He will never ballin

The new album is absolutely amazing and as many others have said, and in my opinion, is a strong contender for one of their best albums ever.
Having said that, never has an album been able to draw so many strong emotions from me all at the same time. Feelings of loss, sadness, love, melancholy, and of course, the dreaded feeling of coming to terms with your own mortality and of your loved ones mortality.
It makes me want to hug everyone around me because you never know if this is the last time you will ever see that person.
It also makes me feel like I sometimes take life for granted and need to do a better job of appreciating those that are still in my life while they are still there.
Thank you Foo Fighters for helping me reflect and take life and those around me, less for granted. You have given us a gift with your latest masterpiece.
I love you all.

My ex broke up with me, but he was upset because I wanted to move out. He wanted to keep himself open for a chance with another girl, and I had already put 9 years of my entire being into the relationship. He wants to go explore and not miss out on the opportunities he feels like he missed out on because he was dating me. I stayed because I'm the only one paying the bills, and it's been tough on our landlord recently. We have enough space to separate, but he keeps trying to push on as if we are still together. He tells all his guy friends that I'm his girl. Even showed them some pictures of me that he should have deleted since breaking up with. He told the girl he's trying to talk to that I'm not his girl. He's been chasing after her our whole relationship, and I agreed with the breakup in order to give him the space he needed. He keeps going through my stuff, to the point that I had to change my passwords. Meanwhile he had already locked me out of everything.
She has made it very clear that she's not interested, but doesn't mind continuing hanging out with him knowing how bad he wants a chance with her. She thinks it's just a phase. This really bothers me, as I'm not the type to let people stay around me just hoping for a chance. He thinks hanging out with her even more is going to help him get over her. She has no idea of what we've been through, and he's lied to her on many occasions about events that happened.
She wants to hang out with me apparently, but I've already reached the point of saying fuck both of them. As in the past I've tried talking to her, but her responses were always, "well I need to hear that from him, in order to tell who's lying" I understand as he has already told her I'm only here to start drama, but it's sad that I would never have known a lot of the truth had I never thought to ask her. They were always hanging out during inappropriate hours and he wouldn't return until the morning and he even ditched plans we had on many occasions throughout the years, in order to spend time with her. We only have one car and it's interfered with my work and his kids. She doesn't know any of this. All she knows is the version he told her, which is "Oh my gf didn't want to hang out with us" when in fact I had been asking to go.
She doesn't understand that in the past he broke up with me every time they would hang out so that he wouldn't have to feel guilty if the chance landed in his lap. Those are his words to me. So now he wants full on permission. According to him she's been interested in me since she first saw me, and he kept her from me, because he wanted her all to himself. I've done nothing but support their friendship, but he doesn't do the same. Instead since I'm bi, he accuses me of trying to leave him for anyone literally. He's worried her and I will run off together as well. He thinks I'm just being difficult by not giving in, but during the entire 9 years together, I don't ever remember being truly happy. It has felt more like taking care of a child. I feel like he's just trying to use me to get closer to her romantically.
He just started cleaning up the house for me after all this time, and none of it seems genuine, as his reasonings would be " It was the least I could do since I'm going to hang out with her" . I would like to be able to hang out and be cool, but I would also like to be loved in the way that I desire to be loved. Communication isn't an issue on my end. I have consistently and calmly explained to him what bothers me, and what I need done. He'll say he understands, and then flip the script days later. Starting the argument again. I've done nothing but compromise with him and it seems to have gotten me nowhere. I'm on the verge of dropping everything and just disappearing. Should I just block them both and leave it be? He says he's compromising with me, because he's not being as flirty and active as he really wants to be. Need advice.

I went to urgent care Thursday afternoon, said my pilonidal cyst from last year might have spread to where my current abscess is. She said since it was on the wall of my crack, the tissue area there makes it more painful than usual. It is red and inflamed. It was too hard for them to I&D it, so they prescribed me 300 mg clindamycin 4 times a day for 10 days. She also said to take 800 mg of Motrin and 1000 mg of Tylenol every 4 hours for pain management. My legs feel sore/hurt and I’m not sure if it’s due to me being tense while I walk or if it’s the cyst itself. It’s Saturday morning and I’m still in a lot of pain and my red area is starting to show up as a white circle. Urgent care also referred me to a general surgeon, but the earliest appointment isn’t until July 11th! I’m scared of being septic and of going to get it drained bc I know it will be excruciating. Is there a chance I go and they deem me necessary for surgery? I have insurance and I’m just so lost on options. I’ve never had this happen before, so I’m scared and fearful or also going to the ER too late. Any suggestions?

As we know, Voldemort can read minds sufficiently well that only the very best Occlumens in his world like Snape can shield their thoughts from him, so if the average person was trying to bullshit him, he'd know.
In this scenario, Voldemort will be having a conversation with someone he suspects is an enemy, and he will already be well aware of the existence of the 'Joe Mama' joke. The other person must get him to ask "who's Joe?" so they can then reply "Joe Mama!"

I need some perspective and advice because I'm a bit broken down right now.
I (32f) have been with fiance (38m) for going on 3 years. Bedroom situation has been maybe once or twice a month for a year and a half, 2 yearish.
When it started to slow I asked him about it and talked about it and he said it was due to him taking steroids and then stopping fairly abruptly which tanked his testosterone. I kept trying to initiate and occasionally have talks for quite a while (which he denies now) but it didn't result in a change (and I think he ended up getting frustrated) and I guess here we are.
Yesterday he woke me up at about 5.30am and tried to initiate but I needed to be up and getting to work in an hour, and I just felt myself sort of shut down and shrug him away. And I've been bothered since, I think I just sort of shut down the issue in general and any expectation of sex and I think it's quietly and badly hurt my self esteem. I don't feel sexy, I don't feel like he is attracted to me and I think I have a fear of trying to initiate things now and even the idea makes me feel stupid and awkward.
My previous relationship was almost a decade of dead bedroom whilst my ex cheated on me numerous times. I think I still have some trauma from that too, it really hurt my confidence that I never really got back.
I just tried to talk to my partner about things and it didn't go well, I was already emotional when I started. He said that I don't seduce him (and he's right) but am I wrong for feeling like the ball is in his court? I tried and communicated I needed a healthy sex life numerous times before and I don't know how to go into seduction mode when I feel this disconected to myself sexually and anxious.
I think part of the issue is that for a long time now I've been pushing for more time together. We live together with his teenage son. Generally I get home from work, we hang out while him and his son game and I go to bed. He stays up much later than me so I'm asleep when he comes to bed. Often he falls asleep on the couch. And then I get up a lot earlier than him and go to work. I've pointed out before that it's kind of impossible to have a sex life if we have no alone time, and things have got better and we have a date night once a week but if we go out to eat he'll then spend time with his son when we get back and I'll go to bed. And if we stay in we watch something together in the living room.
When I approached my partner today about the lack of intimacy his stance is that I needed to find something to watch on Netflix we can watch in our room together on date nights and then sex would happen. That I don't seduce him (this is this first time he has brought this up) and that's why we're not having sex. And that sex isn't something you talk about like this and that it's not about words but about action and that I just killed his boner by bringing it up.
But I don't know how to find the confidence to be a seductress right now. My self esteem in this area is tanked. But I'm not sure he understands where I'm coming from and the state of our intimacy doesn't seem to be an issue for him. Which makes me feel even more that he just doesn't want to have sex with me.
I really need some help. What can we do to fix this?

I want to preface this post by saying I LOVE LOVE LOVE Yellowjackets. Even Season 2 (I'll get to that shortly). That Misty Musical scene when she's in the water pod made the whole season for me!
But I feel like this sub has recently gotten a little aggressive towards people who point out flaws which are very clearly there: (Why did all the adult women start hunting Shauna when they said a day earlier Lottie was being crazy, specifically Nat and Misty; How did Walter get all the bank and phone information of, according to the timeline, deaths that only happened about a week earlier; How did Lisa and Callie show up at the hunt at the exact same time and right as Shauna was about to die; Why did a police officer submit to Walter's blackmail when he could have just arrested him right there and told his whole story, as a police officer, which is much more credible;).
One of the biggest flaws that people have been ready to point out is Nat's death. I believe it is , too. I understand that it's supposed to be juxtaposing Javi's death, it's just not done well. There was like still a foot between Nat and Misty when Nat jumped in front of Lisa AND Nat's jacket was like an inch thick AND did Misty have that the whole time?
But I don't even care about the flaws. Let people enjoy things they enjoy, right? And I'm certainly still enjoying it. Still one of my favorite shows, Buzz Buzz Buzz!
For me, the problem is, as someone who grew up during the LOST era, this show is exhibiting signs of Mystery Box syndrome. It's introducing more characters and mysteries at a rate than it can solve the old ones.
We already started with a plethora of mysteries (Dark Tai; Cabin Man**; man with no eyes; Who is the Antler Queen; What are the “real” dark things they’ve done; what does the symbol mean; is it supernatural or not; how will they get found; and many more).
**Yes I’m aware cabin man will be in the bonus episode, but a main plot point shouldn’t be in a bonus episode months away from the actual season.
Season 2 not only doesn’t answer any of those questions, but adds a lot more (why is Lottie seeing visions again now; Who is Walter, really; will Tai’s wife get out of the coma; Will Lisa tell on them; Will there be a battle against Coach Ben; and a lot more;)
I know the common response to qualms like this is that 'they have a 5 season plan and we just need to be patient' but LOST had 6 seasons and left a ton of stuff unsolved. When the rate of introducing new mysteries is greater than the rate of solving mysteries, they're gonna end up just not resolving some plot points. And I think that'll be disappointing for such a great show.
I say this because, as a lover of Yellowjackets, I think there's merit in criticizing the thing you love, so that they can learn from it and make these last 3 seasons even better.
Idk, that's my 2 cents. Hope you all have a great day!

My boyfriend haven’t been together for long, but I always felt we were really close and clicked really well. I’m 20, he’s 25.
Every day (except for 1) since we got together, we have fought and its ended every time in my having to fight for us to stay together and try and prove my obvious innocence to his claims of me being disloyal in some form, which when he conveys them to me feel so convicting, harsh, and without reasonable premises.
I spend every day crying (except for that one day) because of this stuff, then after hours of BS, we make up, and then the cycle starts again in the next 12 hours (if we even make it that far without fighting again).
I know he is so incredibly paranoid as a result of his previous relationships resulting in being cheated on and such, but I’ve not done anything.
Here is a chronological list of some events we’ve ‘endured’ together within the last 5 days or so:
• One day he accused me of cheating and trying to find male validation because I told a friend about my new painted toe nails. The same day he argued with me again and accused me of playing with him, cheating on him and being disloyal yet again. Both of these blown out arguments have lasted hours, sometimes even entire half days, just fighting back and forth and trying to be heard. We then make up after and say we trust each other and give each other more chance.
• The next day we fought again about the same stuff and it also lasted quite some hours, and it was basically a repeat of the day before. We then make up after and say we trust each other and give each other more chance.
• The day after the next day, we did in fact fight again and also lasted multiple hours and was regarding the same topics, and throws up every single other fight we had and tries to use the same reasons with no premises from the he used the previous fights we had. We then make up after and say we trust each other and give each other more chance.
• Then we went 1 entire day without fighting!!! (catch is that it was because he was at work and works busy and long 12 hour shifts!) The day was peaceful and I thought we were doing well.
• Yesterday, I can barely remember but I believe we didn’t fight, but it’s possible we did. I truly cannot remember, I have memory problems that are induced by trauma, mental illness, and probably the amount of weed I smoke lol. We called for so many hours, typically we call for upwards of 15 hours a day because he’s a bit farther from me right now, but we only called for around 6 hours. He went quiet suddenly and I assumed he went to sleep, but after an hour he messages me and it isn’t the case. He is dry and I can tell something is wrong.
• This morning I woke up at exactly 3:33am in terrible pain from the chronic gallstone attacks I get, and went outside to go smoke weed to relieve the pain. I go to text my beloved man and I see he’s blocked me and my messages won’t go through, but on socials it showed he’s still in a a relationship with me. I panicked hard and started messaging him on a different social, begging to just talk and understand what happened. He’s at work, messaged me on his break 30 mins ago, and we fought yet again, because he said: “you can go ahead and unadd me again whenever you want im not arguing with you today, my days already ruined yo, you arent loyal and for some reason you wanna keep unfollowing and following people Idk what the fck your issue is really but its really annoying. Dont text me back, just fcking unadd me dude, god knows how many other dudes you talk to behind my back.”
All of these arguments have stemmed from his paranoia.
Now we are trying to work through things. This is not the only issue, but when we aren’t arguing, he has been using lots of positive reinforcement to me when he feels i’ve been loyal to him.
But this is where it gets worse, he told me a few days ago that if he finds out i’m playing with him, he will come to my apartment and end me then himself right after. I told him, “no you won’t, you’re too sweet”. He was laughing quietly abt it and got very serious and was repeating how he definitely would, but if i’m scared then i must be cheating because if i wasn’t then i wouldn’t have a reason to be scared.
I mostly believe he would attempt this.
Can someone please tell me their thoughts or opinions and maybe lend some advice for me:(? If you have any other questions, I’m happy to answer. I just hope he doesn’t frequent this subreddit. I feel like i’m out of options.

When I owned my own place I use to grill a few times a week on just a small coleman portable gas grill on the patio. Ribeye was 7.99/lb at Trader Joe's and life was good.
Fast forward to today I'm living in a different city in a rented apt, with no patio or area I can grill in. The landlady would have a heart attack if I bought something like a gas grill so I'm looking for something electric, or stovetop, with which to cook which wouldn't piss her off.
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I just bought a matfeur carbon steel so I'll be trying that. But I've searched the BBQ forum and years older posts indicate things like stovetop smokers, or electric smokers, are a possibility too. I even saw one product for like 20 bucks which claims you can add it to any kind of cook (oven, grill, etc) and it will add smoke flavor. I saw others that looked like buffet trays with a grill and place for wood chips under which could add smoke flavor on the stovetop.
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Just wondering what the best flavor might come from here, I've never smoked, I'm open to whatever. My little gas coleman use to provide very delicious crusts and flavor I was extremely satisified with. I'll likely do steaks (not even sure what's affordable any more, ribeye, tri tip, etc), burgers, and maybe some veggies. Not a fish guy unless it's a fish taco. Likely won't do chicken. But turkey legs could be a thing if I brined them first!
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Anyway just looking for more recent ideas of indoor grill/bbq solutions!
Thanks for your time.

My 14 year old kitty, Mel passed on Wednesday afternoon. It was an unmedicated death, and the last few minutes are burnt into my eyes. It wasn't very peaceful. I cried a little, we buried him.
And since then, I feel nothing. I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm able to function as normal. I don't feel happy. I don't really feel sad. All I feel is a sense of huge loss. As if the world has shifted somehow. But I can't seem to process it. I feel like I'm moving through life as if through moving water.
It wasn't like this when Mel's bonded brother, Simon passed last year. Simon's death utterly broke me. I felt like my heart had been ripped out and left to bleed on the ground. It took me a long time to be able to function. There were so many nights, for so many months afterwards, that I'd be curled up on the floor, weeping.
Of the two, Simon would sleep with me through the night, but spend the days on his own. Simon was the more mature of the two. He liked having his own space, and was often lost in thought. Thinking about the meaning of life, we'd joke..
But Mel was a baby who never grew up. Until the very end he was demanding, extremely needy, and spent most of the days with me. He'd also insist on sleeping on our laps frequently, and I'd often work or conduct zoom meets with him in one arm. He was openly loving and openly expressive, just like a human being.
So it's very odd that for some reason, I can't mourn him the way I did Simon. It almost feels like a betrayal of his memory. As if I didn't love him enough.
I'm going back to work on Tuesdsy, having to deal with amongst others, a fussy client who gets on my nerves. And I'm so anxious that the delayed grief combined with the stress is going to overwhelm me. I feel like I only have a short time to grief and I need to grieve now! And I can't 😫
What's wrong with me?

Okay, before I start I want to say that my mom knows I'm dating my boyfriend, I'm 16, he turned 18 today, but we're only a year apart, hes 0'5, I'm 0'6.
I tried to talk to my mom about meeting my boyfriend and his parents before but she shut me down and said that she wants to do it on her own time and that she doesn't want to be rushed, so I didn't say anything more about it.
I only talked to her about him once and yesterday makes twice because me and her don't have a good relationship at all but that's a different story.
My boyfriend walked me to school on Thursday, he's a senior and they had no school that day since all juniors had to take a regents exam, he woke up early thinking he had school but when I told him it was only me he just walked me.
He ended up talking about his birthday, which is today, he said he was going to the beach, then dinner, then he was going to have a bonfire and a party, I didn't know these were his plans, before Thursday I really didn't think of going because before, he said he was just going to hang with his guy friends, but thats not the case anymore I see and he said he would like for me to be there as he wants to spend his birthday with me.
I immediately told him that I don't think I'll be able to go because of my mom, she won't have any money, I don't have any money and I have no ride to get there and back, he understood and I told him that I'll ask anyways because it doesn't hurt to ask.
When I got home I tried to ease into asking her by saying that my boyfriend's birthday was the next day and he wants me to hang out with him, and I told her his plans, before I could even ask if she would be okay with me going, she caught an attitude and started saying that she doesn't even know him, he hasn't had the decency to talk to her or get to know her, she hasn't met his parents, she doesn't have a phone number, she doesn't know where I'll be, I sat and heard her out, I told her that she hasn't met him because she said herself that she didn't want to be rushed into meeting anyone, and I also told her I didn't plan on going to his birthday until he told me he wanted me there.
She started saying that if he wants me to go he has a few hours to meet her demands and said that she has never had a boyfriend her mom didn't know about and she's going to keep it going like that, she then asked why I couldn't call him at that very moment and I said I couldn't because I knew he was pretty busy.
She kept talking about him in a way I didn't like, she said that he needs to man up and speak to her, and if he wants me to go, she wants a phone number, a parent to talk to, an address, she asked for reasonable and understandable things any caring parent would ask for.
But I was upset, not at what she was asking, but the way she went about everything, she flipped on me, cussed me out in the process of making her demands, and made me feel stupid for asking.
I ended up going to my room and crying while texting my boyfriend about what happened and telling him to forget it, he ended up giving me his mom's number to give to my mom, and when she called, she got upset that she didn't get an answer, and when I told her that she might be busy because she has a newborn, she was still upset, instead of being understanding that her call couldn't be answered because of that.
Then my mom got upset because my boyfriend was sending me messages when in her words he could be speaking to her and that he must not be that busy if he's texting me, he sent his number to me to send to my mom and she sent her number to me to send to him saying that she'll be expecting a call, that part got me really upset too because she was making things way harder than it needed to be, she could have simply just called him, then when he did call, my mom had an attitude the entire time, and was trying to make it seem like he was going to try and do something to me while we were out.
Now I was under the impression his parents would be there but he told her that there would be no parental supervision, and it would be him and his guy friends, and I learned that the beach he wanted to go to was pretty far.
She got off of the phone and my boyfriend messaged me saying I was right to just forget it.
My mom came into my room going off on me asking if I really thought she was going to let me go out with no parental supervision and it's just going to be him and his guy friends, my boyfriend later told me his friends girlfriends were going to be there too but we knew it wouldn't make a difference.
She started making it seem like I was gonna try and do stuff with him and his friends or they would try and do stuff with me, she kept implying that I was "expecting" her to let me go which wasn't the case at all, she kept saying that I was just trying to be alone with a boy, she was putting a lot of words in my mouth.
After she left I started crying, I didn't cry about the fact that I couldn't go, yes it was a bummer and I was disappointed as I'm sure any teenager would be, but the reason I was crying was because of the way she handled the situation, I was embarrassed, and I felt incredibly stupid, she made me feel and look stupid for asking.
She came back and asked me if I was really crying about it, and I tried to talk to her about how I feel and say it in a respectful way, I told her I wasn't trying to be disrespectful but I felt like she was being mean about the situation, I told her I understood why I couldn't go but I felt like she was being mean about the way she handled it.
I could barely get the words out because she was yelling at me in the middle of me talking asking me what I thought she was being and after I finished she said she was trying to protect me, while still yelling at me, and that I basically had no right to be upset, she said "I'm trying to protect you and you wanna sit and cry because you can't hang out with a boy, alone, and with his guy friends."
Then she started listing things I should have been crying about, she basically invalidated my feelings, it all made me cry even harder after she said that I was acting like she wasn't that young once and that she doesn't know what happens, she started slamming things around and said that the day before I didn't do my chore at all and all this other stuff, then went into her room and said that she wanted to punch something so bad it wasn't even funny.
Then my sister, who's 13, came into my room and told me she heard everything and was livid, we talked about the situation and I told her how I didn't know that there wasn't going to be any adults there, and that it wasn't even about me wanting to spend time alone with him or do anything inappropriate with him, that was the farthest thing from my mind, I simply wanted to be there for him on his birthday as a supportive and loving girlfriend, but she wasn't trying to understand or see my point of view, I also explained that I wasn't expecting her to let me go, I knew she wouldn't but I asked for my boyfriend in case there was a chance I could have, I didn't want to ask her, and I would have and do understand that she said no, but the way she handled the situation with such anger and what felt like hatred directed towards me and my boyfriend and his family is what made me cry and feel the way I did, my boyfriend even told he was pissed.
My mom then came back into my room and asked what the topic of conversation was and asked if it was her, I tried to ignore her because I was already riled up and just wanted it all to end, but she kept saying "hello name I'm talking to you" to which I replied no, then she said that the last thing I wanted to do was give her an attitude and then closed my door.
My sister got fed up with it and swung the door open and went to talk my mom, she waited until she was done yelling and screaming about me and tried to tell her that I understood why I couldn't go and that I wasn't upset about it and that I didn't know that there wasn't going to be any adults there, but my mom tried to make it seem like I lied about it.
Then at some point she told me that my boyfriend tried to get smart with her, when in reality she asked him if he understood why she couldn't let me go and he said he didn't, then she asked him if he would let his daughter hang out with her boyfriend and his friends alone to which he replied that if she was a teenager then yes and I'm guessing my mom didn't like that answer and he told her that he just doesn't agree with her.
My sister was asking my mom if she could calm down and have a civilized talk with me but my mom was ignoring her and my sister came into my room crying asking if I would go on a walk with her so we could cool down, we got ready and heard my mom screaming and crying on the phone to her mom and they proceeded to talk negatively about me, after about 20 to 30 minutes of sitting on the porch and venting she messaged me and told me to come to her room.
I went into her room and she explained why she acted the way she did, her reasoning was that her blowing up the way she did wasn't even about the situation with me and my boyfriend, it was because she had no money, we had no food, the wifi was cut off, and the gas was/is about to get shut off and she was under a lot of stress and just snapped, she told me that she has to protect me more than she did before because of a situation with my sperm donor (sexual abuse) and that with how many girls get offed by men these days, she wouldn't be able to sleep knowing she let me go and then I never make it home, she apologized and pleaded for me to be able to understand why she said no.
I told her I understand, by that point we were both shedding tears, she told me she knows I need to have fun, but it can't be alone and where she can't get to me or call me or anything, we made up and everything has been fine since then.
But I'm still upset about it all, she really hurt my feelings and for some reason, even though she apologized I can't let it go, I talked about it with someone and they told me I was being petty and had no right to still dwell over the situation, today's my boyfriends birthday and I guess it all just hit harder than when it happened and I need some advice, do I let it go? Was the person right? Do I not have any rights to dwell over it anymore?

Hi all,
My wife is a LPR (Green Card Holder) with dual foreign nationality. In the application process, we submitted her green card info, and first foreign citizenship / passport info without problem. However, her passport for her second foreign citizenship is expired and won't let us submit it as proof of citizenship.
We don't care about that passport, and have never planned to renew it as she travels on her first passport. We also don't care if it is linked to Global Entry (although we get the point for background check purposes). We also can't use her birth certificate as it is from her first country. We do have an active national ID card for the second country, but don't see that as an option.
Do we have to declare her second foreign citizenship, even if she will never be traveling on it? Is our only option for her to get Global Entry to renew her passport?
Thanks!

Hi ~
Yesterday my boyfriend got me a gift. The gift was an 8 inch dildo and a butt plug. I tried the dildo out for the first time yesterday while my boyfriend was away with his friend. And as I was riding it , I could feel the urge to needing to shit. I wasn't inserting it into my ass. Just my vagina.
Then when my boyfriend came back from seeing his friend , he used the dildo on me and experienced the same again.Now I have never experience that before with any other dildos so I don't know what it is lmao.
So if you have an explanation, please share :3

Hey guys, I am travelling soon to the Siberian region of Russia and I am a noob when it is talked for sex 🤣🤡. I need any advises and help I can get from fellow redittors with a lot of experience because I have made this girl fall for me and I am finally having sexxx. It was a tough journey to comvince her boys, but I think I have made it 😅. I will tell the story in pieces for your advises to be more correct. The history begins from a language-learning application. I was surfing in there to improve my English and I match with her (she was learning German, my native language). We started speaking like friends and then she expressed her liking to me. I never had any luck with girls and for my surprise, she is into it with me 😏😶. After some time we started to have online sex too and when you cum with a girl you have a good connection, it feels so fucking good, fuck porn man 😂. I want to go crazy on her and fuck her like it's my last day in earth uffff.
Now the problem is this: I DON'T ACTUALLY LOVE HER OR SEE HER AS MY WIFE, but I know that she must fuck so gooood and it will be like paradise for me. Yes, we have a connection, but I want to fuck her for as long as I can until I get tired or find my actual partner in life. She is so lonely and is fatter than what I want my wife to be. Very loud person and complicated and sometimes good sometimes shit jokes 😂. Makes me tryhard to act the way she wants because I don't want to give her any reason to be angry with me now that I am so close to fucking her. I call her pig to joke, but sadly she is as fat as one. Her features are not my taste too, but she is a good girl, I don't want to break her hearttt. I want to enjoy sex with her for as long as possible and fuck her hard. I dream about the moment so fucking much, and I am travelling to her sometime in the middle of this month. I don't know how to hide my true intentions from her and her parents 🤡 who think I will give their daughter a future. At the same time I want her to love and have crazy sexx with me for those days. I have many fantasies I want to experience with her but that's all, I don't want her to be part of my life forever and i don't know how to hide it well when I see her. I want all your tips and help 🫡, it's tough. She has a crazy ex too who constantly calls her and tries to win her back, but he is so fucking ugly and weak that she hates him and is glad he remains in the past, but because he is sick she tries to be polite to him. I don't give a fuck about him, but this mf has almost fucked all my plans 😂.
I also have pictures of her that I took without her knowlwdge hihihi...if you want to exchange your girlfriends with her dm me. It turns me on to cum with girls that are not so exposed to public 😳

Selling these for the price listed + $5 for shipping within CONUS. Free shipping if you get two listings, or get the whole lot for $35 total. Pictures here.
Sarasa Grand gel pen in Purple, 0.5 (A1) - $10
Brand new never opened.
Hongdian Black forest fountain pen w/ case, F nib (C) + 6 Vinta shimmery ink samples - $10
Used pen, has been cleaned and has some scratches and wear from regular use but otherwise works well. Comes in the original case, with a converter. Will also come with 6 Vinta shimmery ink samples each about 1-3mL (Sodalite, Sailfin Green, Solitary Teal, Elusive Blue, Apex Silver, and Isabella)
SECOND MANSION A5 Twinkle Button Binder (B) + Maruman B6 notepad (A condition) - $20
Bought both to use for journaling but never used. Selling as a set since the paper is the perfect size for the binder, but keep in mind it needs to be hole punched. (Note: I'm guessing the A5 in the binder's name indicates the size of the binder itself, because it fits B6 refills)
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Thanks for reading!

Okay so now that I explained some of the AU mechanics, I think it's time to start presenting the characters. I'm obviously starting with Sans y'know... (it's the only character with an art till now 😭) Link to the mechanics post: https://www.reddit.com/UndertaleAU/comments/13vhgtu/some_quick_faded_constellations_mechanics/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=android_app&utm_name=androidcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button
"It's all a puppeteer show honestly, and soon... You'll be part of it too."
Sans "Sans chuckles." ATK: 15 (16 when coat active) DEF: 75 Accessory: Coat (Stolen) Theme: Trust
Sans seems to not have many friends, he's always alone, but sometimes you can find him with his brother, they look pretty uncomfortable next to each other however.
His eyes are always pitch black, he rarely turns on his pupils and when he does, he's really serious, they tremble like if he was filled with adrenaline to the bones. (joke extracted from the hit book "112 Bone Jokes")
Sans isn't relative with many monsters other than his brother, he sometimes talks to a door at the end of The Ruins, he gets mad when nobody answers and kicks the door, if you listen quietly, you can hear insults coming from him, pretty sure that's why the door is so damaged from inside.
During a pacifist route, you won't see him much, he's only there to see how you manage to spare monsters, he'll sometimes shout things at you while fighting random monsters.
During a genocide route he'll challenge you in every new zone, he'll push you to complete the route so he can finally face a worthy adversary.
His accessory gives him enough stamina to use more elaborated attacks, he also turns his pupils on. Later during the battle he starts being controlled by something, making him hurt himself to the point of losing an arm out of the effort, he'll desperately try to get rid of the coat without success.
Sans became a hitman to increase his LV and get to Asgore's level, but he retired for mere laziness. Sans is really prideful and he will constantly flex about being the most powerful monster in the underground, yet he's too scared to face Asgore due to being defeated by him once before becoming a hitman.

I’m 34 (female)and I recently moved closer to my home town and am active on the dating apps. I came across someone from my high school class who I always thought was attractive but never hung out with and matched with him. I didn’t think it would really go anywhere, thought we would kind of say hi and laugh but then he continued to message me and asked for my number. We continued to chat and he started sending me spicy pics to which I kind of sent some back to which eventually led to some sexting. But we would also talk about all kinds of stuff as well that wasn’t sexual like tv shows and movies and what was going on in our lives. He lives an hour away and mentioned that we should try to meet up some time. After a few weeks of us talking, I said I would be willing to meet up to which he seemed really excited for. He told me he always had a little bit of a crush on me. We even talked a bit on the phone before hand. Up until we finally met, he was texting me every few hours, telling me how much he enjoyed talking to me, and hyping up how excited he was to meet me and couldn’t wait to be all over me. Then we met in real life and it was like night and day. I thought he would at least hug me or something (I hug most of my dates upon meeting them) but he didn’t. He would barely even make eye contact with me. We went out to dinner and had a few drinks and the conversation was fine but it wasn’t intimate ever and he still wasn’t really making eye contact or being flirty or anything. We continued to hang out at my place after dinner and we talked on my couch for a few hours. I continued to get closer to him and show signs that I was relaxing and interested but he was still cold. I didn’t make a move because I didn’t think he wanted me to based on his actions throughout the night. Finally very randomly he reaches in and kisses me and then we had sex. We watched tv for a like an hour after with some cuddling and then he went home. After this meet up which was 2 nights ago, he’s still texting me but it’s been less often as before and his answers are shorter and less personalized. He hasn’t said anything about our meet-up either (no “I had a good time!” or anything like that). I’m just confused by this whole situation. He knew what I looked like, I sent him several pictures of myself to him prior to the meetup (ones that included my body) Maybe he thought I was less attractive in real life? I also don’t know if he was nervous or socially awkward- I never hung out with him before this as we didn’t hang out in high school really at all. I’m so used to people ghosting me now when they aren’t interested or even telling me they aren’t but he hasn’t done this yet. Should I continue to ride this out and see if it develops or just move on (because I possibly got played?) Would it be worth it to confront him and say something along the lines of “hey so I feel like you were not that interested in me when we met, if you weren’t feeling it that’s fine,just let me know so I can stop whatever we’re doing and move on”?

Power Up

The form used in the movie Kamen Rider 1. It's unknown how this form was gained.

Strength

Rider Kick

• Kills Wolga enhanced by the Alexander the Great Eyecon^KO
• Kills Fiddler Crabking^KO

Striking

• [Rider Punch] Breaks Ambassador Hell's mystic barrier^KO
• [Rider Punch] Kills Crabbat^KO
• Punches out Shocker Combatmen^G24

Durability

• Slashed several times with Wolga's energy sword, which cuts through concrete pillars^KO
• Punched by Wolga's energy enhanced fist, which earlier heavily damaged the ground^KO
• Takes a punch from Buffal^KO
• Blocks Shocker Combatmen knife swings^KO

Speed/Agility

• Dodges Wolga's energy sword^KO
• Ducks a swing from Buffal^KO
• Recovers after being tackled by Buffal by pushing off of a wall to transition into a punch^KO
• Leaps a fair distance to catch a girl as she's falling^KO
• Jumps onto a pillar then up to the top of a building to chase an enemy^KO
• Leaps to save Ghost from Buffal^KO

Misc

• The wind from his transformation blows apart the pyre he was on^KO

Cyclone

Kamen Rider's motorcycle

Original

Stats Page (Kamen Rider Official Zukan)

• In his original form, Hongo could not transform without a source of wind to activate his belt, so he often used Cyclone to achieve the necessary wind speed^E3
• Outspeeds a truck^E1
• Drives through a wall in a Shocker base^E4
• Kills Gebacondor by ramming him^E11
• Shatters a rock^E13
• Drives into an explosive Shocker trap and is fine^E67
• Designed to withstand temperatures of several thousand degrees^E60
• Can be driven remotely^E7

New Cyclone

Stats Page (Kamen Rider Official Zukan)

• Reaches 300 kmh and quickly brakes^E68
• Jumps high in the air^E68
• Jumps in front of a truck it's following^E74
• Jumps into the air to collide with Crabbat^E79
• Seems to fly^E81
• Fine after being hit by meteorites called down by Shocker, which blew up an observatory and burned a man to death^E68
• A rock tumbles down a hill and shatters on the windshield^E91
• [Cyclone Attack] Rams Boarbeeton, killing him^E83
• [Rider Triple Power] Alongside Kamen Rider Nigo and V3, rams Smilodon, killing her^V34
• Takes part in the All Rider Break alongside every Kamen Rider up to OOO, ramming the Great Leader Colossus with their motorcycles and destroying him^LG

Neo Cyclone

• Shatters a large chunk of concrete^KO
• Plows through some Nova Shocker Combatmen^KO

Driving Skill

• General Black says that it will take Kamen Rider 20 minutes to travel to a hotel 80 km away from him, but Kamen Rider shows up sooner than expected and takes Catgecko by surprise^E88
• Has a motorcycle battle/chase with Shocker Rider 1 until Shocker Rider falls off of his bike^E92
• Wins a motorcycle race despite interference from Shocker which put him 33 minutes behind first place at one point^E63
• Jumps Cyclone over a truck^E6
• During his time in Europe he practiced his skills by racing the best drivers in the continent^E53
• Outmaneuvers a squad of Shocker Combatmen, causing them to crash their motorcycles^E53
  • Again^JT
• Outmaneuvers Gel Shocker's motorcycle team, which is made up of top racers from around the world^E80
• Avoids getting shot by Neo-Shocker's tank^K27
• Jumps over a crack in the ground that suddenly appears^E84
• Jumps Cyclone over some caltrops and a car^E58
• Pre-cyborg surgery, jumps his motorcycle over a group of oncoming Shocker agents^E1
• Jumps Cyclone away from three circling Shocker Combatmen^E12
• Jumps over a group of Shocker Combatmen on Cyclone^VS
• Does a flip on Cyclone^E84
• Drives with bandaged eyes^E90

I live a relatively good life, I attend a good college, live with my parents, money has never been an issue for us and I have some really good friends, by all accounts I have an incredibly blessed life, but I still feel lonely and lost all of the time.
I have a lot of hobbies, but I still have an ever present feeling of loneliness and emptiness. I love hanging out with my friends, but they're all so busy with other commitments so I don't really get to see any of them very often either. I also developed feelings for someone, but dating them is out of the question, and that is compounding onto the feeling of loneliness.
I do not know what I am going to do after college, and my degree is not really that useful unless I go to grad school, but I don't want to do that or even try it out for that matter, because I know I will hate it. My friends look like they have their lives figured out or have good career opportunities or plans for life after college.
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It’s almost 7 months since my baby died due to medical malpractice however nothing has been done and I am so tired of begging and crying for help from the attorneys and seems like they are busy with other cases or may be it’s normal but it seems too long and meantime I am shattered heart broken and powerless to do anything for this injustice, to have taken away my only child, my son. I hate this world anyways I have been crying day and night and I just sob when I think of how unfair this world is and why and how my baby had to suffer. I don’t go out or talk to any of ny friends I don’t feel good. I have been wanting to die since the incident not that I am going to kill myself and wanting to see my baby again and he came last night in my dream. He is still wrapped up in his swaddle but I saw him in a mirror or something but I knew my dream that he was dead and he was like a spirit however I was able to talk to him and hold him kiss his hug him and he was saying he wanted to get out is his swaddle and I unwrapped him he was stretching and I was having my time with him until people started to come and I was thinking they will think I am crazy since I knew they can’t see him. I don’t know what this dreams mean but I am so happy to see him in my dream. It felt real and I don’t care if people will think I am crazy I will be crazy for him for my baby. I want my baby back 😢😭