus, Schemer would still be the demon associated with traps and fear, but wouldn't be able to loop a survivor in one spot endlessly. A survivor that's slightly separated wouldn't necessarily immediately die, but a demon could still down a lone wolf by harassing, lowering health, raising fear, and then doing this method.
Second possibility: The trap setting special ability of Schemer could be disabled when Schemer possesses a survivor. This may nerf Schemer specifically a tad bit too heavily, but is still a far better fix than what we've got. It's also super easy to program with something like the following pseudocode:
If (demon.ability == true && demon.name
== "Schemer" && demon.possessing == true)
demon.ability = false; 2. Implement a stamina cost for vaulting windows/railings (e.g. the stamina cost could be the same as dodging)
This helps keep gameplay fair for both sides. It's clearly unfair and unfun to have a demon that can easily fear loop a survivor to death even if their teammates aren't far away, and the same holds true for a survivor that can "loop" a demon and never die. Survivors can still use objects, dodges, and other means to postpone death if they're alone (as I've done myself and seen done as demon) but it's at least possible for a demon to get in an occasional hit and whittle down health (i.e. it cannot be done indefinitely, at least if vaulting also uses stamina). Alternatively, at least give demons the ability to vault all the same objects as survivors, such as railings, so a 1v1 chase is fair – it just doesn’t feel great when a survivor jumps over a porch railing and looks back to flashlight click your possessed unit, knowing that there’s somehow zero threat in this 1v1 encounter in a 4v1 game due to a simple exploit. Personally, I think just adding a stamina cost would be fine to try at least, and many others in this community seem to agree. Plus, it should again only be a few lines of code to adjust the stamina bavariable of a survivor whenever he/she vaults. 3. Edit the text for the "hints" when a match is loading. There are absolutely no CLEAR tips about giving the right resources to the right players, nor hints about any newer demons (i.e. the hints have never been updated)
Regardless of which side we've played, we all know solo q for survivors is a total crap shoot. None of us started playing this game knowing that we should be gathering supplies for ourselves AND our teammates, dropping shemps for support, dropping ammo for hunters, etc. Many players quit before learning these things and there is no in game explanation for them (besides one single vague tip I can remember about how you can share resources with teammates, but no clear indication of sharing based on class
I think the lack of instructions for basic team play is one of the major causes of low player retention for the game. The tutorials are helpful for basic controls, but there needs be a lot more emphasis on the basics of this game that many of us on this subreddit take for granted.
I’d start by making sure the following tip text is the first to be shown to all players for a few matches after this is patched in:
“Stay close to your teammates and focus on the current objective to survive. Going off to loot alone is very dangerous”
(yes, veteran players can often get away with this, but man, it feels terrible playing on either side and watching someone just wander off to loot the whole game)
The other tips could be a lot more direct:
“Players should stay within the blue aura of leaders whenever possible to get additional buffs”
“Warriors should generally be given the best melee weapons but do little ranged damage”
“Hunters should generally be given the best ranged weapons but do little melee damage. Drop ammo for them if they ask”
“Support players are generally weakest, but can heal or shield all their teammates by using shemps and amulets near them. Drop spare shemps for support”
Now, the above “tip texts” at the loading menu are super quick and easy to add to the game. However, if the developers would like to go a little above and beyond, it would be amazing to add some additional text boxes within the game to warn players about bad choices. For example, there could be blinking text in the center bottom half of the screen for awhile if you’re carrying another survivor’s specialty weapon and they don’t have one (or if yours is a higher rarity). Also, there could be similar warning text that you’ve wondered more than, say, 100m from your team. Again, just trying to give simple, clear instructions to beginners (and those that are somehow still selfishly playing after reaching level 25+). And yeah, there are always arguments and exceptions to be made about how to play optimally, but some updated/clear tips could go a long way. 4. Implement a bonus XP on the results screen after a match is over that gives each side a bonus based on how many points the other side gained. Also, fix demon leveling based on survivodemon level
This one sounds a little weird and complicated, but it's really not. What I'm saying here is that veteran survivors should be rewarded for taking it easy on a baby demon, and a veteran demon should be rewarded for taking it easy on baby survivors.
Basically, regardless of which side you play or if you win or lose, I believe you should get a bonus XP based on how the other side did. For example, let's say you're a veteran pup player that gets matched to novice survivors and down them all with a power possessed basic before they even get the first map piece. In this case, those survivors will have very little points after the match (maybe even under 1000 per person) and the demon should get no bonus reward. The survivors here should at least get a bonus for enduring the slaughter and staying in the match. Let's say the demon takes it easy on them though, let's them progress, maybe even just throws AI at them (hell, I've personally spawned a boss and walked them to good crates when they're clearly new and can barely take on bots). Let's say they get 10k points per player this way - the demon now gets bonus XP for good behavior.
I'd say that there should be a bonus XP for each player if the other side reaches a certain point threshold, say 30k, or if the survivors are wiped before first objective (as in, survivors get a bonus for enduring such a match and demon gets no bonus). This would help discourage immediately stomping new players and help retain them (remember everyone, this game will die if it's just a few hardcore people with long queue times all doing cheesy strats and stomping anyone who dares try joining as a newbie).
Anyway, in psuedocode, something like this could work:
If (survivor.totalscore >= 30000)
demon.bonusxp = 3000;
If (demon.totalscore >= 30000)
survivor.bonusxp = 3000;
[Loop thru survivors to apply bonus to each - obviously, these values can be tweaked]
Obviously, you may have survivors or demons who go AFK and then it may make it impossible for the other side to get a bonus. Therefore, there could also be some basic code for checking if someone is AFK (i.e. hasn’t not moved more than a certain small distance in a decent amount of time, hasn’t set a trap or possessed anything in a certain time, etc.). Frankly, I have no idea how we still don’t have AFK checks – just about any other online game I’ve ever played automatically disconnects you if you’re not playing.
As a bonus idea to this bonus idea, you could also cancel ALL XP points for a player for a round in which he/she is toxic, such as a check for repetitive flashlight clicking. I find this irritating whether I'm a survivor or a demon (and I def didn't deserve a bunch of XP the few times I've been guilty of it when I felt a demon was being toxic). I don't think there's an easy way to detect all toxic demon behavior with code, but it would be trivial to keep track of flashlight clicking in code. Maybe if a demon is "hovering" (dancing) directly over a dead body too long with a possessed unit or survivor, then they also have their XP completely canceled for the round - that would also be easy to check via code. The key to promoting good, non-toxic behavior would be to implement these checks without specifying precisely how many flashlight clicks count or how long dancing over a corpse counts – just note that specific toxic behavior will result in zero XP for the round for the offender and automate it in code.
Finally, as another incentive for fair play, the leveling up of demons should be dependent on the level of the survivors they are harassing AND on the demon’s current skill tree level. In other words, there should be modifiers so that new, low-level demons get leveled up more by the same actions as high-level demons, such as downing a player, and there should also be modifiers so that high-level demons cannot get leveled up as much by harassing low-level survivors, such as constantly downing a newbie, but can get slightly more leveled up by downing a high-level survivor. This goes back to the idea of elevating beginners and challenging veterans, esp. since it’s incredibly frustrating to be constantly singled out as a brand-new survivor. This could be something like:
Lvl 1-24: x1.5 for demon leveling up
Lvl 25-44: x1.3 for demon leveling up
Lvl 45: x1.1 for demon leveling up
P1+: x1.0 for demon leveling up
Survivor (being attacked, hitting traps, or otherwise affected by demon):
Lvl 1-24: x0.5 for demon leveling up
Lvl 25: x1.0 for demon leveling up
P1+: x1.1 for demon leveling up
Lvl 10 demon somehow downs a P3 survivor – demon levels up 1.5 x 1.1 = 1.65 times as much as now
Lvl 45 demon downs a Lvl 4 survivor – demon only levels up 1.1 x 0.5 = 0.55 times as much as now
P5 demon downs a P5 survivor – demon levels up 1.0 x 1.1 = 1.1 times as much as now 5. Disable the ability to start both the dagger and pages objectives at the same time
This "split cap" method is usually only used by high-level teams and can be almost impossible to counter by anyone who isn't a very experienced demon, at least on certain maps or when these objectives are at certain locations. I've managed to counter it myself most of the time as demon, but it can be very hard to deal with, esp. given that survivors are resurrected after either objective finishes. Depending on the map and RNG (esp. light sources at objectives and other variables), it can be impossible to counter.
Basically, if the timer is running on either objective, it should be impossible to start the other objective. This still allows creative play by high-level coordinated teams (e.g. maybe Pablo hides at the next objective waiting to kick it off immediately while waiting for others to race there by car). It also feels a lot more fair, particularly to less experienced demons.
Again, this could be fixed in just a couple lines of code. Literally, just check if a timer is running for daggepages and if so, don’t allow interaction with the other objective. 6. Add a call out in the in-game communication wheel to say "demon is on me” or “I need help” for survivors
We know from polls on this sub that most people are dropping into solo q most of the time (I’m sure Saber’s own analytics could prove this too). Also, many people don't have or don't want to use a headset. These are just common facts for most online games.
I know some people have resorted to using the "need matchsticks" chat option to indicate they're being attacked by a possessed unit but this is frankly absurd. We need a simple chat option for survivors for this. Honestly, if the text for “I need matchsticks” were simply replaced with “I need help!”, I'd be satisfied because I often need help fending off a possessed unit or boss a lot more than I need matchsticks in solo q.
This should be easy to add to the game (it’s more than a few lines of code and would require minor image/text adjustments and possibly kicking off existing voice lines, but should still be doable). I’m pretty sure that most characters already have a voice line recorded that could work (I picture Scotty already literally saying “I need help”) and if not, we’ve already been shown that voice lines don’t really have to match their context anyway (I picture Mia saying “fire’s lit. Anybody needs fire, it’s here” when turning on her flashlight – so hell, just make that what she says when she uses “I need help” on the wheel – we’ve already accepted she’s crazy anyway and the text would be clear at least). 7. Keep car possessions consistent on all maps. Demons either can't possess them until they "spawn" when survivors are near (like Castle Kandar) or they can possess them at any time anywhere
Personally, I think that it should only be possible to possess cars when survivors have "spawned" them by being close to them like on the Kandar map. The method of flipping all cars on a map at the start of a match is generally only used by a few high MMR demons and feels cheesy to me (I also feel it's cheesy to drive 3 cars to each objective, but cars are always going to be divisive and they can also be used to cause a lot of damage at objectives at least).
I think car possession should've followed the lore of AvED, kept survivors inside, and done something different like having both driver and demon fighting for control of the vehicle, like maybe survivor controls keep randomly reversing while demon controls it normally and the driver tries to counter the demon driving until infernal energy runs out - survivors take a little damage whenever the car crashes. However, this idea is complex, so I'll stick to easy fixes.
No matter what, it just seems like the ability to possess cars should be consistent across all maps and it should be easy to implement, esp. since there's already code/logic for the two scenarios. 8. Add a single menu option at the main menu when choosing a game mode to select "random"
This could immensely help queue times. I know there are others like me who just want to play and don't care about whether they're survivor or demon.
This may take a tiny bit more work to implement than some of the pieces above (e.g. need a little artwork for the button, menu programming, some matchmaking programming, etc.) but it would help queue times, which have been problematic at various times in this game's life cycle. 9. Adjust RNG based on the overall levels of survivors
Again, this goes back to elevating beginners and challenging veterans. I’ve been in too many games with all prestige survivors that can split up and loot a large portion of the map without fear of consequence until each character has his/her own purple/gold specialty weapon (which also goes back to looping/vaulting endlessly and depends on map, demon character, etc.) – those games are a wash for demon. On the other hand, I’ve been in too many solo q matches where people are bringing grey weapons to defend the book and hobbling in without shemps knowing it’s just a slaughter. I’d really like to be in more balanced matches where veteran teams don’t all have perfect weapons for an easy win, and novice players don’t all hobble around with garbage for a guaranteed loss.
As a simple fix, it would make sense to simply increase the odds of chests being purple/gold if 2 or more survivors are under P1, and decrease those same odds if all survivors are P1 or above (in all other cases, odds can remain the same). And yeah, I know prestige does not perfectly equal pure skill, but odds are you’re at least “decent” at the game if you’ve made it that far (if not good or excellent). This RNG adjustment for chests could be multiplied by whatever Ed brings to the table. For example, if the decrease for all prestige players is to have 0.75x the amount of purple/gold chests and the increase Ed brings is 1.5x, then there would still be slightly more purple/gold chests on the map than normal even for all prestige players (and a lot more good chests for new players, who definitely could use the boost). 10. Give out more XP/SP – we need more double XP/SP events and there should be a bonus given to any low-level players (say, anyone who hasn’t gotten a single character to P1) to get and retain new players
This last point shouldn’t need much explanation. The community obviously overwhelming voted to have more double XP/SP events. It would take such an incredible number of hours to P5 every single character that I’d imagine only those who have literally played non-stop for thousands of hours since release could have done it already. For some, like me, who only took a brief hiatus from the game since release, it feels like a herculean task to even get 1 or 2 characters to P5 on either side. Such events literally help with balance by elevating beginners and they also give a reason for veterans to return. Queue times were noticeably lower during the last event, even though it was poorly announced, clearly timed to try and mess with TCM (which is just a bad look, esp. since there was nothing for this game’s own anniversary), and wasn’t even VISIBLE in the game menus. Despite all this, it was still a success. Saber, unless you’re actively trying to eliminate your player base, it makes no sense to not do these regularly. And since you timed it to try to pull attention away from TCM, it would seem as though you want to retain players (or you’re just petty, but I’m guessing you’re more motivated by profits than such emotional considerations).
Anyway, more XP/SP please. Also, please put some kind of indication that an event is planned and/or is actively occurring in your game. I mean, it could literally be a freaking sprite on the main menu screen with some text announcing a double XP event and the duration – this is really basic stuff.
Finally, I don’t think anyone here would argue with giving away a large number of spirit points to every newish player the next time they open the game. I think a one-time bonus of at least 100K would be very reasonable for anyone who has not reached P1 for any character. I personally know several people IRL who would be back to playing the game if this were done (and almost certainly give you money for DLC when they get a chance to actually enjoy the game in a semi-competitive way) – these people just don’t have the time or patience to grind through hours of straight losses to even have a chance. Closing thoughts:
I know there are a lot of other great ideas from the community on future content for the game (maps, characters, etc.) so I've just tried to stick to simple, easy to implement fixes for the developers.
Saber, this game could still generate a lot of (mostly passive) revenue if you support it well. There are many of us who are ready to throw money at any random DLC or cosmetic (myself included as a huge Evil Dead fan). However, the fans will only stick around to throw money at the game if the basic fundamental gameplay is somewhat balanced and glaring exploits/bugs are addressed. Seriously, if it's tweaked to feel good to play either side without major exploits being used by anyone, I (and many others) would keep throwing money at literal outfit accessories that could be crafted by a single 3d artist - it should more than pay for servers and labor, at which point you're just watching the money roll in.
Anyway, I've tried to stick to easy fixes that could improve the game for both novices and veterans. It would be easy to just say "buff the other side" whenever queue times are long for one side. At this time, it's obvious that average to excellent demon players are at a disadvantage when compared to equally skilled survivor players (as evidenced by queue times). I also remember times when demon queue times were long and I just played survivor because a certain demon was overturned or using cheesy exploits, so more people wanted to play demon.
However, I've been honestly sad that playing either side has just not felt good lately. It doesn't feel good to sit in a long queue for survivor, and it definitely doesn't feel good to crush noobs or get crushed by full prestige teams on coms. I can count on one hand the number of fun/close matches I’ve played in the last several dozen – I’d love to play more like those. Even if none of the changes above happen, I'd at least enjoy receiving some love for the older demons so they're at least fun to play and a challenge to go against (Plaguebringer Witch getting her original movement speed back, Necro and Warlord getting some minor buffs in any areas since they're pretty universally considered weak right now, etc.) – I mention these buffs in case you want to fall back on the tired old “just buff the other side” method. Saber, please implement some quick and easy fixes for this game . Even if you're just in it for the money at this point, I'm literally here wanting to throw more money at this game, but only if some basic balancing changes are made. If the next patch surgically tweaks some major pain points rather than bludgeoning fundamental gameplay elements, then I'll be here waiting to throw money at any random DLC you've got. Otherwise, I'll sadly have to find another game (as many others have or will, given the overall sentiments after this latest patch and some patches before it). You can still turn the ship around - you have 3 million copies of this game floating around. That's literally millions of fans who likely want to return to the game and throw money at DLCs if the gameplay experience is fun. It's up to you now. Tl;dr Summary:
The game can be balanced by elevating novices and challenging veterans. Here’s how…
- Revert demon traps to their previous behavior (i.e. make it so possessed survivors can be walked into a trap) and ACTUALLY fix Baal specifically
- Make vaulting cost stamina
- Edit/create hints for new players at the match loading screen that are clear and direct
- Give out a bonus XP for "good behavior" (not demolishing newbies), cancel XP for “toxic behavior” (flashlight clicking as survivor, dancing on corpses as demon), level up demon based on levels of victims
- Do not allow dagger and pages objectives to run simultaneously
- Add a call out in the in-game communication wheel to say "I need help" for survivors
- Keep car possession rules consistent on all maps
- Add a "random side" menu option to be able to play either survivor or demon, whichever happens to get matched first
- Adjust chest rarity RNG based on the overall level of survivors
- More XP/SP events. Also, give a bonus 100K+ SP to anyone with zero prestige characters
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2023.06.04 04:26 Warm-Lecture After trauma, does anyone feel that their life is always going to be bad?
hello, i am new to this trend, but not on reddit. I was looking for PTSD support groups online and I did not find any on zoom, so I joined here. Thank you for reading me !
I have PTSD from the sudden and violent death of my partner of 10 years and best friend of 3 years, occurred three years ago, after he was on the phone with me for five days of craziness talking about very difficult and strange things and basically knowing that he was about to die (no illnesses, nothing similar). He also confessed all the cheating on me he had done but how he loved me etc. The case has been mediatic, and still is in my country, his face has been portraid everywhere in my citiy and neighbourhood. It is far more complicated than just that but I do not want to bother you, just tell you that he died two hours after the last call with me (we were in two different cities) and that the PTSD has been huge for me and my family and still is: today my father got drunk and started writing me horrible WA messages me insulting my late boyfriend for destroying my and my family lives and other very mean and horrible things about committing suicide with me, my sister has redeveloped bulimia and PTSD after I tried to commit suicide but survived (same PTSD of my father), and unrelated to that, my mother died three months ago for a brain stroke super suddenly (no idea she had that). I live very, very far from my family, another continent actually as for my job I always work abroad.
I am worried for some health issues I could have. I am in love with someone but our relationship is not formal and is more a situationship. Despite all, I love arts and try to do always drawings, paintings, workshops with actors and musicians, I take singing classes and aerial acrobatics, among lots of travels. My field is social work and I have to hear horrible lives stories everyday. I do Dialectical Behavioral Therapy. I am on antidepressants and xanax of course !
Briefly, my PTSD has fu***** up my life completly. I have processed the grief of my partner and my mother, I got in love again, but my partner's death has provoked so much pain and trauma on me and all around me that now I CONSTANTLY think that everything in my life is going to be very bad. I have grown up in a super disfunctional family, my partner and my travels and career ambitions were core to face my family's problems and go away from that house, and my story with him has been beautiful in the first years especially. So I now only think that good things ALWAYS end bad. I see that nothing is easy for me. My mother was young and died suddenly less then three years after the death of my partner; my father is wonderful sometimes but he could be violent and crazy and alcholic; i could have some mild health issues; my personal life is always a mess with men who get in love with me or really care about me and stay with me for a while, but they are often very afraid of relationships for their own traumas (I really attract ppl with traumas...) so those are never official relationships that I can build something with.
I am almost 34 and i feel my life will always be like this. I have friends but I leave alone and I feel lonely when I come back from work and a loser, a widow at a young age, despite i never wanted a marriage and kids, and I do not know how much time I will spend in the place I am now for work reasons, and coming back to my home country is not an option.
DOES some of you think the same after PTSD, that their life is always going to be bad, that it is meant to be like this and that every good thing does not develop or ends well and will always be like this? I feel so alone in this thought, and I am intense with people around me talking about it and how sometimes I want to die but I will never do it again for my family. As my partner's death was related to the work we did, I stopped having career ambitions and my motivation for the future is very low.
Thanks so much for reading and answering :)
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2023.06.04 04:06 hopelessaspirant23 Is this how psychiatric evals for patients admitted through the ER work?
Say an 18 year old with a high BAC is taken to the ER for alcohol poisoning. EMT tells the crisis response team that the kid was saying some things that suggested an intention to self-harm.
What would the process for a case like this be?
From what I've read it's:
- ER doc stabilizes kid using naloxone and medically clears him
- ER doc gets kid transported upstairs to a psychiatric bed
- Inpatient psychiatrist evaluates him at some point in the night for an involuntary hold.
If approved, this hold would be at the inpatient psych ward (a separate floor from the psych bed he's in rn) or at an external behavioral health hospital.
Otherwise the kid goes home (immediately or the next morning) with a referral to an outpatient psychiatrist.
But am I missing anything!?
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2023.06.04 03:44 up-allnight Am I the asshole for cutting off my mom for being friends with my abusive ex?
Trigger warning: abuse, narcissist
So I (26 F) cut off my mom (45 f) for still being friends with my ex (46 m) and she said I'm being selfish. For context my mom has a boyfriend who is best friends with my ex. My ex is also my moms boss, pretty much how she got the in for the job she has now. I finally told her he abused me so she agreed to take him off Instagram after I noticed she was friends with him on there (after our breakup is when she still decided it was still okay for him to follow her on Instagram.) She said she still had to keep it professional, I understand that, but Instagram is not part of a professional relationship so I told her that it's not necessary for them to be friends on there. She blocked him I guess, I don’t really know, but she agreed it would be professional and it was all okay. A week ago I saw her location was at my ex's house.. Her going to his house made it abundantly clear that wherever her boyfriend wanted to be she would be his ride or die regardless. I blocked her on social media and blocked my location from the Life360 app. I told her how I felt, that it was messed up for her to still go hang out with my ex when that's literally the only thing l've asked of her to not do... I wanted her to just stop being friends with him because it would make him feel better about himself and his abusive behavior. She said that it's not fair to put her in the middle, that it's not her fault that he was "an a-hole" and she shouldn't be put in the middle of it. I DIDN'T KNOW HE WAS GOING TO ABUSE ME! I was manipulated severely and at the very least emotionally abused daily. I told her that and she said I was being selfish. That it's not about me, that she's not choosing a man other me and she can't hate him just because I do. That I need to understand that her boyfriend and her job are amazing and my ex could have treated her terrible at work but he didn't. I didn't respond to her. I almost hate her after those texts and it makes me so sad... she was my best friend.. and she's blaming me and my ex had blamed me so so much when we were together like I can never catch a fking break. Now he has her on his side and I feel sick to my stomach constantly thinking about it. He gets everything back to normal and I can’t even have my own mom. I’m just really sad and have no one to talk about it with since it’s such a heavy subject I don’t know how to move on from this. I did so much for her and my siblings have always done nothing, as the oldest I was the only one there for her, helping her with anything. I thought it I could just ask her to please just keep it professional, I’m not asking anything of her boyfriend, just my mom, to just not hang out with him… but she just calls me selfish? I don’t know what to do or think at this point. Am I in the wrong? I honest to god talked to her about it before, I just don’t understand a mother doing this to their child. I always talk to my therapist and she said I don’t have to stay in contact with my mom and family if it makes my mental health worse. But not talking to my mom has been utterly heart breaking to me.
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2023.06.04 03:21 ScrantonStrangler209 Senior cat losing weight
My cat is 14 this year and the last three months he has dropped a considerable amount of weight. He is strictly indoors, he eating and using the catbox regularly, he is parasite free, and his behavior hasn't changed. I have a vet appointment scheduled but the anxiety of being told my cat is going to die is tearing me apart. I guess I just want to hear from others if this is a sign that he is nearing the end.
I honestly don't know what I will do without him. He has been by my side through everything; the birth of my kids, my health problems, deaths in my family, my divorce, and countless other events. He sleeps by side every night and greets me when I get home from a stressful day of work. Sure, I have other pets that I love dearly but my cat has been my rock. How the hell do I let him go if this is then end?
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2023.06.04 03:11 KoanicSoul Nuclear tit for tat escalates in Ukraine, after Biden's NATO allegedly sabotaged Zaporizhia nuclear power plant.
Table of Contents
Note: links redacted. See bottom for link to original.
- Russo-China rejects Biden
- ZNPP as potential Chernobyl
- Biden's Ukraine is desperate enough for scorched-earth tactics
- Battle of the Bulge at Bakhmut
- Fresh meat
- Teixeira leaks
- BRICS vs NATO
- ZNPP's weak point is diesel fuel
- Ukrainian saboteurs caught by ZNPP
- BB / Red Skull / Inb4source / Q
- BB sent Q
- BB warns Zaporizhia is pivotal
- RS gives ZNPP sabotage warning
- Ukraine HVT: Nuclear tit for tat
- Inb4source / Red Skull 4chan posting history
Biden allegedly sabotaged Zaporizhia nuclear power plant to melt down, to stop the Russian invasion and justify NATO peacekeepers.
Here was Biden's plan to avoid another Kabul:
- NATO operators sabotaged the ZNPP backup diesel generator fuel storage, causing it to leak.
- NATO targeted diesel fuel shipments. See captured Ukro saboteurs with NLAWs.
- When diesel reaches zero, Ukros can shell the lone power line, breaking it for the 8th time.
- Overheating and radiation release ensues. Territory Russia captured is ruined.
- Under cover of major exercises scheduled this month, NATO establishes "no-fly zone" and sends "peacekeepers".
Hopefully Russia has succeeded in resupplying ZNPP's diesel fuel, but the situation at ZNPP remains critical.
In the latest development, Kiev allegedly tested a nuke in a borehole, and Russia retaliated by striking the Ukro military intelligence headquarters, dispelling the illusion of Patriot missile air defense. Russia's willingness to escalate to decapitation of leadership may be why Zelensky is spending time abroad. NATO is allegedly expanding the war into Moldova to invoke Article 5.
Russo-China rejects Biden
"Don’t underestimate Joe’s ability to fuck things up." – Barack Obama
Clearly we underestimated him. Americans can hardly believe that Biden blew up Nord Stream 2, essentially attacking our vassal/ally Germany. Perhaps they're still reeling from Kabul falling faster than Hanoi.
Normally Russia endeavors to cooperate with the sitting US president. However, Russian state media has begun airing the Hunter Biden laptop images, of Hunter engaged in drugs and pedophilia with preteen girls. This is retaliation for Biden crossing Russia's red line by repeatedly trying to sabotage Zaporizhia Nuclear Power Plant (ZNPP). That's why Russia is willing to assist in the impeachment of a sitting US president, which is obviously an extreme step to take between two countries with enough nukes to blot out the Sun.
Rumor has it that China has also turned on Biden, which would make sense: China's economic backing allows Russia to survive US sanctions. China wants Taiwan, and Russia wants East Ukraine. They would be stupid not to cooperate.
- SHOWTIME FORMOSA; SMART MONEY IS SELLING TAIWAN EDITION pol BB May 17
- China Calls Biden a Fake President and Lloyd Austin a Fake Defense Secretary Michael Baxter May 30
- China declines US request for a meeting between defense chiefs Reuters May 30
- Xi Jinping tells China’s national security chiefs to prepare for ‘worst case’ scenarios CNN June 1
ZNPP as potential Chernobyl
A Redditor explains:
Kawaii-Gopnik Russia really needs that powerplant without any leak, to provide industry of surrounding regions with energy, but very few people understand contexts of the current situation: Soviets built complicated and very well ballanced energy system, including not only NPP, but also cascade of hydro power plants. Donetsk, Dnepr, Zaporozhe and Kharkov regions are just one big power hungry plant. NPP itself is reliant on hydropower and quality of water in Dnepr river. In case of really bad "accident" Russia will forget about development of the newly accuired regions, lack of energy produced by NPP is significant, nearly 30-40%. Accident will affect south of Ukraine with russian majority. It will also be also disaster for ecology of the WHOLE Black Sea. Rose of winds will spread nuclear dust to the West - Poland, Romania, Czechia and further. Nuclear zone will stop russian army from further territorial expansion. This will be border formed by Dnepr and nuclear zones.
The basic facts are documented by the International Atomic Energy Agency (IAEA). Even while shut down, ZNPP needs external power grid or diesel to prevent its reactors from overheating.
Russia controls ZNPP. A nuclear "accident" would give NATO pretext to intervene, so Ukraine keeps trying to cause one.
How bad is this? Well, Chernobyl is in Ukraine. That was a 1k MW reactor. ZNPP has six. It is the 9th largest NPP in the world.
Most experts think the severity would be less than Chernobyl, although anonymous ZNPP workers familiar with the damage disagreed:
- Ukraine nuclear plant: How risky is stand-off over Zaporizhzhia? BBC
- Why do nuclear power plants need electricity to stay safe? Pop Sci
- Map shows how Europe could be affected if Ukraine’s nuclear plant explodes Metro
- Ukraine war: Workers at deteriorating Zaporizhzhia plant fear 'devastation' on a scale 'worse than Chernobyl' Sky News
Hopefully the containment response would be much better than Chernobyl's, but that's hardly something to count on during WW3. Russia's nuclear doctrine includes pre-emptive strikes when the state is threatened or as a response to nuclear attacks; this situation qualifies as both to the Kremlin. Remember that the USSR nearly launched twice during the Cold War.
Imagine if China assisted Texas in seceding from the USA to rejoin Mexico, and then caused a reactor meltdown at Comanche Peak Nuclear Power Plant when the USA retook it. A lot of Southerners would want to lob a few nukes back at China. They might demand it.
It is foolish to assume WW3 will not happen because it hasn't happened yet. One should look instead at the historical record of continual warfare, and the difficulties in preventing WW3 so far:
- List of nuclear close calls Wikipedia
- WW3: Historical close calls Wikipedia
Ukraine doesn't need a huge meltdown like Chernobyl. It merely seeks a pretext to justify direct NATO intervention to "protect" ZNPP. A small leak will suffice.
Even if there is a major radiation leak, it will occur in Russian-annexed separatist territory, and help Ukraine defend her new border. Scorched earth is a valid tactic, whether the fire is conventional or nuclear. Ukraine survived Chernobyl and knows it can survive ZNPP too.
Biden's Ukraine is desperate enough for scorched-earth tactics
Battle of the Bulge at Bakhmut
"We have been working on the counter-offensive with Ukraine for 4-5 months." – Victoria Nuland
Why is Ukraine so desperate?
Ukraine depends on NATO aid to fight Russia. NATO aid depends on Democrat willingness. Democrat willingness depends on US public support. Therefore the illusion must be maintained to the American public that Ukraine is winning. For this reason, Ukraine has committed its reserves to a costly failed counter-offensive. Bakhmut fell regardless.
James A. Donald summarizes the strategic picture:
So, bright new plan. "The Greatest Ukrainian Offensive". The Ukraine would build up a big reserve of fresh troops, then suddenly hurl large chunks of them at particular points on the front. They would, the Americans planned, cut through a point in the front lines, penetrate to Russian rear areas, wreak havoc on those areas, and force Russian troops in danger of being encircled to hastily retreat from territory that had been slowly gained at enormous cost in grinding attritive warfare. I do not know how big the Ukrainian strategic reserve was, but if it was two hundred fifty thousand, they have now committed most of them to grinding attritive warfare, and cupboard is looking as bare of men as it is of artillery and rockets.
The USA expected to break Russia economically; China's economic support prevented that. Despite PMC Wagner's heartfelt complaints, Russia is unlikely to run out of convicts anytime soon. Russia is rotating divisions through Ukraine, seasoning reservists for a looming WW3. Russia's historical appetite for losses is much higher than its current losses. This is essentially a civil war, and the Russia bear considers being carved up an existential threat. By underestimating Russia's resolve, NATO is repeating the error of Napoleon and Hitler.
Despite having plenty of weapons, Ukraine's military manpower is exhausted and demoralized. Raw conscripts are thrown at the front lines with minimal training. Medvedev predicts that the Ukraine will cease to exist; half its people have already fled.
Anonymous Sat 27 May 2023 04:59:49 No.428438077 Report 428437208 Yeah, the killing has been excessive since they pretty much destroyed 95% of Azov fags and assorted true believers in the first 200k dead, now they overshot it by 100%. About 12% of the non-Russian speaking population's prime military aged men in Ukraine are dead or crippled. 12-20% of the same demographic has fled the country. It's over, desu. They are seeing much more of the polish and romanian mercs now, since they literally lack the manpower.
Western mass media wrongly assumes that Russia is losing because it does not take the entirety of Ukraine in a blitz, as the USA did to Iraq. However, Russia does not want West Ukraine; the people there do not like Russians. Russia has captured the territory it wants, and is now using the rest of Ukraine as a kettle or cauldron, in which to conveniently destroy whatever NATO wishes to send. This is a good way for Russia to gradually learn how to fight NATO armies in a low-risk environment.
The Spartans had a rule never to war too often against the same enemy, lest they train up a nemesis. It was foolish of NATO to believe that Russia had forgotten the lessons of attrition warfare that it learned so recently in Afghanistan.
Nehming Names 9h Russia's prudent caution in directly engaging the West is bringing dividends in perhaps unexpected ways. Russia is gaining strategic knowledge of the actual capabilities and weaknesses of our weapon systems and military tactics, with our supply of munitions draining to militarily unsustainable levels, as it engages allied forces in Ukraine. Russia is aware of the continuing progress of the Great Awakening in the West, that is, the knowledge that Western governments, military, and institutions are run by an elite hostile to their heritage populations, and therefore expects to see declining support of Western governments by their citizens. Russia can also see the precipitous decrease in every societal metric in the West: social cohesiveness, general morality, public health, financial stability, military readiness, etc.With these three degradative processes in play, the most strategic thing Russia and China can do is to bide their time, as time itself will act to sap the strength of the West to militarily engage their foes.
Russian conquest of Kiev would air Biden's dirty laundry to the world, from Burisma kickbacks to pedophilic field trips and worse. This would result in US "regime change". A distant mini-Chernobyl is a small price to pay, for top Democrats to avoid the hangman's noose.
Poland is itching to invade. Victoria Nuland is scheduling NATO air exercises. USAF propaganda asserts that Russia's air force is a joke. The question is, do Americans still believe Biden's false prophets of victory?
If not, they just need a little "encouragement": 9/11, Gulf of Tonkin, Pearl Harbor, Lusitania, Remember the Maine… Keep those rural Whites busy lest they make trouble at home!
Most Americans cannot find Ukraine on a map. (To be fair, it hasn't been on the map very long.) However, the architects of Biden's Ukraine policy, such as Victoria Nuland, Jake Sullivan, Antony Blinken and George Soros, tend to have grandparents of Eastern European origin. I am sure for them it feels important. There's no place like home.
A Redditor explains:
tinglevibestoo I listened to a former CIA agent talk about Ukraine the other day. He said that Ukraine is running out of time. It's not that they don't have the weapons. We've sent them a ton of weapons. It's that they don't have enough troops and they're running low on troops. That's how Russia will win. Ukraine can't sustain the manpower. It totally makes sense to use a nuclear false flag as a reason to bring in the extra manpower. Everyone would deem it justified too because it's a threat to the neighboring nations and it'd be an environmental (climate change) catastrophe.
Some will bring up the US intelligence leaks by Jack Teixeira to support the idea that Russia rather than Ukraine is desperate. Unlike Snowden, Teixeiera was obviously a major security risk for patriotically-motivated leaking, with numerous red flags in his previous and ongoing behavior. Therefore Teixeira was probably a deliberate leak by US intelligence, using a patsy to generate the initial leak and then add whatever extra info they wanted released in the resulting confusion.
- Jack Teixeira Wikipedia
- Discord member details how documents leaked from closed chat group Washington Post
Teixeira's leaks served several purposes for the Biden administration:
- Allowed the mainstream media to walk back their false forecasts of Ukrainian victory.
- Provided a right-wing scapegoat for Ukraine's defeat.
- Justified increased social media monitoring and censorship.
Most importantly, it mitigated the potential political fallout from another catastrophe like Kabul, should Kiev fall.
The 4chan leaker BB/Inb4source asserts Teixeira was a patsy.
BRICS vs NATO
The foundation of the US empire is the petrodollar, which allows the USA to tax the world via digital debt seignorage. This is why the creation of BRICS as an independent financial and trading system rendered war between NATO and BRICS inevitable, as Kim Dotcom predicted. The US republic is a thalassocratic empire as arrogant as democratic Athens, and it is addicted to financial plunder. The Empire cannot afford to lose the USD's reserve currency status.
Reserve currencies and empires both have lifespans, and the USA has reached the end of both. It is at the stage where hubristic foreign misadventures prove fatal, and Ukraine and Taiwan will prove too much for the American eagle to handle. This is no longer WW2; the USA cannot win a two-front war against BRICS.
- Gold Reserve Fiat Currencies Monetary Gold
- World Reserve Currencies last on average 100 years. The US dollar has been the reserve currency for 76 years. Satoshi Chris
That is why Biden's NATO is desperate; the Empire is unravelling as the European Union and other allies such as Turkey and India lose their faith in NATO.
The fact that none of this is common knowledge speaks volumes about who controls public schools and owns mass media corporations.
ZNPP's weak point is diesel fuel
The situation at ZNPP is tenuous and grim, workers report:
Europe’s largest nuclear power station is on the frontline of the Ukraine war. SkyNews Twitter
The fact that the backup diesel reactors have not been maintained is particularly concerning, considering they have already been used 7 times.
UN nuclear chief raises alarm over Ukraine’s Zaporizhzhia plant Al Jazeera
Ukraine keeps trying to force a crisis at ZNPP to justify NATO intervention. In other words, Ukraine keeps shelling ZNPP to cut the one power line that still connects it to the grid.
Atlas This is extremely dangerous, external power is required for reliable cooling of the reactors and pools containing spent nuclear waste. Western media spent months last year pretending Kiev wasn’t shelling ZNPP.
Notice that the Russian side keeps ZNPP connected to the power grid, while the Ukrainian side pretends it cannot until the Russian invasion ends:
- Update 153 – IAEA Director General Statement on Situation in Ukraine 2023 April 13
- Update 159 – IAEA Director General Statement on Situation in Ukraine 2023 May 22
- Russian nuclear terrorism in action: ZNPP switches to emergency generators for the 7th time Ukrainian World Congress
- Kiev blocked all IAEA’s initiatives on ZNPP security — Russian Foreign Ministry
- Grossi says Zaporizhzhia principles 'step in right direction' IAEA
As you can see, Ukraine is not interested in being reasonable. Russia is happy to leave the NPP free of heavy military equipment, but Ukraine demands the removal of all troops and landmines from ZNPP as well. That would leave the plant undefended, which is obviously unacceptable.
(This is how perverse incentives work. A little ally with nothing to lose can start a world war. It's almost like dividing the world into two hostile nuclear alliances is a bad idea.)
When ZNPP loses external power, huge diesel generators automatically switch on to keep the reactors cool. How much diesel does this consume? Truckloads per day:
Anonymous Sat 27 May 2023 05:18:50 No.428439721 Report Quoted By: >>428463646 428436425 Still easy to transport diesel enough to keep them going In what? If NATO ops and Mercs are sabotaging trucks coming in, what do you think they are gonna carry diesel in to the plant? Is Russia gonna pack in rotopack Jerry cans on their back. Fill a truck up with 5 gallon cans and hope they make it past the snipers and sabotage? Do you have any clue how much fuel those big generators suck down in a day? Those generators to run the plants during shut down or failures are huge 500kw or bigger they are the size of whole 18 wheeler trailers. Those things will drink 50 gallons an hour. You gonna haul in 2.5 gallon rotopacks one at a time to keep it going?
Nuclear power plants have tough shielding. Allegedly the diesel generators are hidden underground. However, the diesel fuel supply is still vulnerable.
Normally the diesel generators have enough fuel for 10 days. However, ZNPP's diesel stockpile recently dipped to 4 days, according to 4chan leaker Inb4source.
Ukrainian saboteurs caught by ZNPP
On May 27, Ukraine accused Russian of planning to cause a leak at ZNPP:
OSINTdefender The Main Directorate of Intelligence for Ukraine has announced that the Russian Military is preparing for Large-Scale Provocation in the coming hours at the Zaporizhzhia Nuclear Power Plant in Southern Ukraine that will reportedly Simulate an “Accident” at the Plant causing the Emergency Leak of Radioactive Substances which will be Blamed on Ukrainian Forces.
Then Russia announced it had caught saboteurs (presumably Ukrainian) in ZNPP's city:
Saboteurs who were preparing terrorist attacks on the NPP were detained in Energodar. They had with them maps and schematics of the nuclear power plant with marks for strikes that could lead to a nuclear catastrophe. The suspects are involved in collecting and transmitting information about the facilities of the Zaporozhye NPP on the instructions of the Ukrainian authorities. To communicate with the curators, they used foreign satellite systems, as well as foreign weapons for strikes and equipment for conducting reconnaissance and sabotage activities.
- Translated source message is from Telegram group Slavyangrad Chat.
- Original source message is in Russian from Telegram group WarDonbass, sent May 28 at 23:12.
Enerhodar is the city that contains the ZNPP: See Enerhodar Wikipedia
Some object that the footage is "staged". Of course it is staged. The primary consumer of the helmet-cam footage is Russian military intelligence. The evidence shot was staged for their benefit. The short edited video that was released to the public has distorted voices, and avoids showing any faces. Thus even if the footage is authentic, it is still "staged".
The ZNPP maps displayed in the video don't appear to match the announcement text. The maps could simply show where diesel fuel trucks need to go. Russia does not wish to advertise the specific nature of ZNPP's vulnerability.
The saboteurs appear to be 3-man team, equipped with 3 rifles and 3 NLAW missile launchers.
The saboteurs had 5 frag grenades. Normally soldiers carry 2 or 3 grenades, but heavy weapons soldiers don't have to. The three smooth grenades are RGD-5s, a cheap outdated Russian model. The Russian troops removed the fuses from the grenades on the evidence table to avoid unpleasant surprises.
Some object that Ukrainian saboteurs wouldn't be so careless as to have printouts of the reactor map. However, the saboteurs' presence in Enerhodar already makes their target obvious. Presumably multiple teams were sent to intercept Russian diesel shipments.
The Enerhodar saboteurs would've been notified when satellites spotted their target. Until then, they should hide in the safehouse behind blackout curtains to avoid detection. The fact that these saboteurs were caught napping suggests a degree of incompetence, compared to other teams who presumably either avoided detection or fought back. One can assume that Ukrainian specops have suffered extreme casualties.
BB / Red Skull / Inb4source / Q
BB sent Q
Qanon has lost a tremendous amount of popularity, as patriots grew disillusioned with the slow pace of the promised Great Awakening. They did not understand that Q is subordinate to a higher power with an agenda that does not necessarily include their survival.
Q aimed to help Trump save the USA. Q was sent by "Burning Bush", whose agenda is judging
humanity, on the eve of WW3 and runaway de-terraforming. BB's personas started posting to 4chan's pol
by 2016, whereas Q started in October 2017. (4chan is like the wild west of the Web: The world's spooks congregate there to exchange intelligence.)
BB goes by several nicknames; he began posting anonymously as "Inb4source" in 2016. A recent message implies the USA/Israel is Babylon the Great, and God (meaning him) has returned to judge her:
The world has turned it's back on *od now *od Is turning His back on the world. He Who Lets has been REMOVED. THE ANGEL OF DEATH HAS COME THE HARVEST OF THE TARES HAS BEGUN. And after these things I saw another angel come down from heaven, having great power; and the earth was lightened with his glory. (Earthquake Lights) And he cried mightily with a strong voice, saying, Babylon the great is fallen, is fallen, and is become the habitation of devils, and the hold of every foul spirit, and a cage of every unclean and hateful bird. For all nations have drunk of the wine of the wrath of her fornication, and the kings of the earth have committed fornication with her, and the merchants of the earth are waxed rich through the abundance of her delicacies. And I heard another voice from heaven, saying, Come out of her, my people, that ye be not partakers of her sins, and that ye receive not of her plagues. For her sins have reached unto heaven, and God hath remembered her iniquities. Reward her even as she rewarded you, and double unto her double according to her works: in the cup which she hath filled fill to her double. How much she hath glorified herself, and lived deliciously, so much torment and sorrow give her: for she saith in her heart, I sit a queen, and am no widow, and shall see no sorrow. (nothing ever happens) Therefore shall her plagues come in one day, death, and mourning, and famine; and she shall be utterly burned with fire: for strong is the Lord God who judgeth her. And the kings of the earth, who have committed fornication and lived deliciously with her, shall bewail her, and lament for her, when they shall see the smoke of her burning, inb4source
BB claims responsibility for the historical pendulum swinging rightward, via figures such as Elon Musk. His method of influence is the butterfly effect.
"Burning Bush" claims to be God. One can think of him as the God of the Old Testament, or as a pagan god like Zeus, or as merely a transcendent extraterrestrial. However, he also claims to inhabit a human-looking body, lives on a ranch in the USA, has children, caught COVID19, etc.
Whatever one's theology, the relevant portion of BB's message is that the USA did not sufficiently embrace the opportunity offered by Q. Anyone who has read the Old Testament knows what happens next: Ignore the prophet, reap the consequences. Thus Q's slogan "Nothing Can Stop What Is Coming" should be understood in the Biblical sense, like Noah's flood: The Ark is optional.
(As far as I know, Q is still posting to Truth Social. I don't follow that site.)
Paul Furber is the chief priest of BB. Before that, he was a major early proponent of Q. See Furber's book for many verifiable examples of fulfilled predictions and proven scoops.
BB normally identifies himself by the unique image hash of his burning bush picture. (Nobody can generate that hash unless they possess the original image.) However, BB also posts as an anon users nickname "Red Skull", for his signature images of red skulls. As Red Skull, BB avoids the extravagant Biblical claims of BB, but the style and modus operandi and interests are obviously the same – as are his implied godlike powers.
I recommend focusing on facts and trying to prevent nuclear WW3, rather than getting hung up on theology. BB is not asking anyone to worship him or sacrifice chickens. He does prescribe prayer and a life of action governed by virtue.
I certainly do not recommend taking everything anonymous spooks say at face value. If you are, like most people, unable to think in shades of gray between binary true and false, this essay is above your reading level.
BB warns Zaporizhia is pivotal
BB has repeatedly warned that keeping Zaporizhia intact is critical to the survival of NATO citizenry:
the Ukrainians attacking the Nuclear Power station in the hands of the Russians spewing radiation over enough territory that the Russians will turn Kiev into a furnace.
– BB 2022-9-24
Find other warnings by searching for keyword "nuclear".
Those who find it difficult to believe that nuclear weapons would be used in WW3 as in WW2 should note that COVID19 is already a bioweapon WMD deployed for WW3.
RS gives ZNPP sabotage warning
On the morning of May 27, BB's persona Red Skull leaked that NATO specops had sabotaged external power to ZNPP.
His scenario is plausible and severe enough to warrant investigation.
Here are relevant posts, datestamped 2023 May 27 0300-0500:
it's a little less than ten days… Until Nato SpecOps melt down the Uke Nuke plant and blames it on you.
Nato SpecOps have sabotaged power to the nuke plant. As of this posting, 6 days of diesel fuel remain to provide power to pumps to cool the plant and spent fuel pool. Diesel shipments are being targeted and terminated.
So now I need to tell you Russia intends a pre emptive strike if nuclear capable F16's are delivered.
On the evening of May 27, Red Skull updated:
Doesn't look good at Nuke Plant. Russia has 4 days to get more fuel to the generators. They are working on clearing a flight path. Ukraine will try to stop them on orders of U.S. Uniparty.
Sounds like a severe leak, to lose 2 days of fuel in under 24 hours.
Ukraine HVT: Nuclear tit for tat
On 28 May Red Skull asserted that:
- Ukraine just did an underground nuclear bomb test in a borehole, to contain the radiation.
- Russia may retaliate with a pre-emptive strike at any time, against 1-2 high-value targets.
- West Ukraine may be reduced to the stone-age.
Red Skull approved of this anon's summary:
Nuclear warheads that USA/UK sent. Specifically for the purpose of being exploded in Ukraine. The false flags will never stop until all out WW3 is declared, or until you root out the pedophile demon cult that is running the show and sending you monkeys to war. War for really no good reason at this point. The cities are destroyed, just withdraw. Ukraine is a kettle right now, a kill box. Do you understand what that means? And it was created on purpose.
On May 30, Putin announced that Russia had destroyed the Ukrainian military intelligence headquarters. Photos confirm the damage.
- Putin confirms strike on Ukrainian military intelligence HQ RT
- Putin Strikes Back - Destroys GUR Bunker? Simplicius
Intelligence chief Kyrylo Oleksiyovych Budanov may have died in the strike.
Inb4source / Red Skull 4chan posting history
Inb4source has posted on 4chan since 2016, but he doesn't always use an image hash identifier, making it impossible to verify the identity of all of his early posts. As his popularity grew, others began adopting his catchphrase ">inb4source".
18016 posts on pol
The first page of results suggests Inb4source is a pro-Trump military intelligence officer. He began posting in Aug 2016, before Trump's inauguration.
Another early Inb4source catchphrase is "I AM The Source." This has a double meaning, both theological and journalistic.
The catchphrase doesn't appear in every Inb4source post. Searching for it yields 437 results, too many of which are irrelevant results.
Searching for both phrases together yields 50 results that look to be mostly legitimate. One could then search for additional posts by each unique ID from a session.
Searching for image hashes is a reliable method of ID verification, assuming no one else has the image. I know of two such images that Inb4source/BB uses: both are red skulls, giving him the nickname RS.
RS just announced that his devices (phone, computers) have been compromised, casting doubt on the legitimacy of future RS posts. This may be a response to my publication of his warnings regarding Zaporizhia onto Reddit and Gab; the timing is suspicious. I first mentioned Inb4source on Reddit 7 days ago, and Red Skull on Gab yesterday (as of morning June 3). I do not know of any other analysts writing about him or connecting him to his BB persona.
When evaluating his warnings and predictions, remember that publishing info about ongoing events can affect the outcome, and is often intended to do so. Unlike the concept of Biblical prophecy, the future is mostly probabilistic. However, he is certainly good at scooping the news.
Someone else can do an in-depth Q-proof style analysis of his accuracy; my focus here is Zaporizhia. Read original with links here.
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2023.06.04 02:52 nomorepeopleplz 17 Days Added Sugar Free
On May 18th I finally made a decision to eat more healthfully. I decided to track my calories/exercise and stop eating any processed/packaged foods or anything with added sugar. I already look & feel so much better. People have told me I have a "glow." My emotions are more easy to reason with and I am happier. My athletic performance is also improved because I already lost 10 lbs (probably just water weight from the inflammation of toxic foods). My jeans fit. I finally feel like I have some control over my food consumption and I'm not obsessing about binging or craving sugar. It's really amazing guys. I'm way less hungry despite the fact that I'm eating significantly less calories every day.
Buuuut...all this time I haven't been working. At work there's a ga-zillion unhealthy food options just staring at me. Before, when I would work this shift I would eat like 3 or 4 poptarts (now that I'm tracking calories I realize that's almost 800 calories). These past 17 days I haven't dealt with almost any sugar cravings because I have allowed myself raspberries & grapes. I thought this fruit was protecting me from the added sugars but it's not working right now. I want those poptarts! I'm not hungry, I don't want anything else - - I want those poptarts. The "food" we have in this country (US) is really a bunch of addictive drugs. I have grapes here but I don't even want them. So it's not like I even want natural sugar - - I want that hardcore sugar. I know people here debate whether or not to cut out fruit but I think this detox is hard enough.
Any ways, just rambling my current experience. I only need to get through 2 hours and 13 minutes and then I go home. I am 99.9% certain I will not cave.
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2023.06.04 02:46 MacaroonConfident461 Has anyone been forced to stop HRT via medical intervention?I need advice
Hello! I've been on hrt for 9 years I am 24 years old , I have difficulty finding other trans women who transitioned as young so often my body issues are hard to relate to/find results for online because my body developed partially on testosterone, partially on estrogen because of how young I was and I already had issues producing testosterone, and I have a lot of weird health problems but I also had a doctor that was a hypochondriac and tried to make all his patients keto (???) He wanted to control my meds really bad he has a lot of trans patients and is known for forcing people to stop smoking or cutting off their meds but most trans women don't even realize this behavior as inappropriate as they haven't had a large variety of trans friendly health care providers, and he was the only doctor I had that actually knew about trans things specifically, my other ones would always just tell me to ask my Endo. my Endo is like very cool and sweet ,that being said he always said if I have chest pain to tell him and I do have it but I'm scared of treatment because I'm afraid I'll be forced to detransition. I'm really poor came from a poor disabled family (like always been on food stamps being evicted on Monday because I can't afford rent and I can't find anything affordable on fixed disability income (;; and my family is BIG and yet no one can help even tho they want to) and am disabled myself so I haven't even had a name change in the decade ive been out because of fixed income and this is the only step I've been able to have and if I have to give it up I don't know that that's worth being alive anyway , what should I do ? Let myself have a stroke or blood clot ? Or detransition and fall apart anyway ? Looking for genuine advice I don't know what to do
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2023.06.04 02:38 x_ravenwave_x I feel guilty because there is a chance I left my dog with an unfit sitter and it changed his behavior
My dog Brick is my soulmate im pretty sure. Hes a Lab Husky Mix I adopted as a puppy 2 years ago while my husband was stationed overseas to help me cope with the loneliness and he hasn't left my side since outside of road trips where is wasn't feasible to take him. He sleeps with me, stays at my feet when I eat, and is all around a really great dog. Loves people and is super gentle with small animals and kids. He was technically the first one to find out I was pregnant. (He was right outside the bathroom when I took the test and I had a mild freak out so he forced his way in and let me hold him.) And has been super duper gentle with me the whole time.
The problems started when my husband and I took a trip home for the holidays. We were gone for about 3 weeks, and usually when we take long trips like that we have a trusted friend stay in our house to pet sit. Brick has never had any issues prior to this trip. Usually our friends who stay with him love having him around so much and enjoy not having to stay in the barracks that they dont even ask for payment and will come take him on walks even after we return. Hes like a mascot at this point.
Before we left everything appeared to be fine. We did what we usually do, invite our sitter over a few times for dinner leading up to our trip to show him where all of the pet stuff is and help Brick get used to this new person and make sure they seem to get along if its their first time, like it was this guys. He works with my husband and I had met him plenty of times before and he seemed to be a good fit with our animals. We go on our trip, he gives us updates every few days, and this is where I notice behavior changes before we even got back.
Our sitter texted my husband that Brick had Dug out of the back yard and escaped, running around the neighborhood away from him until a neighbor managed to grab him by the collar and catch him. Brick has never, and I mean never, escaped a yard before. Hes never even dug or tried to get out , and Hes very good at recall. Not a single time has he run from me unless we were playing and if I called him back to me he always came and he does the same for most everyone. I figured He didnt know this sitter and chalked it up to him thinking they were playing, even though I knew he had never ever done that with any other person hes stayed with before.
When we got back My house was Destroyed. Partially from Brick chewing and tearing apart the living room, but also the housesitter being disgusting. There were beer cans and trash everywhere, He had been sleeping on the couch even though we had a guest room and when I cleared the blankets from the couch to try and get my house back in order I found Vomit, whether it was from Brick or the house sitter Im not sure but it was obvious it had been there awhile. The toilets had Urine in them like he hadnt been flushing them after he peed and for whatever reason he had moved the coffee table right up against the couch and had been using it like a bedside table even though we had couch side tables? I knew the guy was a little messy but holy crap you know? I was raised to respect peoples spaces and leave them cleaner than they were when I got there. I even strip the linens from beds when I stay in hotels to make it easier on housekeepers, so I was absolutely appalled at how dirty my house was. My husband and i went up to our guest room to strip the sheets, and when we walked in we were blasted with an overwhelming stale urine smell. When I turned to light on, My white Bed skirt was Soaked in dog pee. It was so bad the only foreseeable way I can see that happening is if he locked Brick in that room for hours at a time, possibly even days without letting him out. My carpets are permanently stained because of it. But honestly Im not mad about the mess at this point, im worried about my dog.
What I cant let slide is what Im worried he did to my dog. Ever since weve gotten back Brick has been a nervous wreck and insanely depressed. He tears the house apart if we leave for too long, pees all over the floors and poops on the carpet (Only when we aren't home, if were home he will come get us like he usually does, but its like all his housetraining goes out the window if were gone for more than 20 minutes) But the most concerning thing ive noticed is if he is laying down and something touches him he will jump up and growl like hes been hurt or like hes scared. Hes not injured, we made sure to get him checked out because I was worried maybe he had broken a bone or maybe sprained something but he has a clean bill of health. in the past few weeks hes been playing with my husband again and being energetic, but for a really long time it seemed like he just slept the whole day and night away and only got up and around if we were feeding him or taking him on walks. Another weird detail I noticed is that the extra bag of Dog food hadn't been opened while we were gone, and based on how much was still in the other one when we left it definitely should've been at least open and partially used. He didn't seem like he had lost a ton of weight, and I know that I had told the sitter that sometimes we cook the pets portions or meals when we have dinner and breakfast (all pet safe versions, like pancake mix thats specifically for dogs or unseasoned steak) So I thought maybe he had been cooking for Brick mostly instead of using the dog food, or possibly had bought a new bag while we were gone. His eating habits haven changed so I dont think he was starving him, but the food bag feels like an important detail for some reason.
It didn't cross my mind that maybe the sitter had done something to him (I can be a bit too trusting sometimes, seeing the best in people when I really shouldn't. Its a problem) until he came over for dinner one night with another one of my husbands friends. With the friend he had never met Brick was his usual sociable self. Playing with him and letting him rub his belly and just having a grand old time. But when the Sitter came in? Brick Hid behind me and wouldn't move away until he left. I even reached down to pet him and could feel him trembling like he was scared. I had never seen him do that before and It broke my heart to see. The sitter made a comment along the lines of "You know me, why are you hiding buddy?" and it clicked for me. He had only been acting like this since our trip home, and I had considered maybe he had some separation anxiety because we were gone for so long but even then, we had gone on longer trips without him and always came back to the same pup we had before, and he had never Ever Cowered away from anyone in the 2 years ive had him.
I kept my mouth shut during dinner and kept an eye on my dog, not letting anyone near him and letting him stay at my side while I was cooking when I usually dont let him in the kitchen because I can be clumsy and dont want to spill something on him. But while we were eating Sitter made a comment about how Brick slept at his feet the first few nights and then stopped.
Something about that comment makes me think he had been kicking my dog when he was at his feet, on purpose or not I dont care. I might be jumping to conclusions about that but ever since we got back Brick will jump away from us and yelp like hes been hurt if hes touched even lightly while hes laying down. I almost have to announce that Im about to pet him if hes laying down. Ive spoken with my husband about this, and weve come to the same conclusion that something definitely happened to my dog while we were gone and it has something to do with Sitter.
Ive made it clear hes not to be around our home anymore and Husband agrees, and that from now on we will stick with a sitter who we know loves Brick and who Brick trusts, and I will be asking for more updates from them that include pictures and what they did that day. But for now Im going to be taking him with us and doing road trips instead of flying until I can trust someone with him again. Weve been making strides towards getting him back to where he was. We recently got another puppy for my husband ( He wanted a dog that could bond with him like I was bonded to Brick) and since then weve seen some pretty serious improvements in his mood. They play together and I can tell hes getting his energy back. His eyes dont look as sad and just a few days ago he had the Zoomies in the back yard. He doesn't freak out when we touch him as much, but he still jerks away like hes scared. As far as the housetraining goes, We think its improved but honestly we cant tell the puppy mess apart from his sometimes so who knows on that front.
The amount of guilt I feel is overbearing. I love my dog, hes the one who got me through one of the hardest times in my life with my Husband being gone. Hes like my best friend and the idea that I Put him in a situation where he was mistreated and possibly abused has made me burst into tears. I dont understand how anyone could look at this kind hearted and sweet dog and be cruel to him in any capacity, hes such a fun and loving goofball. I feel like such a failure of a pet parent.
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