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2023.06.04 18:03 Spirited_Note3615 My Protector
Alright I'm not gonna exaggerate and make my fiancee sound like she's legit trying to be a manly man-girl. She does work out, she has some muscles, but not Arnold Schwarzenegger muscles, she likes to wear hoodies when cold, Calvin Klein sports bra/tanktop when hot, and she is taller than me, almost towers my dad. But she has long dark hair, looks beautiful in whatever dress she wears. She is still a lady. And always will be. With that being said, whenever she gets angry Belle becomes Beast. I don't want you guys to think I'm constantly being harrassed or bullied like some soap opera but on occasions there times you come across someone who just feels tearing you down for mo other reason except, they fucking felt like it. I think I may have told this story in comments but here's a recap. Fiancee and I went to the gym, and because I don't exercise that often I just stick treadmill, planks, and spot my girl when she's lifting weights. Anyway, I'm on the treadmill listening to a video when a girl who looked like she just came from a Concentration Camp (no disrespect intended I'm just emphasizing how skinny this girl was if you still have a problem with it let me know and I'll edit it I mean no disrespect) some anorexic chick comes up to the treadmill, leans against it and attempts to make small talk with me. I say hi, trying to be polite as I could even though I couldn't really hear because I had my headphones on. Then I see my girl confronting her, this serious look on her face, the skinny girl backing away like she had a gun infront of her then ran out the building. Apparently the girl was trying to flirt with me and not only is it against the rules at the gym to flirt(applies to guys and girls) but I'm my girl's man. No one should be flirting with me unless they are immune to being bashed in the head lol. So here's another story, this was last year so she was still just my girlfriend before we got engaged so just know I'm mentioning the same significant other. My girlfriend and I are getting ready to get on a plane to Florida, we were going to visit Weeki Waaci (a mermaid water park) then DisneyWorld because it was a rough week, we, or I needed a vacation. We're walking through the airport, once again we're dealing with who should carry the luggage. Most of it is our clothes. The other suitcase has personal stuff like her business laptop, books. And my Cheshire Cat themed bag she got me for my birthday with a couple of notebooks and my phone, charger cord, headphones. This isn't a legit full blown argument but it usually consists of her being, "No, honeybunny, only I should carry the stuff, you just bring your beautiful face"(She would say the loving yet cheesiest shit ever lol) and me going, "Babe it's not for you to carry everything, let me carry something otherwise I feel like an asshole." "Nope. I will not put my little prince through such labor" "Can I at least carry my Cheshire Cat bag. Its light." "Actually hon can you carry the Chesire Cat bag?" "If you insist babygirl." Y'all probably thinking "You're exaggerating because this is the rolereversal subreddit" but I'm not lol. This legit what I experience 24/7 with this goofball. God I love her. Anyway so we arrive at our gate. We have at least one hour before we board so we have time to sit and chill. I am very uneasy on flights so I take an advil and tylenol pill(half of a tylenol because I don't wanna be drowsy) so it'll calm my nerves. My girlfriend grabs me tea from a nearby McDonald's, sit me on her lap, I swallow them down and so we kill an hour snuggling on the seat. "Flight blah blah bloo to Orlando Florida now boarding". We get our stuff ready, girlfriend hands me my ticket, window seat😁, and we get in line. So we're just standing around waiting for our turn, when this dude (I gave him the name, Mr. Obnoxious Cougher)stands next to us and he starts coughing. I understand that we have the vaccine now so the idea of maybe getting stick shouldn't be as risky as it would've been back in 2020. But guys, please understand, we are taught in kindergarten to cover your mouth when your body releases bodily fluids like salvia or snot. Its fucking common curtsey. This 40 something year old is coughing like he's auditioning for "Cough The Musical". He is just doing the complete most. I start distancing myself from him but, and I shit you not, he came closer. "What the hell?" It went from a dude having a genuine respiratory issue to doing it on purpose to be obnoxious. He looks forty but hes standing there with his mouth open, coughing like a two year old. So my girlfriend and I just chatting trying to ignore him. I noticed a dude ahead of us with these sweet look shoes. They were Nikes, black bottom, and metallic top. They looked sick. "Hey do you think you could get me those?" "Yeah babe just remind me later" "Yeah yeah. Damn they look beautiful." Suddenly as if I feel like something had sprayed windex in my direction this guy starts coughing in my face. I was freaking livid. "Yo what the fuck?" "Oh sorry." He was standing little inches away from me and coughing right into my face. I actually began to angry cry(you know when you get so mad tears start falling but you're not necessarily sobbing) a millisecond later my girlfriend rushes at Mr. Cougher and actually pins him to the wall, her arm squeezing his throat. She's shouting loud enough for everyone to hear. "WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING YOU DISGUSTING PIECE OF COW FODDER?!" "S-s-sorry I'm ha-ha-having trouble breath-" "I DON'T GIVE A FUCK IF YOU'RE CHOKING ON YOUR BLOOD! COVER YOUR MOUTH! YOU DON'T COUGH ON NOBODY LIKE SOMR DAMN 2 YEAR OLD!!" I'm just standing there, wiping my face, almost no reaction while everyone else is like😮😲😬😳 "IF YOU EVER DO THAT CRAP AGAIN, YOU BETTER PRAY TO CHRIST YOU'RE NOT ON THE SAME FLIGHT OR I WILL BREAK YOUR NECK!!" She let's him go as his face starting to turn blue then returned to her place in line beside me. But not before giving the dude a nice knee to the crotch sending him down to the floor. Yeah, she does have a real short temper and was once attending anger management classes before she and I met. But she never gets angry at me because I'm the prince in the relationship. That and I'm fairly easy going so we don't have so different of opinions that we'd get into an argument (Yes I'm aware that its healty to have arguments we are our own person, different perspectives and ideas, I'm just saying I'm not the type of person who is eager to convince everyone that their way deserves more of a look into)unless you count the luggage lol. The only time I remember her being actually irritated with me is one time we went shopping and I would constantly let go of her hand just to rile her up. But thats a story for another time. For those who go to airports you know how the separate lines, right, "Now boarding line 1-5, now boarding line 1-5." We're in line 5-9 they now announce our line and we board our plane. My girl has a very successful career so I've only flown first class since having this girl in my life, hell yeah. So we get to our seat, I managed to snatch her carry on bags, and with speed lifted them into the cabinets above our seats before she was able to react. I had a look of triumph on my face as I took my seat near the window, meanwhile she had a slightly annoyed look on her face. Guess I have a lot to learn about being a little prince lol. So we get comfortable, we fasten our seatbelts and await for the plane to fill up. The armtray between our seats is moveable, so my girlfriend lifted it and put her arm around me as she usually does incase there are times I get anxious and need a snuggle. I nuzzled into chest, her arms wrapped around me and whispered, "My hero." since earlier and rewarded my maiden in shining armor with a kiss. The plane fills up and we're basically ready to get this bird across the runway. Until we see a stewardess and a familiar face beside her, its Mr. Obnoxious Cougher. "Attention passengers, our flight is full and we're look for volunteers who would willingly give up their seats and be bumped for a later flight for 200 dollars" Ironic enough we were flying American Airlines. If this was Spirits I'd wind up like that doctor. No one moved. In general my girlfriend and I wouldn't be the first people to give up seats because why ruin our trip because of someone else's problems. But because of what happened earlier with this person, there was no pity in my eyes. I was just chilling, enjoying snuggling with my girlfriend, but something told me that she was looking at the dude with fire in her eyes. It was unanimous that no one was moving so the stewardess had to escort Cougher out. Everyone could literally hear him throwing an absolute tantrum as he walked back down to terminal. He was swearing and screaming just running his mouth. It was quite amusing. The pilot went over the safety instructions, I turned on a inflight movie, and we relaxed as our flight got ready to take off. It wouldn't be the last time my girl had to bust some heads in order to make sure I was good and safe and God bless her for it. She's like my big sister, my best friend, girlfriend and now fiancee and I can't wait to spend time rest of my life with her.
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2023.06.04 18:01 Brilliant_Sundae710 Rant
I'll keep this short and sweet.
I had a crush since March 2020. At first, I only looked at him more than my other classmates. He made me feel things differently in heart and mind as compared to my other classmates.
Fast forward to 2021, it got stronger. He actually accepted my IG request (he had no idea that I liked him at the time). For some reason, his sister also accepted my request as well, but I had no idea that she was his sister. But for some fucking reason, my idiotic brain thought it was a good idea to unfollow both of them in an attempt to get over my crush. I did that TWICE...
Fast forward to 2022, I got into a different class than him in Sec 3 due to a different subject combination. I actually thought I'll get over him, but that didn't happen. Actually, it got stronger. Ridiculously stronger. I guess it was because he got cuter. I then decided to confess to him on Dec 1 2022 and got blocked.
Fast forward to this year. I'm pretty sure a good 40% of my cohort knows that I'm Bi. On the 2nd fucking day of school, one of my school friends asked if I kissed my crush. Apparently he overhead my crush telling his school clique that I confessed to him. Then, majority of his class found out I'm Bi. Somehow, one guy in my class found out that I'm Bi. Probably because he follows my crush on IG and he probably posted that Whatsapp conversation on his story. This guy from my class told his friend group and now 70% of my class knows I'm Bi...
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2023.06.04 17:37 Community-kinz Dallas Sunday Adult - Single Day Pass UFS-…
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I bought a Sunday pass hoping to go to my first ever con or expo of some sort. I was thinking omg it’s so cool, cuz my sister and her family goes there all the time. Well. we planned MONTHS before and she finally told me today- not kidding- her flight leaves out 1:30 pm. The event starts at 10:00am . She goes into the airport usually like an hour or more before so i will legitimately only have that short of a time to enjoy it there. I paid for that pass.. to use all those hours.. and now idk… it has me so upset. Because I live 2 hours away from this place, I’m unable to drive. My mom is supposed to meet her half way so then my sister picks me up and takes me from there. But now that’s all out of the window… I’d like to sell my ticket for Sunday (06/11/2023) .. I paid $51.15.. I’d like $40 back… if anyone is interested just leave a comment. submitted by Community-kinz to fanexpo [link] [comments]
2023.06.04 17:32 raven_mother I got disowned by my narc mom and she is making my life a living nightmare.
TRIGGER WARNING: Mentions of emotional, physical, and mental abuse.
Ok, so I just got disowned by my mom for the 3rd or 4th time a few weeks ago and honestly, I am not that sad or upset about it. She has told me many times about how she is "not my mom anymore" and to stop calling her mom. Why? Well, it is because my sister and I reported her to CPS a month or two ago because we were tired of her abuse. I was adopted by this woman when I was 6 years old (I am 17 now) and she has always been volatile and angry and short-tempered. Her punishments did not fit the severity of the crime and they were always harsh. Like, I remember since I was 8 or 9 I had to kneel on the ground, with my back straight, arms crossed, and watched the wall. I would be in that position for hours and my knees would ache. If I slouched or sat, she would scream at me and hit me to straighten up. What did I do to deserve this? I talked back to her and disrespected her apparently. She would hit me with objects (metal broom handles, coat hangers, boots, slippers, a wooden block one time) and she used to choke me, hit me, pinch me, twist my arms, and she bit me one time lol. And they were over normal kid things like talking back, having an attitude sometimes, taking things without asking, and lying. She made me feel like the worst person on the planet and it was only in high school that I learned that those were normal things that kids and people do. My "mom" only stopped when I threatened to call the police on her, (even though she insisted that she is not doing anything wrong). She would continue to call me horrible names and curse words and insult me when she is upset with me, and my sister and I decided to report her when she was being cruel and harsh with my sister. We reported her to CPS, there was an investigation, and things are a lot better between my sister and my "mom" which makes me so happy. The only thing is that she is now really mad at me and blamed me for my sister reporting her because she said I "put things in her head" and that I "Manipulated" her. She is now not talking to me and she is telling my family members and my siblings to stay away from me. I can't eat with them, watch tv with them, hang out in the living room with them, or anything. Since my siblings and I sleep in the basement (it is a nice finished basement with the walls painted, floors done, bathroom, living, and fridge all finished) so I basically have to live down there. I have to eat and watch TV by myself, and while it is nice to have a place of my own sometimes, it gets lonely and that isolation has been happening for years even before this mess. Even when she forces me to go outside, I have nothing to do, because she does not allow my siblings to be around me, and does not like it when I am around my dad (her husband) because she always says that I manipulate people. She has this demonized version of myself in her head and she always tells stories about what I do. She exaggerates the bad things I do and minimizes the bad stuff she does. She is always yelling and, screaming, and I am tired of her. She has cameras in the house that she can connect to her phone and watch what I am doing at anytime and can scream at me through them. Sometimes I rant about her to myself when no one is around because it helps get my anger out, and she was listening apparently, and is now even more mad about it. I am so so tired of this bullshit and I am so happy I can move out in a year. I sometimes really hate her. I am at the point where I can't take it. I can't take the yelling, the controlling, and the way she isolates me from everyone. I can't wait until I can leave and I am thinking of cutting her out of my life. I know I am not perfect, and I did some bad things, and I didn't improve the situation by talking back or being disrespectful or escalating conflicts, but I am so tired.
Anyway, thanks for listening to my rant. I really needed to get this off of my chest. (also sorry for any grammar mistakes, I was in a rush)
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2023.06.04 17:30 dead-head- Looking for a fic I read a while ago!
Here's everything I remember about it:
- Harry enters the Wizarding World early fic
- Harry meets a snake - can't quite remember the name, think it was short though
- Him and the snake bond - think this happened in a train station bathroom, the snake bites him to do this
- Think the snake was like really old, and could have lived for even longer if he hadn't of bonded and matched his life length to Harry's or something
- Harry moves into a Peverell house, meets the elves and is really nice to them
- Remus is invited round and meets Harry out in the garden with his snake
- Remus thought he was going to tutor some rich kid and didn't know it was Harry until he got there.
- Remus sees Harry and his snake wrestling and playing hide and seek in the garden with each other until an elf goes and gets Harry
- Harry later has Sirius released from Azkaban - pretending to be Lord Peverell as an adult?
- Sirius takes up the mantle of Lord Black, and invites all the black family around
- Makes Remus his Lord-Consort or something
- Two of the sisters - Lucretia and someone else are like really into gossip or something
- Narcissa exerts power over Lucius in the "my family is more powerful than yours, and now they're active again so now you have to listen me" sort of way
- Draco acts like a brat during the meeting and is shocked by the fact that is father is not in charge
- Bellatrix was held under a really messed up marriage contract
- Sings in Azkaban how her true lord (Sirius) would come back to free her
- Harry and his snake meet Nagini who begs for help about Tom because he's been magically manipulated to make him into Voldemort
Would really appreciate any help finding this fic! I think it was on AO3
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2023.06.04 17:13 AlexRD19 NLMB Fallen Members Part 6/The War With PocketTown
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2019 was a hard year for NLMB, losing members back to back to different opps and starting a new bloody war with DeathRow, in 2020 the war will slow down due to a lot of factors. Most members who put in work in that war will get locked up and NLMB will focus on other opps just like DeathRow, we will come back in the summer of 2022 to that beef.
Willie "Ghost 🕊️" Coker 08/31/2019
I didn't had space to include Ghost in the last part so i decided to do it here, it's not that important to the NLMB/DeathRow beef so it's ok if i include it at the beginning.
Ghost also known as Rat
was a respected OG from GME, i am not sure if he was the target or not but DeathRow and Lakeside dissed him a lot, Fa Fa Fa said they
killed Ghost and ever since then GME didn't do anything for him, ignore the video from the store, that's not Ghost, it's a mistake by the one who made the post, the one who died in the store was an innocent as far as i know and it happen way after Ghost died. This happen in the same month DeathRow killed Willie, DeathRow was sliding a lot in 2019.
Ghost was outside
with multiple people in his own hood when shots rang out from an unknown direction, he was shot multiple times in the chest and he died at the hospital.
"Ghost got hit up" 0:58
Michael "Aero 🕊️" Portis 01/05/2020
One of the reasons i believed Savo 🕊️ was killed by kings was Aero death, months after Savo died, Aero was sliding with FatLord 🔒 on some kings, which made sense at least during that time, Savo died in a hood cool with the kings, Aero is sliding on the kings, it was making sense into my head that Aero died trying to get revenge for Savo + that's what i was told, again i was wrong. As i said in my previous post, Savo was killed by NLMB, Aero was just a hothead who was sliding on his opps, nothing weird.
Aero was on the frontline and did a lot of dirt for DeathRow, he earned the nickname "23" for a reason, in my previous post
i put a screenshot with Fa Fa Fa straight up saying Aero killed G Dottie 🕊️. I know a lot of people believed Aero killed an innocent, but people told me that Garcia
🕊️ was a known king, why would Aero and FatLord slide on some innocents and specifically target them?
Aero and FatLord were driving
a turquoise SUV when they made a U-turn at the end of the street and parked in the block close to a king hood
, both got out of the SUV with armed 9-mm handguns and approached Garcia and his neighbor as they were outside talking, they opened fire hitting the neighbor in the arm and hitting Garcia multiple times, Garcia returned fire with his own weapon striking Aero multiple times who died at the scene, FatLord was also shot multiple times, FatLord left Aero there and went to a hospital with the SUV in the same clothes that CPD saw on the footage. Garcia was pronounced dead at the hospital, police recovered 19 9-mm shell casings and 10 .40-caliber shell casings from the crime scene.
This is a very controversial situation because at first, people said after FatLord recovered from his wounds, he told the police what happen and also snitched on BD 🕊️ but now they saying free him, they saying that someone else ratted and not him, but according to this article, CPD is using FatLord as a source
, FatLord was the one who allegedly was the driver on the Willie hit, FatLord is still locked up so who knows.
also confirms that they was sliding on some kings because they was having problems lately, it could be possible that some kings gave the location of Savo to NLMB, Savo was killed right at his home so NLMB probably got the drop from someone.
NLMB and ABK will diss Aero hard because he killed G Dottie, someone also recorded
Aero on the ground, which was heavily mocked
by his opps.
"Lil Aero a dumbass got hit on a hit" 0:23
Tristan "Tedo G 🕊️" Rogers 04/05/2020
NLMB first loss in 2020 but not because of gun violence, Tedo was from the MuskegonBoyz clique, he was killed by a car
🔱 hood, there is not a lot to say about him, he was a respected OG who was either related to Kobe 🕊️ or close
Shianne "Anna 🕊️" Reynolds 04/19/2020
Anna was a very loved member from MTG 079 now more known as BiyoBlock, she was Biyo 🕊️ sister, at first people believed that she was not gangbanging but that's false
, there is a lot of captions with her saying she was using guns to slide, i don't think she was active when she died in that life and she probably was not the target either. However, she probably was active in the past and as we all know, the past is catching up to you, her vigil
was also shot, allegedly by NLMB again.
What i know is this, allegedly NLMB saw some MTG 079 members in traffic
🔱 hood, they sped up behind them and shot the whole car, Anna was just unlucky since she was in the car with them, she was hit in the head and CPD pronounced her dead at the scene. This was one of the first getback NLMB got for Capo, but it will not stop here, NLMB will get more getback for Capo months later.
2020 was a hard year for MTG 079, they lost 4 members, Anna 🕊️, Pook
🕊️ who was not killed by any opps
🕊️ an original who was also close
to Biyo, LB was killed
📶🔱🅱️ hood, last one is Jeezy Snow 🕊️, we will get later to him.
Anthony "C-Note 🕊️" Smith 04/27/2020
C-Note was an OG from NLMB, to be more specific he was from
the MuskegonBoyz clique, from what i know he passed away from natural causes, nothing to do with gun violence. He was born in 1985 so he was old compared to a lot of main members from MuskegonBoyz clique like G Farro for example, you could say he was from that White Folks generation.
Junius "BoBo 🕊️" Thurston 05/07/2020
BoBo was a very loved member from ABK, he was one of the main faces from there. BoBo was also a rapper
, one of his best songs Pigs Hot
where you can see a lot of ABK members including Yogi 🕊️, BoBo was close to NLMB as well, he did a song
with Juvie and before his death you could see him around
BlackMobb was having a field day
when BoBo was killed, even though BoBo left that life behind while starting a truck company
, it's not like your opps will forgive you or forget that you did dirt in the streets or hurt their people, that shit is stucked until you die, even if you are 30, 40, as long as you put yourself in danger(go back to the city) you can get killed anywhere.
his car and went to a gas station in a relatively safe area
far away from any hood, a black Audi pull up and a rear passenger open fire, he ran north from the station but then a gunman got out of the car and chased after him, firing more shots. BoBo collapsed and the gunman caught up to him standing over him and fired more shots, BoBo was pronounced dead at the hospital, police said he was shot multiple times.
BlackMobb were not the only ones having a field day with his death, PocketTown also dissed him:
"BoBo got his ass smoked, 20 bullets took his soul" 2:45
It is sad because BlackMobb and ABK were like this
, but friends are turning to enemies and both sides lost main members in this war.
Lee "KTS Rio 🕊️" Cameron 07/12/2020
If you follow the drill scene, then you know who was KTS Rio, one of the main faces from PocketTown and Lil Los 🔒 little brother
, he was a huge loss for PocketTown, after his death a lot of stuff went down.
Rio was driving a vehicle with two other teenagers near a gas station in KakiWorld
🔱🅱️⭐️✊🏿 hood when a silver SUV pulled up and someone inside started shooting, Rio was shot multiple times and he was pronounced dead at the hospital. The 14-year-old boy was shot in the back and a 17-year-old boy was hit in the right arm, both were taken to the hospital in good condition.
After his death PocketTown goes by "RioGang" in his honour, Rio was also one of their main rappers, one of his most known song is NLMBK
, Faro dissed him in a song after he died:
"Rio got hit and they left his ass twitching" 0:38
"Rio got hit, y'all ain't get your getback" 1:05
A lot of people are saying NLMB killed KTS Rio but if you watch Freeband BoBo 🕊️ video
that CH88 made, it is very clear that NLMB didn't do anything to Rio, because the war started when Lil Greg 🕊️ was killed, that's also what BoBo said. The beef was not serious until Lil Greg died, BoBo also said the whole war started because of a bitch, Lil Greg wanted to call his guys to kill BoBo because of a girl. Feel free to watch the video, it's explaining a lot of stuff.
Remember there is a difference between "twitter beef" like disses and blood beef, KTS Dre did dirt on NLMB but he did that for Lakeside while PocketTown was his second hood(he started to claim PocketTown after KTS Von died), so Lil Greg was the first guy to die in that beef, we will get later to him.
Now honestly it is not known who killed KTS Rio, but one of the most plausible theory is that SirconnCity killed him, months after KTS Rio died, PocketTown lost KDawg
🕊️, another top member while sliding on SirconnCity hood, his article
doesn't mention anything about sliding but both sides said that.
"We doing hits without hoodies and masks, Rio got hit, he got stretched like an elastic" 1:08
"KDawg got hit on a hit, he dead" 0:24
They are main opps but since PocketTown top members were sliding, i think that means something, especially after Rio died.
This won't stop at KTS Rio, this year would be the most hardest year for PocketTown, they will lose 6 members in one year and they was all top members, but not all of them were killed by opps. Big Glizzy/Lil James
🕊️ (June 07 2020), killed at a party
, a suburb of Chicago.
KTS Rio 🕊️ (July 12 2020), KDawg 🕊️ (September 27 2020), Nuke 30
🕊️ (November 25 2020), killed OT
, LA Glizzy/Lil Ant
🕊️ (January 12 2021), killed OT
, Killa Spook 🕊️ (March 26 2021), we will get later to Killa Spook.
"They lost 6 niggas in one year, tryna make the rest of them disappear" 1:53
Antoine "BT 🕊️" Rose 08/22/2020
BT was a very loved member from NLMM and 358Gang, he claimed both sets, he was also close to NLMB, one of the reasons he died. Even though NLMB and 358Gang are opps, as i said in my previous parts, NLMM was always a set focusing on money, they was never known to slide like that, so that's probably why he was close to NLMB and cool with NLMB opps, 358Gang. BT also appeared
on the Maurice show.
I think everyone knows that Fa Fa Fa straight up said they killed BT, so why they killed him? Well even though BT was not involved in their beef, it doesn't matter, he was close to NLMB and 358Gang killed Mook
🕊️ in 2019, so DeathRow got their getback for him. I don't think BT was the specific target
because the shooting occured
in TheBush 👑🦁 territory, which are opps to DeathRow. BT was shot in the head and in the abdomen, CPD pronounced him dead at the scene, a 32 year old man was also shot in the abdomen and in the leg, he was taken to the hospital in critical condition.
Sean "Cello Da Shoota 🕊️" Wilson 09/07/2020
There was a lot of back and forth between NoGood and NLMB, mainly because NLMB killed Montae 🕊️ and it was forever stuck there, even though NoGood and NLMB are old opps, that beef was really inactive compared to Lakeside for example, but this all changed when Montae was killed, Montae was very loved by NoGood and like Jeff Fort said "there is not going to be any killing without killing" Cello was not really a main face from NLMB, he was from the NoLimit clique but his original hood was JBG 🔱 also known as MoneGang.
Cello was driving
with someone else in the car in NoGood
⭐️✊🏿 hood, Jay Savage and Deonte
🔒 fired shots and the person in the backseat fired back, hitting one of them in the forearm, Cello was hit in the neck and died at the hospital, the other person was listed in good condition after being shot in his thigh, he has a license to carry his gun. Jay Savage and Deonte were both charged with his murder, both were from NoGood and close to Montae.
Deshawn "Jeezy Snow 🕊️" Fletcher 10/15/2020
Jeezy was in ABK
4️⃣🍸⭐️✊🏿🔱 hood driving his car when Mally 🔒 opened fire from the sunroof
of a silver Chrysler
300, he was shot
multiple times in the head, neck and upper torso, he died at the hospital two days later. There is a lot of contradiction of the car used in the murder, what we know for sure is that Mally shot from the sunroof. Mally also searched the murder on google to see if Jeezy died.
This was a a crazy hit for many reasons, one of them is that Lil Wet was driving the car, Lil Wet did this two months after he beat his quadruple murder case, the case is complicated but to this day Mally is still locked up for it. The full foia
if you want to read more, from what i know the case is very strong against Mally but let's be real, Lil Wet beat a quadruple murder, everything is possible in Chicago, so i won't be surprised if he is beating it.
Lil Wet also hinted in his song "Nun Stop
" about the hit, the music video was deleted or made private, but the audio version is still up.
"Gotta ride for my gang, Steph got the wheel, Lil Mally might come out the roof " 0:44
Jeezy was actually very close
🅱️, you can see him around them in old videos and i think he was related to some members from there too, i am not sure if he was claiming
DoggPound at one point but members from there still say rip to him, again it doesn't mean every DoggPound member was close to him. It is a complicated situation but this was another getback NLMB got for Capo, a top member from MTG 079 and very loved.
Gregory "Lil Greg 🕊️" Jackson III 01/28/2021
The death that started all and guess what caused this? Well if you didn't guess it, it was a bitch, Lil Greg 🕊️ got into his feelings because BoBo 🕊️ was messing with a girl that he liked so when Lil Greg saw him, he tried to get the green light from other members to come and kill him right there, allegedly NLMB told him BoBo is not an opp and that he is staying out of the way, Lil Greg tried to call other members but it was too late
PocketTown members got the drop from BoBo and went to kill Lil Greg who was in a barbershop
from EastSide, Lil Don
🔒 walked up to him and shot Lil Greg in the face inside the barbershop, he was pronounced dead shortly after at the hospital, CK was actually charged
because they found him in the same car that was used in the murder, he stayed solid
and beat the case, CK was the one driving.
Lil Greg was a very loved member from NLMB and a main face from there, he was from the MuskegonBoyz clique but very close
to G Herbo and even celebrities like 21 Savage paid respects
to him, he was respected because he was a trapper making money
from drugs to raise his kids, his death hurt a lot of people and you could say that his death made "DrenchGang" more famous because the getback was huge in terms of impact on the media, i am of course speaking about KTS Dre, his death was international news because of the way he died + Killa Spook, we will get later to them.
was sharin' clothes
, but we weren't really bros" 0:18
"Lil Greg died, that started some shit, but how many checked after broski got hit?" 0:36
he is also upping 4 fingers, which is probably a reference to Killa Spook, KTS Dre, BoBo and probably Lil Don from PaxTown.
Moowop 🔒 also confirmed
3 opps died for Lil Greg, again most likely a reference to Killa Spook, KTS Dre and BoBo. Lil Don was also shot multiple times but he survived
NLMB was hurt but the opps were dissing Lil Greg hard, especially Lil Don:
Lil Don called Lil Greg biggest score
This started a new bloody war in the EastSide which caused a lot of damage, members getting locked up, members getting killed, members getting shot and so on, PocketTown was also unlucky to get hit with a "RICO" and most of their top members got locked up, there is barely any main faces out there besides Denny G and Lil Ant, they also have internal beef
also mentions they found the gun which was used in Lil Greg murder, the whole situation was fucked up for PocketTown, they lost like 10 members to this indictment + Lil Don got locked up + internal beef, the whole hood was hit hard by this indictment and a lot of "snitching" rumours are in the air.
The members who got locked up are Lil Rah
(he was released), Rello
🔒 MT Larry
🔒 who actually shot back when Spook died, Corey Got Clout
🔒 and DreadHead Larry
Dante "Killa Spook 🕊️" Thomas 03/26/2021
Killa Spook was like a leader in PocketTown, he had a lot of respect and his name says it all "Killa Spook" it's not a name you earn for doing nothing, he was a known killer
who did a lot for PocketTown, him and KTS Von 🕊️ went to slide
on Lamron in the past, he was very active, him and Denny G were sliding
on SirconnCity as well.
Spook 🕊️ was partying
with a lot of members inside StainCity
🔱⭐️✊🏿 hood, it was a party for their fallen member KDawg 🕊️ who was killed sliding on SirconnCity in 2020, two shooters
(this might be PocketTown shooting back but i personally think those are the offenders), NLMB and GME got the drop from a bitch
the whole party up, Killa Spook was shot by a stray bullet through a window
, he was pronounced dead at the scene, Lord was shot in the head and he was taken to the hospital in critical condition, Denny G was taken
to the hospital in critical condition and he recovered after some time, other members got shot as well but it was nothing serious like the ones i mentioned above.
Right after the party got shot up, PocketTown went to slide
on NLMB and hit someone in the leg, there are a lot of things
that points NLMB for doing this hit but it is confirmed
that GME was also involved, Lil B from GME was arrested by CPD with the car used in the murder, he was released because CPD didn't had proof that he did the murder.
There are many names around Spook death, Faro, Lil Ro, Twino 🕊️, EMoe
from GME, 7Moe 🕊️ from GME, it is not known exactly who killed Spook but it is hard to tell, what should be confirmed for sure is that it was a NLMB/GME hit, even CPD and FBI believes
that. In case you guys don't know, FBI was trying to build a RICO but their main suspect Max 🕊️ was killed, so i think the case is really not that strong anymore. I do think FBI is monitoring what is going on between NLMB and PocketTown now.
PocketTown was hurt to the core by his death, NLMB and GME were dissing like crazy and celebrating Lil Greg a lot
, it's a lot of disses that i am sure most of you saw, if you want way more details, watch
Londre "KTS Dre 🕊️" Sylvester 07/10/2021
Dre was getting out of prison after his fiancee paid his $5,000 bond
on Friday, for some reason Dre decided to leave only on Saturday, what Dre didn't knew is that his decision will cost him his life and potentially the life of two other innocent females. Dre was shot around 64
times by multiple shooters from two different vehicles far away
from EastSide in every side of his body, a 60 year old female was shot in the knee and a 35 year old female suffered a graze to her mouth while walking by, both were taken to the hospital in good condition. Dre was DOA and his death will have a huge impact in the streets, after his death the president of America, Joe Biden, was forced to do a meeting
to slow the violence in Chicago, this was because his death had an immense impact in the international news because of the way that he died.
I would leave in the comments a list of some the countries news speaking about KTS Dre, because it would take too much space in the post.
Dre was an upcoming rapper in the drill scene, his most famous song being a feature with Rio called "NLMBK Pt. 2
" but in the drill scene he mostly became known for punching
Kyro, one of the many reasons Kyro diss him a lot. Dre was very active in the streets before his death, he did a lot of dirt and a lot of his opps wanted him gone. Dre was also suspected by CPD for killing
Magic 🕊️ in 2019. He was originally from LakeSide but he started to claim PocketTown after the death of his brother in 2015, he is what people believe Von was, don't get me wrong, Von was active in the streets but Dre was something else.
I heard many names around Dre death, Faro, the DrenchGang Twins, Moowop, Kyro, Lil Hot, honestly i am not sure who killed Dre but NLMB and even PocketTown/LakeSide made it known who did it on social media. Faro being pretty clear that this was a getback
for Lil Greg.
Losing so many people in such a short time affected PocketTown in many ways, a lot of them decided to step down because when shit gets real, you need to think about your life too, most of them have families, it might be a coward way but can you blame them? 10 members locked up for indictment, 9 top members killed between 2020-2022, Denny G was almost killed, Meechie was almost killed, Lil Don got locked up, Lil Art barely survived after being shot 20 times, Lord was left in critical condition, this is the worst period for PocketTown and Lil Don also confirmed that his people are scared and he only got four
guys who are willing to slide.
Sadly the ones who will suffer the most is the family, his mom was devastated that she can't even give him a proper funeral
because of the way that he died.
Christopher "Gucci 🕊️" Daniels 08/05/2021
Gucci was near the sidewalk
4️⃣🍸 hood when a vehicle passed by and someone fired shots at him, he was shot in the chest and he was pronounced dead at the hospital.
This is one month after Dre was killed, Gucci was a member from the MuskegonBoyz clique, i didn't saw PocketTown or LakeSide celebrating anything, in fact they still say "getback got no date" for Spook and Dre, it might be other opps that NLMB have, remember NLMB beefs with 30+ sets, it could also be personal beef, mistaken identity and so on.
Felder "Stro Dolla 🕊️" Tatum Jr. 08/15/2021
Stro Dolla was with a group
of people inside GottiWorld
🔱 hood when someone opened and hit him in the chest, he was pronounced dead at the hospital, a 34 year old woman was also shot in the leg, she was taken to the hospital in good condition. Again i don't think he was the target but who knows, i didn't saw any opps celebrating, Stro Dolla was claiming NLMM but he was close to NLMB.He was also close
to BT 🕊️ who was killed in 2020 by DeathRow, he was also a rapper
, most likely Stro Dolla was just at the wrong time, wrong place, to my knowledge GottiWorld and NLMM or NLMB don't have beef. GottiWorld are actually opps to PocketTown.
2023.06.04 17:09 JWTom 2023 Waking Up Checklist (Updated!) - My Cake Day Gift to You (June 5th)
If you have learned "the truth about The Truth" (TTATT) then this post is for you. TTATT is learning or awakening to the reality that Jehovah's Witnesses are a harmful organization. Many of the teachings are simply false, misleading and in many cases organization policies cause outright harm to people. If you are trying to figure out what do as part of your waking up journey then please consider these things: Keep TTATT to yourself:
Your first thought may be to talk to a spouse, family member or close JW friend about what you have learned. DO NOT do this. There is so much risk to discussing anything with anyone....see next two points. Take time to process this:
Don't make any quick decisions. Take a breath, relax and promise yourself you will not act rashly or lash out in any way. Acting quickly or rashly will likely cause more problems than be helpful. Try to keep anger, emotion and action on-hold as you process. New Info - Waking Others Up: This is incredibly hard and you may not be able to do it! The best approach is not to say anything when you are newly awakened. If you do decide to say something to a friend or family member - be careful! Research and investigate what may resonate with them before you say one word. Dealing with family members as you wake up is incredibly difficult. Post on Reddit EXJW asking for help since this list is not intended to help with waking others up. Educate yourself and get help:
Many, many existing JWs are in your same situation (like me). Read the Wiki here, read JWFacts and other sites suggested by ones here. Consider registering a generic anonymous email address so that you can logon to Reddit to benefit from all the help here. The more knowledgeable you are on how to proceed once you have TTATT - then the better life you can have as you execute a plan. New Info: Consider learning about other religions to confirm that Jehovah's Witnesses do not have "the one true religion". When you realize JWs are not much different from all other religions it is easier to accept the lies. See a therapist:
If possible, see a therapist to get help with processing your new reality. This can help in the short-term and the long-term as you reset your life. New Info: Find a therapist with experience in religious trauma or that has worked with ones leaving high control groups in the past. Or at least wants to be a part of your journey and be supportive. You may need to invest some time in finding a therapist that is a good fit for you. Pursue Education:
At the youngest age possible, you must, must, must learn and pursue education that will enable you to take care of yourself (getting a job). If younger and still at home, take advantage of any assistance your parents will allow towards getting additional schooling. If not that young, you may still need to pursue education to have financial stability. Focus on learning things that will eventually allow you to live without the support of family or JWs. Many items on this list will require a measure of financial stability in order to succeed. Realize this is an enormous challenge:
If you are realizing TTATT, then this is a fight for your life!!! Your family and friends likely have not embraced TTATT. You need to understand, this is going to be hard. You may need to be fake and play games to make things manageable in your life. You will need to work hard to successfully adjust your life with your desire to extract yourself from the Jehovah's Witnesses organization - in some cases it can take years to do this. See things from a long-term view:
Your goal is to escape from this harmful organization and have a good life. So you likely need to live with some difficult circumstances now to reach that goal. Try to leave too fast before you are prepared for success can leave you in a very difficult place. As opposed to confronting and trying to awaken your friends/family - consider being more passive and simply changing the subject or agreeing with what JWs in your life say. Confronting friends/family about TTATT can backfire in a major way and make your life more difficult. Make a plan/Ask for help:
You are not alone. Many, many JWs are struggling with TTATT. Start to do some of the things in this plan and you may find it is easier than you thought. People here will help you plan and will support you. Do not be afraid to ask for help. There is a wealth of knowledge on this site, far too much to include in a post like this. Value yourself:
Embrace that you need to value and focus on yourself (and your immediate family). If you are younger, get an education and seek out the best employment you can find. If you are an adult, save your money and seek out the best financial situation possible. Take care of your health. Get a job with healthcare coverage. It takes money to live! Jehovah's Witnesses are not going to save you when you are broke and 80 years old (I know this since my parents are in this situation). You need a measure of financial security and the org will never help you with that. Build social connections of non-JW friends:
Seek out friendships with people that can help you succeed in life. Escaping is just a first step, you ultimately want a good life. Having friends that want this too will be a HUGE help! Being smart/educated, being a person with a good job/income, being a person that values and respects others. These are but a few qualities to look for in friends. Find a good job:
Having money to survive is critical to successfully escaping. Learn to work hard and save money. I learned to work and get paid at a young age - you can too. I cannot say this too much - if you do not have enough money - life is going to be very tough as you try to leave. Making good friends can also help in this area. Do not get baptized:
Stall, delay, defer, cry, kick, scream, etc. Within reason, do anything you can to avoid getting baptized. Being baptized makes escaping more complicated and makes future family relationships more difficult. If you are not baptized then you immediately escape many other "special privileges" that make it harder to escape. This likely only applies to younger ones on this forum - but should be followed by anyone not yet baptized. Stop donating money:
Pure and simple - stop giving money to JW Land. Every dollar you give to the Jehovah's Witnesses organization perpetuates the lies and allows the deceptions to continue. Every dollar you give means less financial security for you and your family. You likely need the money and do not have it to give away. This is one of the fastest ways to impact the org. Stop volunteering:
Say NO! to mowing the Kingdom Hall lawn, No! to building maintenance, No! to cleaning toilets, No! to the endless things that Watchtower wants you to do for free. It may be hard the first time you tell a brother this (that is trying to guilt you into providing free labor) but it gets easier each and every time. Learn to say NO....the brothers and sisters cannot do anything to you if you just say NO. Stop being an Elder or Ministerial Servant:
If you enjoy a "special privilege" such as CO, Bethelite, Elder, MS, Pioneer, etc. - then please consider making a plan to "stop serving" or "step down". Jehovah's Witnesses cannot survive without huge numbers of volunteers to enforce the rules and regulations of the JW way of life. Every person that leaves a "special assignment" makes it more difficult to preserve JW structures. It takes courage to do this and can be scary. However, once you have TTATT there is one main way to stop the lies, deceptions and endless peer pressure - simply stop supporting an organizational structure that harms people. Those with "special privileges in the truth" enable the JW organization to continue harming people. Consider Moving:
If you still live with your parents, then moving out is likely a necessity and you should make a plan to do this. Being able to move out and share expenses can be an enormous benefit to your overall plan if you have a roommate that is a good friend. For those that are older, a move can simply make it easier to no longer be "on the radar" of your PIMI friends/family. Fade:
Simply put, do less and less with anything related to being a JW. Fading is an art and is very specific to your situation. There are :hard fades" and "soft fades". How to do it right is different for everyone. Ask for help here and you will get a multitude of ideas that may apply. New Info: Fading is listed last for a reason. You cannot really fade if you still have JW privileges. Fading while also trying to carry out congregation responsibilities is a recipe for pain and suffering. Young people may not be able to fade successfully until they can move out from living with family. Doing as many things on this list as possible before you start fading is the best approach.
For more information on any of these topics please visit the Wiki for Reddit EXJW, located here: https://www.reddit.com/exjw/wiki/index/
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2023.06.04 16:52 micronesiarain Episode 5- "Killer Queens" 🔪😱
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Before this episode begins, I am so happy to say that this is the 100th episode of MDR! I guess I knew we'd reach it one day, but still can't believe it. It has truly felt like it's flown by, but the countless memories I have are a reminder of the past year and a half, and all 100 episodes. I am so appreciative of the support on this project, it has been so much fun to bring to life, and I can't thank everyone enough for letting us get to this milestone. Enjoy the episode <3
------------------------- the queens return to the workroom after Sharris' elimination
🏁Kami CF: Coming back from the last elimination, I feel like we need at least two to three business days to decompress. It was wild!
Steph: Well...how y'all doin'? the queens look around the room in silence
Whorechata: I just wanted to say something. Things got really out of hand earlier, and I know it was hard for all of us. But if there was any group to go through this with, I'm glad it was you all.
Wren: Aw, thank you. I feel the same wa-
Whorechata: I mean really, there's no group I'd want to go through being safe with. It was such an intense moment, but you all held me down.
Anthyy: That's not where I thought you were going with that!
Whorechata: Oh and I guess the Sharris thing was unfortunate too, but the real tragedy was just so much worse.
🏁Whorechata CF: Whew, let me try and hold back these tears. I knew this competition would get intense, but I never knew the level it would get to. So when Micro called me safe, it was a wake up call about just how nasty things can get here. A disaster, truly.
Morgs: I don't want to excuse what Sharris said. It was definitely not a nice thing to say.
Wren: I swear there's a "but" coming.
Steph: Wren, this is a family show...
Morgs: But, I have to be real and say that I'm sad to see her gone. She was someone I was really close with, and I know that this meant so much.
Blondie: You can be sad that your friend isn't here anymore, but you really can't be sad that her toxic energy was removed from this environment.
Morgs: My relationship with Sharris wasn't toxic. I know she did some of you wrong. But that wasn't my experience.
🏁Morgs CF: I feel like I'm put between a rock and Jackie Cox's face right now. All of the other queens are allowed to react however they want to when it comes to one of their friends going home. But when I do it, it feels like I'm not really allowed to feel sad about it.
Anthyy: I never saw myself picking Sharris to go home, especially this early. But I can reveal that I chose her lipstick. And I do feel for Morgs, that's your sister. What it came down to was that I needed to make sure the competition was kept as drama free as possible.
Morgs: I understand, it's okay.
🏁Anthyy CF: Morgs and Sharris were two people I had an alliance with. Even before we came here, I knew we'd look out for each other. However, it comes down to what feels right on a human level, and Sharris took things too far with Wren. I had to take a stand, even if it meant sending home an ally.
Wren: Full tea, what Sharris said didn't really bother me. I've heard worse, and I'm sure I'll hear worse in the future.
Blondie: That's not fair to you, though.
Wren: It's okay! You all know that me loving myself isn't an issue, I'm not about to let that get to me.
🏁Wren CF: I mean, how did Sharris want me to react? Did she want this to be the part where you bring out the tiny violin and switch everything to black and white while I wistfully look through a window while a single tear falls down my well defined cheekbones? Girl bye.
Blondie: One thing's for sure, people proved who they really were. Some of you who rode for what Sharris was saying, I won't forget that. Fleur rolls her eyes and laughs
🏁Blondie CF: My relationship with Fleur has gone down to a zero. Or scratch that, a negative two. We do run in similar circles, and I was expecting that to mean something in this competition. And it did for the first day or so. But when the pressure got turned up, Fleur showed her true colors. I need space from her right now, or else I'll pop off, and I'm not trying to be a fighter again. All that screaming messes up your vocal chords, and Fleur is not worth that!
Fleur: The vagueness is killing me.
Blondie: I'm not being vague, I'm just not giving you the attention you're craving.
Fleur: Blondie, be so real right now. Do you think I'm scared of you? Do you think there's any reason why I should be scared of you in this competition?
Blondie: Based on who won a challenge, maybe!
Fleur: Oh right, I forgot you won a challenge. Or did you even win it? It felt a lot like Zodya carrying you.
Blondie: The win is still sitting pretty. Something not everyone can say!
🏁Fleur CF: Blondie, I tried. I tried to defy the odds and actually get along with you here. But you've just proven to me that everyone here is truly awful. I'm not worried about anyone here being able to take me out. So why not give them hell and make them all miserable? That sounds even nicer than a crown. Yes, that'll do just fine. Get ready for it, you woke up the bitch. Well, the inner bitch. The outer bitch has been here the whole time. You know what I meant. And edit some nice villain music under all of that. It's showtime! The Next Day the queens dance into the workroom and over to the table
🏁Kami CF: It's a new day in the workroom, and I'm hoping the next challenge is something like baking cupcakes. That might be the only thing capable of bringing us back together. But for real, that would be so fun...
Zodya: Sue, I have to ask how you felt during the last lipsync.
Sue: I was fine. Really, I was so fine! And side note, but the sheets in the hotel are really great at absorbing tears. Or so I've been told.
🏁Sue CF: I really thought that last week could've been it for me. Everything felt so right, but it just wasn't enough. I'm desperate to prove myself as a strong competitor here, and someone that people should be afraid of. But without a win, it's hard to do that.
Whorechata: I was surprised at the top two, and that's only a moderate read.
Zodya: I'm scared for this answer, but who would you have taken out of the top?
Anthyy: And I know you might say me, but I don't really care. I know I turned it out, mama.
Whorechata: I would have replaced both of you! I think Sue should've been up there. And the other spot would have to go to a beautiful queen, full of talent, starts with a W...
Wren: Aw, me?
Whorechata: No, me.
Wren: Oh! Not sure why I'm even surprised by that at this point. the workroom door swings open and Micro walks in, wearing a tailored white suit with a matching hat and cherry red lip
Micro: Hello queens!
Steph: Alright, pimp mama!
Micro: Last week, things got a little tense. And uh, that might be a bit of an understatement. Which is why for your next challenge, it would make sense to do something a little more lighthearted.
Kami: Yes please!
Micro: But you know how we do things around here. For your next challenge, you'll be killing each other.
Blondie: Oh dear god.
Micro: With your acting, of course! The ten of you will be randomly split into two teams of five. In this group, you will be in charge of producing a plot, trailer, and captivating poster for the next big horror movie. How you choose to work within your team, that's up to you. But if I were you, I'd be sure to contribute if you want to avoid the bottom. And on the runway, category is "Pretty Little Prosthetics". Good luck, and get ready to scream!
🏁Blondie CF: For our challenge this week, we're split into teams as we create a horror movie. On my team, we have Fleur, Kami, Whorechata, and Zodya. And on the other team, Anthyy, Morgs, Steph, Sue, and Wren. Less than thrilled to be on a team with Fleur, but it's a strong group, and I think our chances of winning are pretty solid! the teams scatted through the workroom, with Blondie, Fleur, Kami, Whorechata, and Zodya talking by the couches
🏁Whorechata CF: It's starting to get to me that I haven't really been performing at the level I know I'm capable of here. I'm feeling a new sense of determination this week, and I have a whole list of ideas for this challenge. It's time to prove why I'm here.
Whorechata: So...I have ideas.
Fleur: There's a first for everything!
Whorechata: I'm thinking it could be cool to have the movie be shown from two different perspectives. The same story, but you see it differently depending on who it's focusing on. A sort of play on how the same situation can be perceived differently by different people.
Zodya: Wait, I love that?
Kami: That's a really great idea.
Whorechata: I know, that's why I said it! I mean...thanks!
🏁Kami CF: I do tend to feel stressed in group challenges. Especially with this big of a group. There are five of us. There might be more room to hide, but it's also so much harder to stand out. I want my voice to be heard, and I want to shine, but I'm not sure how.
Fleur: I'll volunteer to work on the poster.
Kami: Nice! Do you want help on that?
Fleur: Hmm, I think I can do it on my own.
🏁Fleur CF: First of all, I'd rather eat sand than work with anyone on my team. And, the poster is a huge part of this challenge. If I do it on my own, that means all the credit goes to me. Maybe a bad idea if the poster turns out ugly, but I'm not too worried about that. My only worry now is what to wear for the lipsync this week!
Zodya: Blondie, do you have an idea of what you're working on?
Blondie: I'll do whatever you need. Put me wherever and give me something to do.
Whorechata: Work with me on the script. I need someone to read through it and make sure it makes sense. One little issue, can you read?
Blondie: You bitch.
🏁Whorechata CF: I didn't plan on taking a leader position this week, but it kinda fell into place. We're getting some good work done, most of us at least. Kami, I know she wants to contribute, but I don't know what she's done yet? And that's starting to worry me. We might not be able to get this done in time... the team of Anthyy, Morgs, Steph, Sue, and Wren talk around the table
Anthyy: Ladies, ready to win? I need this one!
Wren: Oh please, you do not need another win right now. I'm already getting the Greantee flashbacks as is!
🏁Wren CF: Being on a team with Anthyy is really scary. I like her, we get along. But if we do well, that means another win for her. At a certain point, we need to stop her.
Sue: I feel like I could work on the poster? I can do my best with that!
Wren: That's perfect. Do we want ours to be a parody of iconic movies, or should it be fully original?
Morgs: I would maybe bring those ideas together. It can be a new and fresh idea, but still referencing certain ideas that have worked before.
Wren: I like that, I like that.
Anthyy: I would feel most comfortable working on the poster.
Steph: I think Sue mentioned wanting to work on that.
Anthyy: I don't want to take it away from her of course.
Sue: No, it's okay! Whatever is best for the team.
Anthyy: Are you sure?
Sue: If that's what will make our team strong, that's what we should do.
Anthyy: Thank you Sue, such a queen! Morgs, do you want to get some work done on this?
Morgs: Anything for you, well of course! the team works on their script before coming back together to go over their progress
Anthyy: I have the outfits for the poster almost done. But don't worry, they'll be done.
Wren: Not to be shady, but what were the two of you doing for all that time? You were gone for awhile, and didn't get anything done.
Morgs: She just said she was working on the outfits and that they're almost done.
Wren: The two of you talked a lot about what you were going to contribute, I'm not seeing much of anything. You need to do your part in the group.
Anthyy: We are. Don't diminish our work!
Wren: I don't see what work I'm diminishing...
🏁Wren CF: Maybe I need to appoint myself as the team leader, because we are not making enough progress. Anthyy and Morgs are like the two friends in school who work together on all the projects, but never get anything done because they're talking the whole time. We have serious work to do!
Morgs: I've been adding to the script, Anthyy's done the outfits, we've done more than enough.
Wren: That's not what I asked you two to do. Morgs, you were supposed to look over what I was doing, not add your own stuff.
Morgs: I get that, but I'm not going to sit back and do nothing.
Wren: Well it feels like you're either doing nothing, or just making things worse.
🏁Anthyy CF: Wren is making me and Morgs feel horrible during this challenge. We're doing the work, more than some other people in the team! But she ignores that since they're friends. It's making me question if I want to even be here, because she's making me feel so bad right now. the teams continue to work, as Whorechata goes over to the other team
Whorechata: So like, what if we had more time?
Steph: We have to be on the runway soon, I don't think that's an option.
Whorechata: If we all ask for a few more hours, maybe Micro will give it to us.
🏁Whorechata CF: What we have so far is good. But time is our biggest issue. If we can get a little extra, I know we can pull it all together. And it helps the other team too, it makes sense.
Anthyy: I don't think we need the extra time.
Wren: We don't, I know we don't.
🏁Wren CF: Your poor time management is not my fault. We were given the time we were given. If you can't make that work, start packing your bags.
Whorechata: But would you be against it?
Anthyy: I'm not making a scene over extra time, but we don't need it.
Whorechata: So what I'm hearing is that I can ask for more time...
Morgs: I wouldn't be mad with more time.
Sue: I'm happy to make it work either way.
Whorechata: Perfect! Whorechata leaves the workroom to ask a producer about extra time, before realizing there are no producers, only Micro. She drags Micro into the workroom while she's halfway done with getting ready for the runway
Micro: Chile, what now?
Whorechata: You know how much we love you, right? And how you really don't even need a corset, no matter what everyone says about your waist.
Micro: Excuse me?
Whorechata: What I'm saying is, we need a little more time for the challenge.
Micro: And everyone's good with that?
Whorechata: They'd love it!
Micro: I'm asking them...not you.
Whorechata: Sorry, I'm just speaking for the people. I'm motherly like that.
Micro: Does anyone strongly object to a few more hours for the challenge. Anthyy and Wren hesitate before raising their hands, and bringing them back down when nobody else objects
Micro: Alright, you can have a few more hours. But you better use it and make this the best challenge yet.
Whorechata: Mwah, thank you!
🏁Wren CF: When Micro says that there's an extension, I start to see red. Our group does not need this extra time. We may not have everything done right now, but when we hit the runway, it would've been ready. Micro leaves the workroom and the queens talk while getting ready by the mirrors
Wren: This is such bullshit, just so you all know.
Kami: What happened?
Wren: This whole extra time.
Kami: Were you guys done with your work?
Wren: ...that's not the point. We would've been done with it.
Anthyy: To me, it just feels like riggory. Micro wants the underdogs to win this week, so she's giving you more time.
Anthyy: I don't mean that in a shady way. I'm just saying that our team seemed stronger, and Micro wanted to make it less obvious. It's clear to me.
🏁Zodya CF: I don't know what Anthyy and Wren are trying to get at with this. I saw their work, it's nowhere near done. And in what world are we the underdogs? Anthyy sees everything by the numbers, but that isn't the only thing that matters in a challenge like this.
Anthyy: Look, it doesn't matter. Congrats on winning this week, woohoo! Runway the lights flicker and an electric magenta light floods the runway as Micro struts down the center Micro Episode 5 Look
Micro: Welcome back to the runway of Micro's Drag Race: All Stars Two! This week, the queens were challenged with working in teams to come up with original horror film concepts. And joining me on the judging panel is a queen with killer creativity, Lisbon! Lisbon Guest Judging Look
Micro: Lisbon, thank you for being here!
Lisbon: Anything for you...as long as you give me a crown one day.
Lisbon: I'm not joking...oh at all.
Micro: Oh. I'll see what I can do about that! Do you have any terrifying moments from your time on MDR that might inspire you in a challenge like this?
Lisbon: Why yes, I have quite a few! Season One Episode Twelve, All Stars One Episode Twelve, XDRVTW Episode Six. I'd have to say those really stick out.
Micro: Any reason?
Lisbon: Nope, none at all! Lisbon pulls out her voodoo dolls of Unieke, Tiwa, and Crystal
Micro: Well, that is not at all troubling! You ready to get into things?
Lisbon: Please, before I turn these dolls into a pile of fluff.
Micro: Alright! First up on the runway, category is "Pretty Little Prosthetics"! "Bad Juju" by Jujubee plays
Anthyy: Tonight on the runway the theme is prosthetics! And honey trust me this theme is just asking itself for it to be a creppy spooky lewk, but i already served that last week and on episode 1 an literally thorught the whle halloween special for miss Xtina so this time i wanted to make sure i am as girly as i can be with this prostehtics them! But also there is another layer to it i would never just go for a look and dont do nothing behing to it. Tonight on the runway i am channeling a broken porcelain ballerina doll. My whole dress is made out of glass and i am walking very carefully but stunning-ly by the runway. Her story is that her soul is trapped inside a ballerina's figure body and as you can see on the skin an thorughout her body she is slowly turning into that sad ballerina with the glass pieces cutting through her skin,, thats what the prostheticas are in my look! they modify her whole face, she is sad on the glass side, she is trapped and she is bleeding! but in pink! cause pretty girls have pink blood! Don't try and check it though! This runway also need to have a personal touch for me to feel good about it and tonight i wanted to honur my grandma, since she always wanted to become a ballerina but never made it! so granny tonight! you are the prettiest glass ballerina on the mainstage of the biggest compeitiotn! Anthyy Look
Blondie: KERMI! I AM READY FOR MY CLOSE-UP MON AMOUR! Tonight I am representing the original camp/fashion icon Miss Piggy! I am wearing prosthetic ears, a nose, and a cute wiggly tail! I am also wearing more passing than usual to create that big girl magic energy, so not only am I appropriating fat people, but pigs as well! The dress is completely made by moi and completely bedazzled, I get actual pearls and diamond encrusted headband, and I styled the 40 inch weave myself! I am taking a huge risk going camp, but I rather go out looking like a pig, than actually being one (cough cough Alex cough cough) . And you don't like it, expect this karate chop! HI-YA! Blondie Look
Fleur: People say I am two faced which I don't necessarily agree with because I say what I want when I want but I just wanted to pay homage to the losers of my past arguements who call me two faced by wearing a prosthetic head! Two heads is always better than one head, am I right Fleur Look
Kami: For my prosthetics lewk I am getting down and dirty mawma! I just wanted to do something fun this week, so I have gone with this sort of pig prosthetic thingy. This is for my fellow vegan/vegetarian qweens! #ISTANDWITHVEGANTEACHER Kami Look
Morgs: Silicon manufacturing with your own skin using inorganic compounds of negotiated slurp products for your bodacious perfect size scabs snack for youthful glow anti aging properties may turn vou slime new products for you soon including waters I discussed with Wren stay tune #microfracking Morgs Look
Steph: for my prosthetic look tonight i wanted to gag everyone by showing that i can be green with envy and still be pretty. just look at my skin and my long nose and she’s bald! also that rat is just a little scrumptious snack for later YUMMY YUMMY!! what’s not to love. i love a long soft prosthetic nose, ears, and chinnnn. if ur chin ain’t long, you’re just wrong! Steph Look
Sue: So for this runway I am serving you the end of the world but she I still a bad bitch because uwu. Sue Look
Whorechata: On the runway tonight I am feeling very SAFE! I am a kraken craking backs mawma! She is giving a full squid head prosthetic this evening. I am ready to wreck holes and boats tonight!!! Whorechata Look
Wren: Today on the runway I am giving you Ratrina Ratson, heir to the Ratson throne. She is DRIPPING in like a million fucking layers of jewels, necklaces, bracelets, and silver. When she moves it sounds like windchimes. I have been consistently getting the critique that I don't drag things up enough, and I hope thisll change that. This is what happens if the rats in Cinderella were sent to the ball instead of her, Cinderella has rats in it right? I'm literally just realizing while typing this that I have never seen Cinderella. Wren Look
Zodya: For this runway, I am showing off a look inspired by the Dilophosaurus! I have used prosthetics to make myself look fully reptilian, including my large, colorful flaps of skin off my face and hands. And don’t forget to mention my talons, as well as the horns sprouting out throughout my body. Don’t mess with me, queens, or else I’ll tear you apart and eat you alive…in Minecraft
! Zodya Look
Micro: Thank you ladies. You all look gorgeous, or terrifyingly disturbing. But hey, these looks will definitely be hard to forget. Now, let's take a look at your horror movie scripts.
Team 1: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1e-6bIAzNsvFOqKMMaqR7z5Y2ca503HZnzg15Ym4GfLc/edit#
Team 2: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1EoPn63HhkzwHNf1O4zJJ_Zj0U7tk07x96rx_iCZO4jg/edit?usp=sharing https://youtu.be/eVFuGpRHkdU Critiques
Micro: Based on your performances tonight, Lisbon and I have formed some opinions. It's time for your critiques.
Micro: First up, Team 1 (Blondie, Fleur, Kami, Whorechata, Zodya)!
Lisbon: Well, hello ladies… and Fleur. This concept was really interesting! I like that you weren’t afraid to approach it more seriously and it felt very atmospheric. However, it fell a little flat for me I guess? The addition of the hallucinations felt odd and left me wondering if Desireé or whatever was like- magic? I think this felt like a solid horror short story but I feel like it lacked imagination and was pretty middle of the road content wise. As for your runways… Blondie, I really love this look as I am the Miss Piggy extraordinaire but I wish it was elevated a little more. It’s giving Ariana meets Miss Piggy which I love but it’s definitely a bit more pedestrian than I’d like for All Stars. Fleur this is one of my top looks of the night you look absolutely horrid, no note really other than the glitter bouquet feels a wee bit cheap. Kami, this is cunt. No notes. Lucky, you look good! It’s a great look, I just want more mug I suppose. Zodya this is fierce, I love a concept that is well executed! One note and this is mainly a personal preference, I wish the face was more cunt less monster, but obviously that’s nitpicking.
Micro: Hello pretty ladies!! I think within this group, you all have such clear strengths, and I was curious to see how that would work in a team format. And I have to say, I’m really impressed by what you came up with. Starting with the poster, I think it captures that eery feeling and the split down the poster played perfectly into the story of the movie. I think some more contrast on the poster could’ve made it pop even more, but I thought it was nicely done! In the plot, I think this was structured a little more as a scene or trailer, rather than it being an overall summary of what the film would be about and the journey it would take us on. It was well written, I just think it ended up being overshadowed by the trailer since the vibe was quite similar between the two. Speaking of the trailer, it was so gripping. I was reading as fast as I could to see what would happen next, and that level of suspense isn’t easy to achieve. My one little nitpick would be that I wish the split perspectives were showcased more, but really fantastic work. On the runway, solid looks from each of you! Kami, I love the campiness of this look, and how you and Blondie played into the pig elements of the movie. Very clever! Fleur, this is the blend of concept and glamour that you do so well, nicely done. Lucky and Zodya, these creature looks can be tough to hold onto the fashion, but you both managed to pull it off. The scaling is grand and extravagant, two of the strongest looks of the night. Overall, very impressed by your group!
Micro: Next, Team 2 (Anthyy, Morgs, Steph, Sue, Wren)!
Lisbon: You guys… acting challenges are hard and I get that but this thing? Was super fun!!! Oh my god!!! I think taking the camp and parody route is a risk that is well worth taking because this was really good! Troglodyte was a standout in my opinion, but everyone had their moments. This was such a fun watch and you mixed two horror franchises really well! Micro is a lot scarier though to be honest. My issue tonight with this team is the runways as opposed to the other team over there. Starting with Anthyy, I love the concept as a former dancer, I just know this execution could’ve been a little more en pointe. I’m hilarious. I just wish it was more clearly prosthetic. Morgs, this is a well executed cliché with a fun twist. I’ve seen and was expecting a booby girl but I like that you are pink, this runway isn’t winning any awards though. Steph… girl… these prosthetics are so good… but this dress is god awful. You are giving Party City girl, and that’s the point blank truth. Sue. Meh. It’s fine, just not mind blowing. WREN WHY ARE YOU A RAT? This look is train wreck central. Those are necklace and earring PNGs on that dress and I don’t even know what’s going on with your face. Rat? Why? But like, this group had a phenomenal challenge, but was challenged with looks.
Micro: This team is full of some creative creative ladies, so I was really excited to see y’all in a team together. And I just have to say, the execution of this was incredibly well done. The poster, I love the custom looks, the dark shadowy feel, the scary ass “person” in the back, and the little “probably not though” at the bottom. That was a really fun little comedic touch that gave the poster some depth. I have to be honest, I was a little worried when I saw that the concept was so similar to Drag Race, just with a darker twist. I think for a challenge like this, it could’ve been an opportunity to go balls to the wall. But within the concept, you found really nuanced ways of telling the story. The character building and storytelling was next level, and it made me so invested in what was happening. The audio as well, in the words of Wendy Williams, “it was scuh-ary”. I think the way you structured everything as well was something we could actually see with a plot and trailer, clean and concise. The twisted humor throughout the trailer added lots of special touches, I loved to see it. On the runway, some serves were served! Anthyy, this dark ballerina moment is so pure, but also has darker levels beneath the surface. Steph, I think the actual prosthetic work here is amazing. But the dress, I wish it was so much more!! Morgs and Sue, I love how you both took a more standard fashion silhouette, and infused that prosthetic twist throughout. Wren, rat queen! This week was truly a return to the originality and dedication you showcased on Season Six, and this runway proves that. It’s weird, it doesn’t make sense, it’s glamorous, it checks all the boxes. Nicely done. Overall, great work from this team!!
Micro: Thank you ladies. This week, you worked in teams. But your individual work is what matters here. When I call your name, please step forward.
Micro: Anthyy, Fleur, Morgs, Steph, Zodya. The five of you are safe. You may step to the back of the stage.
🏁Anthyy CF: Disappointed to only be safe, but this week was really awful for me, and I'm just glad I was able to make it through.
Micro: Blondie Dahl. On the runway, you were a blushing bacon bride.
Micro: Whorechata Grande. In the challenge, you had us all questioning reality.
Micro: Wren Wyvern. This week, you scurried your way to the top.
Micro: Whorechata, Wren. Congratulations, you are the top two queens of the week!
🏁Whorechata CF: And that's how you do it.
🏁Wren CF: Yes!! Fuck yes!! Finally I get my moment, this is what I've been waiting for!
Micro: Blondie, you are safe.
Blondie: Better than getting the pork chop!
Micro: Sadly, that means Kami and Sue, you are the bottom queens of the week.
🏁Kami CF: This is a horrible feeling. I know how badly I want this, and the thought of my dream being cut short, it's heartbreaking.
🏁Sue CF: I'm devastated right now. I wanted this to be the week where I got to the top, not fall to the bottom. I don't want to be the reason Kami goes home, but I need to fight for my spot.
Micro: Whorechata, Wren. In a moment, you will lipsync for your legacy and for the right to eliminate one of the bottom queens. Head backstage to Untucked and deliberate. Untucked the queens enter Untucked
🏁Zodya CF: The bottom two this week is crushing to see. You don't want it to be you, but it stings seeing such amazing people in the bottom. For once, I am glad to not be in the top.
Kami: First and foremost, congratulations! Not the ideal situation, but the two of you crushed it, and we need to celebrate that.
Wren: Aw, thank you. I don't want to be obnoxious with how I'm feeling, but this just feels amazing. Like, ahhhhh!!
Whorechata: I told myself that I would be able to win this challenge if I set my mind to it. And look at me now! It makes me feel great.
Steph: I'm obviously really happy for the two of you, but devastated at who's in the bottom. I really didn't expect this.
Sue: I thought I gave it my all this week. But when you hear the critiques, it's hard not to feel like you could've done more. I guess that's what I'm feeling right now.
Steph: Aw, Sue. I thought you were great.
Sue: Thanks. This just, it means more to me than I thought it did? And to go from feeling like I was picking up steam to totally crashing, it's not a slay moment.
Steph: Very not slay.
Blondie: Whatever happens, you two have brought so much to this. It means a lot that I can call you my sisters.
Morgs: Did anyone have issues working with their team?
Zodya: I think we all got along!
Kami: There was a clear end goal of what we wanted to get done. It would've been nice to feel like we all had the chance to do our fair share, but it was a good experience overall.
Whorechata: I know you wanted to do more. But it's up to you to step in and make sure you're involved. You'll get left behind if you wait for us to bring you in.
Kami: Yeah, I get it. It's just a lot of emotions, sorry.
Whorechata: Hey, you're good.
Anthyy: I thought we worked really well. We all brought our own unique twist, and it came out great in my eyes. Morgs giggles
🏁Anthyy CF: The other team does not need to know how bad things were for us. If they know, then they'll think I'm not good at working in a team. They need to think that everything went perfectly!
Kami: I would love the opportunity to speak with the top queens if that's alright. Just plead my case a bit.
Sue: That would be nice for me as well.
🏁Sue CF: I want to prove to the top queens this week that I deserve to be here. I regret letting Anthyy take over for the poster. But a lot of the love that the characters got, I helped with that. This isn't my time to go, I know it isn't.
Whorechata: Alright, let's chat! Kami talks with Whorechata and mentions their connection to Season Five, and how she wants to represent for that. She shares that during Season Five, she felt like she was overshadowed by Moof, and unable to really stand on her own as a strong competitor. Being in the bottom made her realize how badly she wants this, and moving forward, she's dedicated to giving everything she has to this competition Sue talks with Wren and Wren says that she thought Sue would've been in the top this week. Wren tells Sue that her heart is being pulled in two different directions. While she's gotten close with Kami, she can't overlook her long friendship with Sue. Sue tells Wren that she stands by what she did in the challenge, and wishes she took more responsibility for her contributions while the top and bottom queens deliberate, Anthyy and Morgs chat by the touch up mirrors
Anthyy: Honestly, I'm over it.
Morgs: Oh no, over what?
Anthyy: I feel like I need to leave maybe. The way Wren made me feel during the challenge, and saying we weren't doing enough.
🏁Anthyy CF: When we were working on the challenge, Wren said multiple times that she didn't think Morgs and I were doing enough. And to me, that felt like a really shady way of ganging up on us to make sure none of the praise for the challenge got shown to us. I felt myself getting closer with Wren, but her questioning my work ethic, it really broke me.
Morgs: You can't leave. You're doing too well.
Anthyy: I didn't come here to deal with all this stress. I came here to win, and the pressure is eating away at me. And now for someone to be coming after me, I can't do it anymore.
🏁Morgs CF: Losing Anthyy isn't an option right now. She's the closest person I have here, and I know that she would regret leaving. That's my girl, I need to make sure she's alright.
Morgs: I will cry if you go home, and you don't want to make me cry.
Anthyy: No, I don't want that! I know I need to fight through this, but it's really hard. I'm not sure what I'll do. the queens return to the runway
Micro: Welcome back queens! Will the top two queens of the week please step forward. Whorechata Lipsync Look Wren Lipsync Look
Micro: Prior to tonight, you were asked to prepare a lipsync performance of "Die Young" by Kesha. https://youtu.be/NOubzHCUt48
Micro: This is your chance to impress me, and earn the right to give one of the bottom queens...the chop.
🏁Whorechata CF: Little do they know, I put pockets all up in here. Give me all the lipsticks, send 'em all home!
🏁Wren CF: Oh bitch, I'm ready for this! I need to give these girls a few lessons.
Micro: Good luck, and don't fuck it up! Read the lipsync here!
Micro: Well, that was something! I've made my decision.
Micro: Wren Wyvern. You're a winner, baby!
🏁Wren CF: I did it!! If you asked me how I felt a few hours ago, I would've said that I was questioning my place here. But this little taste of victory, it snapped me right back into place.
Micro: Whorechata. You are safe to slay another day. You may step to the back of the stage.
Whorechata: Safe, of course. Smile through the pain, smile through the pain.
Micro: You may step to the back of the stage.
Whorechata: I mean, I could. But what if I stood here? Would I be a winner.
Micro: ...no. No, you would not.
Whorechata: Shh, no more words.
Micro: Now, will the bottom queens please step forward. Kami and Sue step to the front of the stage with shaky hands
Micro: I won't lie, this sucks. Both of you are such special queens in this competition. Wren. With great power comes great responsibility.
Wren: Ugh, this is the worst part.
Micro: Which queen have you chosen...to get the chop?
Wren: Ultimately I believe with one of you I would not be in the top and you were such a joy to have on our team and you did a lot of the conceptualizing. I am not about to have my Bebe Zahara Benet moment so the person I have chosen is…
Wren: Kami. Wren's Lipstick Choice Kami smiles and wipes away a tear as Micro and the other queens get emotional
Wren: I'm so sorry.
Kami: It's all good, I promise!
🏁Kami CF: I wanted this. I wanted this so bad. But I'm leaving this competition as a better queen than I was when I walked in. Seeing people believe in me gave me permission to believe in myself. My time will come.
Micro: Kami. You are one of the kindest, genuine, and most talented queens to ever grace this stage.
Kami: I appreciate that more than I can say. It might not have ended the way I wanted, but I'm forever grateful for this experience.
Micro: Sadly, I must ask you to sashay away. Kami walks to the back of the stage as Anthyy leads a crowd of queens up on stage to embrace Kami before she leaves
Kami: Love you all. Until we meet again!
Micro: Whew. Congratulations to the nine of you for making it through another week. I know I get all "whaaaa" and a little "oh my damn" at these eliminations, but this one hit different. And they're only getting harder each week. Keep up the great work, and let the music play! "Banjo" by Bebe Zahara Benet plays Next Time on Micro's Drag Race: All Stars
Micro: Get ready for the buffoonery, riggory, and tomfoolery of "Robbed: The Musical!".
Anthyy: I don't know if I can do this anymore. It's all too much.
🏁Wren CF: The competition is being flipped on its head. Things can change so quickly. Track Record Cast Shot w/ Placements
2023.06.04 16:48 IKnowICanBeAJerk [FS] [US-NM] 2x Intel Nuc7
Both computers are at the point of the Windows 10 PRO install where it is asking for the region. It will not need any install media at this point and are ready to be setup.
One of the NUCs comes with the AC adapters but one does not. The adapter can be bought on eBay for as little as 10$
All prices are OBO
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I am interested in picking up a 1050ti or 1650. It's going in an Optiplex for my sister so it has to be powered by the PCIe slot only. Timestamps
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2023.06.04 16:39 LaughingStag Joffrey II - Sunshine Boogie
The Grafton fleet arrived off the coast of Dorne. It was an admittedly challenging trip, with whirlpools and rocky coastline that put the small ships slightly further out from the peninsula than they had desired. The sheer cliffs offered little purchase for landing, which may have posed a bigger problem for any would-be invaders.
Not that that was a great problem for the Dornish, really. How far south was their closest neighbor?
The mouth of the Torrentine was much calmer than the choppier rapids and waterfalls further upstream, where the Dayne's ancestral seat of High Hermitage had been surrounded by much bedlam.
The ship anchored, and Joffrey arranged passage by a boat to the shoreline. He had battled seasickness, and his anxiety from being near the Stepstones surely did not help. It was the second time in his life he'd been this far south, and he would be happier if it was the last.
The boat found a place to land along the calmer part of the shoreline, where the Arryn siblings and their small retinue of Knights of the Narrow Sea were greeted with sun-kissed bleached white sand. The heat of this land was imminently apparent.
"Starfall is a short hike North of here." Joffrey consulted some maps. "Let's be done with it."
The walk had not been too treacherous. They stopped to drink from tributaries flowing into the Torrentine.
"What kind of man is Arthur Dayne, anyway?" His companions mused.
"Young. His father was killed by brigands." Another answered.
Then he will find solace in the arms of Jonquil, Joffrey thought while washing his face. Or the Reach will have to do. We must not return empty handed.
At last the party arrived at Starfall. Making his way to the gates he waved. His face had long turned red under the Dornish sun's glare, and he desired nothing more than a bath.
"Hail to you!" Joffrey announced, his voice hoarse. "I am Ser Joffrey Arryn, Knight of the Blue Stripes. This is my sister, Lady Jonquil Arryn. We are here for an audience with your Lord, Arthur Dayne, on behalf of the Defender of the Vale, my brother Eon Arryn."
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2023.06.04 16:31 ineedhelp09283 I'm jealous of my twin sister
All my life, I always kinda of have been jealous of my ferternal twin sister. We don't really look alike, kinda opposite actually.. she had straight, thick hair, straight teeth, tall and skinny like a model which most people say to her, whereas I have frizzy curly hair, crooked teeth and jaw, and kinda short and chubby.. everyone always seems to find her more attractive, hell even I do. But one thing that makes me mad is our personalities.. I have always had the country personality, I would dress it, I was in automotive, I love me a county man, I stared going to rodeos and truck and tractor pulls. Her personality was bubbly and she dressed ig more fairy like, and liked any kind of man that was nice, now for some reason she started copying my wardrobe, started going to the events I did, and even wants to find her a country boy. She started getting the same heatwave sunglasses as me and now she's getting her best friend to be more like her and she's now saying she's copying her and I told her that she had started copying me but she's like no I've always been this way..but she hasn't. My personality was all I had, and now I feel like I have nothing. I always kinda of have been jealous of my ferternal twin sister. We don't really look alike, kinda opposite actually.. she had straight, thick hair, straight teeth, tall and skinny like a model which most people say to her, whereas I have frizzy curly hair, crooked teeth and jaw, and kinda short and chubby.. everyone always seems to find her more attractive, hell even I do. But one thing that makes me mad is our personalities.. I have always had the country personality, I would dress it, I was in automotive, I love me a county man, I stared going to rodeos and truck and tractor pulls. Her personality was bubbly and she dressed ig more fairy like, and liked any kind of man that was nice, now for some reason she started copying my wardrobe, started going to the events I did, and even wants to find her a country boy. She started getting the same heatwave sunglasses as me and now she's getting her best friend to be more like her and she's now saying she's copying her and I told her that she had started copying me but she's like no I've always been this way..but she hasn't. My personality was all I had, and now I feel like I have nothing
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2023.06.04 16:29 Jackblack320 Wrong passport no. in Letter of Undertaking of Expenses..
I applied for a standard visa to go on a short tourist trip to the UK, since I’m not earning yet, my father had to write a letter of undertaking of expenses for me but he accidentally typed my sister’s passport number instead of mine when mentioning my details.
Is this something that can cause any trouble? I’m especially worried because I had applied for a priority visa and it’s been 4 working days as of now, and I haven’t received any communication yet and I only have 6 days before the trip.
I’m applying from India if that is relevant and also I’m 17.
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2023.06.04 15:58 ydzlnn My bf (M20) has an ex of 4-5yrs and I (F21) feel insecure because his mother and sister have a bond w her that I can only dream of having.
My boyfriend and I have been officially dating for a month, but we met nov of 2022.
he has an ex of 4-almost 5 years and it was a rs that turned very, very toxic.
We met 7 months after they broke up, but it was very obvious that the girl still wants to get back together.
A month before we became official, I found out that the ex still goes to their house (invited by his mom and his eldest sister) and slept there for several days bc his niece's bday wish was to see her.
Long story short, the ex wanted me to think that it was my bf that kept inviting her to their house and doing all these things to interact with her.
But after talking to my bf, I found out that many of what she said was a diff version of the story wherein she ommitted major details to make it seem like my bf was two-timing me with her.
Anyway, I have this insecurity that bc they dated for all those years, I have no place in his family. His mom and sister obviously still keep in touch with her. His sister is aware of me, the ex sent her an instagram story that my bf reposted (the ig story was our pictures together).
A few mins ago, I saw that the mother and sister of my bf commented on her profile picture on facebook.
Idk what to feel sometimes. I know that I'm the present and future, but family is a big thing. it makes me more nervous meet them bc I want them to like me, not tolerate me.
I'm not trying to replace the ex be his mom and sister's rs w her is none of my businss, but I do wish for them to like me and also have that bond w them.
I want to be confident in my place as the gf that will treat him the way he deserves to be, but this insecurity just gets to me sometimes. It also makes me uneasy when the topic of introducing me to his mom is brought up.
I want to push these thoughts out of my head, but I don’t know how.
Am I reading too much into it?
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2023.06.04 15:56 the_weirdest_nugg How do I stop my sister from going back to her abusive husband
To keep things short, I (18F) have a sister (25F) who is married to a physically abusive man (31F). They have been married since 2018 and have been dating long before that. In their time together he has had substance abuse issues, but recently has developed an addiction that is making him violent and unsafe to be around. In the past six months she has moved in with my (60s-ish) parents with their three kids, and life was a living hell for everyone because of their dynamic and her poor mental state. On multiple occasions I have seen him physically hurt her and leave marks, but the authorities haven’t done anything because she insists on not pressing charges. My parents and I have encouraged her and supported her despite her constantly going back to him, and also have given her the resources to leave him, but she refuses to accept our help. She has gone as far as filing a restraining order against him in the spring of 2022, but she dropped it not even a week later and was acting like nothing ever happened. She has gone through this cycle of saying she’ll file for divorce and that she’s done with him for almost a year, yet she has made no effort to do so and goes back in her statements not long after she makes them. Last night her husband made an attempt at her life, and she tried having him arrested, but because of our messed up legal/criminal justice system nothing ever happened to him. She insists that she is finally done with him and filed for a restraining order, but I am unlikely to trust her because of her past behavior in regards to handling the situation. How do I convince her to actually leave him and get the help she needs?
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2023.06.04 15:45 Nails450 Even in times of constant challenges, scenes of serenity can be found.
2023.06.04 15:00 Star_Shine_Lmao My sister is my worst nightmare
My whole life I’ve been wishing for a sibling, even better a sister. And when I was nine I got one. And I loved her more than anyone, until she turned.
My sister is only in first grade, but she is the worst enemy I’ve ever had, and I’ve been bullied my entire childhood. She goes her first year in school, and I go the last year, and she bullied me like crazy on the bus. She calls me dick, ugly and embarrassed me in front of my classmates. I know dick and ugly is not bad, but she is so young and I am a near adult. It hurts bc it is so embarrassing. I can’t say anything back bc then I am the bitch who hates on her sister. She also tells my ex who I’ve got beef with that I still like him, even tho I don’t. And he believes her and now he things he can make me jealous, it is so annoying and embarrassing.
She’s always been a brat and stubborn, and I am the nice one, but I guess that is the first sibling, second sibling rule, idk. After she was born I went into my lazy teen phase, and now she comes to my room opens the door, threatens me with beating and demands that I go down stairs or do something for her. She has told me she’d kill me several times, but that happens when I tease Her, which is impossible to avoid. My parents say that I’m very aggressive and violent against her, but she is just unbearable.
The cherry int the cake was like the begingen of the year when she reported to the school nurse that my father is violent at home. (Please keep in mind that I’ve never told this to anyone, and I need to get it out. I am terrified that someone I know will find this, so it is very hard for me to talk about it) He is not, he is yelling, but we all yell in my house, and he has NEVER payed hands on us. I know that he loves us dearly and that he’d do anything for us. He just has a short temper, so do I, which is the reason why I am aggressive towards my sister. Anyway it got a lot of attention and we had care takers visit our home and stuff. My mom and dad were very hurt and angry with my sister. I can tell you how much I cried after getting to know this. She is lying like nothing matters and she said that I am violent for no reason, which is it true.
At the begging I didn’t want to go home, only stay at friends house and avoid her. I couldn’t stand her at all anymore. Afterwards when we took the bus she did dumb stuff with her classmates like screaming, laughing to loud and saying bad and inappropriate things. It made me furious as I already was on the edge of anger. The bus driver even told them to keep it down, but they don’t listen.
My father began to drive us to school in the mornings just some time before all of this started, and then he stopped, but now he began again. He drives her to school and also picks her up, nothing wrong with that, I also did that when I was her age. But he does it to avoid her talking trash and stupid lies at school. I understand that, me and mostly my sister talk a lot about private things, and with her things can get out of hand.
Now the times are over I think, and everything is okay. But I can’t get to love her again. I don’t see her as my sister. She is just someone living with us, like a weird person I don’t know. I can say that I truly hate her. She is an evil witch, but my father says that she is just out of the ordinary and I’d have to take good care of her once our parents were dead.
I know for a fact that she’ll do illegal things when she get a teen, and I don’t know how I will handle that. She is already a rule breaker and I bet she won’t stop doing that.
Next year I’m gonna move out, and she’ll be out of my life, but so will my parents. For the end quote I have this: I once told my mother that I wished the care takers to take my sister away.
Oh and I can say “my biggest dream turned into a nightmare”
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2023.06.04 14:52 awwater I might end everything real soon, I cannot stand this shit anymore.
As a 15-year-old male, I find myself grappling with a difficult situation concerning my parents and their priorities. It feels as though they consistently place my grades and achievements above my mental well-being and overall health. Regrettably, they fail to acknowledge the validity of my mental struggles, almost as if they are oblivious to conditions like depression even existing. The way they reacted when they discovered I was engaging in self-harm was far from understanding or supportive. Instead, my mother resorted to shouting and even threatened to involve the authorities if I didn't cease these harmful behaviors. It is worth noting that self-harm and suicide attempts are illegal where I reside.
A while ago, my father unexpectedly stumbled upon me vaping in my room. This incident resulted in yet another round of yelling and derogatory remarks directed at me, solely because of my choice to vape. More recently, my mother became aware of my purchase of nicotine gum, which I had been using to alleviate withdrawal symptoms. Her reaction was nothing short of explosive, as she launched into a tantrum, expressing her disdain towards me and accusing me of self-destruction. When she inquired about the purpose of my purchases, I truthfully explained that I wanted to avoid the debilitating effects of nicotine withdrawal. However, instead of considering my perspective, she promptly labeled me a liar and dismissed my explanation as mere fabrication. I suggested that she conduct a quick search on the internet or consult a medical professional to verify my claims, but she flatly refused, seemingly convinced of her infallibility.
One of the most disheartening aspects of this situation is that my parents never inquire about the underlying causes of my distress. Even on the rare occasions when they do ask, and I speak to them sincerely, sharing my desires for change and improvement, they consistently brush it off with feeble excuses, labeling it as a mere "phase." Disturbingly, whenever they discover evidence of my self-harming tendencies, they resort to physical violence, berating me with harsh words and threatening me. I have reached such a breaking point that I have attempted suicide on two occasions, with my mother being aware of one of these incidents. Shockingly, she chose to do nothing in response, leaving me feeling utterly abandoned and alone.
Adding to the mounting stress and worry, I recently received an alarming ultimatum. If my grades do not meet their high expectations when they are released this year (in about a month at most), my parents have threatened to send me away to live with my abusive older sister in another country. This looming possibility weighs heavily on my mind, exacerbating my already overwhelming feelings of desperation and a desire to end my life.
It is essential for anyone reading this to understand the severity of my situation and the urgent need for intervention and support. While I appreciate your willingness to listen and provide guidance, I know that it is crucial for me to reach out to a trusted adult, counselor, or helpline in my country immediately, as it doesn't do shit (from experience), so please don't suggest any of this. I truly appreciate everyone who took time to read this.
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2023.06.04 14:51 random_visitor1 I (26M) am tired of falling in love!!
I have been in 3 relationships in my entire life and I feel like i have always been on the short end of the stick
My very first relationship last 3 years, I was head over heels for this girl in my class we were young, in grad school, different religions. Things were going well but her brother disliked me because of the said religion factor and used to tried to beat me up a few times but I was in love so i took it on as i did not want to be disrespectful (also blindly in love). Then a dude enters her life becomes her best friend, falls in love with her thus causing more fights between us. Tries to manipulate and get her to love him well guess what he did it and we had to break up. Thought i had learnt my lesson but wait for the 2nd one.
3 years later, had not dated anyone till then, met this woman online and we became friends quickly we started talking everyday, did video calls, we eventually fell in love. But then came the time to meet and she lied to me about having a life threatening medical condition to avoid that, and thats just the tip of the iceberg, there were a lot more of those involved it just took me a few pics from her to figure that out. Lesson learnt online relationships not a real thing.
A few months down the line i thought i had finally met my person we were cute, we were compatible at first, but something changed after she went home for a few months. My sister had moved in with me till then and initially they were super close. Our families met we decided to get engaged. But little did i know the things that were gonna come after this. She started hating on me and sister, we could not even move a furniture around without getting an earful. She was never home went out to hang out with her friends. i had changed a little had to be a bit more responsible with our wedding on the way saving money and stuff. She did not like it and we got into a lot of fights for this. Her family started blaming mine for a couple of things and i could not retaliate because my parents loved her. 2 months after our engagement we broke it off. And she moved in with a guy friend of hers whom she started dating. Her friends called me to tell me that they felt sorry for me because they knew that she was cheating on me.
I have lost hope on love, I do not want to find it if this is how its gonna end up every time. All I ever wanted was a person to just love me for me and be my peaceful place and i was willing to put more than 100%. Even in all the 3 instances mentioned above I do not hate them or have ever wished bad for any one of them, I still wish them the best. And I know I'm not perfect and I have made my fair share of mistakes. But I feel bad at times thinking is this all that love has to offer.
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2023.06.04 14:44 reylomeansbalance Over-Analyzing All the References in Six: "Don't Lose Your Head" by Rachael Dickzen (support her by leaving a like/commenting on her blog)
https://www.rachaeldickzen.com/blog/2020/6/25/dontloseyourhead VERSE 1 Grew up in the French Court, Oui, oui, bonjour I’ve seen people misinterpret this line online as indicating that Anne Boleyn was French. That is NOT the case. Anne was an English woman, the daughter of Thomas Boleyn, a prominent diplomat who served both Henry VIII and his father Henry VII, and his wife Lady Elizabeth Howard (part of the powerful Howard family), but as was fairly common for the time, Anne was sent away from her family to complete her education in the households of various noble families. Those families just happened to be some of the rulers of the Netherlands and France. Anne was sent to join the household of Margaret of Austria in 1513 (in the low countries, in modern day Belgium), when Anne was either 12 or 6 (Anne’s exact birth year is unknown and there are NUMEROUS debates about which year is more likely - 1501 or 1507). Margaret of Austria was the daughter of Maximilian I, Holy Roman Emperor, and was serving as the governor of the Habsburg Netherlands at the time. Anne’s father Thomas had been sent as an envoy to Margaret the year before and got along so well with her that he managed to secure Anne’s place at the time. Margaret of Austria was highly educated and cultured and her court had a reputation for having an extremely well-stocked library and art collection. Scholars, poets, and artists were constantly around the court. Here, Anne gained a fluency in French, which led to Mary Tudor choosing her for her household in the French Court in 1514. About a year after she went to Margaret of Austria’s court, Anne was sent to serve Mary Tudor, Henry VIII’s sister, who was marrying the French King, Louis XII. Anne’s sister Mary probably served Mary Tudor as well, but it’s a little unclear how long either of them served her, as many of her English attendants were dismissed the day after the wedding. Less than three months into the marriage, the French king died. Although Mary Tudor went back to England (and scandalously married Charles Brandon, Duke of Suffolk, without Henry VIII’s knowledge or permission), Anne Boleyn stayed on in France and joined the household of the new Queen, the 15-year-old Claude. Queen Claude also loved scholarly manuscripts and art, so her court was full of such beautiful things and exciting people. By the time Anne was recalled to England in January 1522, she had spent 7-8 years of her life on mainland Europe and almost that long in the French court. She would have been there from ages 12-20 OR ages 6-14. Either way, although she was English born, it’s more than fair to say that she “grew up in the French court.” “Oui Oui Bonjour” means “yes yes, hello” in French. Life was a chore so (she set sail), 1522 came straight to the UK - All the British dudes, lame (Epic fail) Anne Boleyn was summoned back to England in January 1522 by her father to marry her Irish cousin, James Butler, in order to settle a dispute over a title and some land. This marriage fell through for an unknown reason. At this time, Anne Boleyn’s sister Mary Boleyn was at Henry VII’s court. Historical records indicate that Mary Boleyn was Henry’s mistress, and rumors abound that one or both of Mary’s children were Henry’s, as opposed to her husband William Carey’s, but there’s no definitive evidence on the subject. Anne joined the court at least by March 1522 as a maid of honor to Queen Catherine of Aragon, and quickly became very well known there. She was described as being very intelligent, stylish, and quick-witted. Apparently she had numerous admirers among the men at court, including the poet Sir Thomas Wyatt. Anne actually entered into a secret betrothal with Henry Percy, son of the Earl of Northumberland, but this was broken off when Percy’s father and Cardinal Thomas Wolsey (who was acting as the king’s chief courtier at this time) both refused to support the match. “The UK” and “British dudes” - Technically the UK (United Kingdom) wasn’t called that until 1800, when Parliament passed an act uniting Great Britain and Ireland as “The United Kingdom of Great Britain and Ireland.” In Anne Boleyn’s time, it was just called England and its inhabitants were only called English, not British (although the Romans called the British Isles Britannia and occasionally referred to the larger island as Great Britain, the name wasn’t widely used to refer to the kingdom on the British Isles until 1707, when the kingdoms of England and Scotland were officially joined into one political union). Ooh, I wanna dance and sing - Politics, not my thing Anne was an extremely accomplished dancer, singer, and played numerous musical instruments. However, after Henry put her in a position of power, Anne actually wielded tremendous influence on his policy, particularly as it related to religion. There’s evidence that Anne persuaded Henry to read so called “heretical” pamphlets by Protestant writers about how kings had a responsibility to control the Catholic church and stop its excesses. She also was very influential in granting petitions, receiving diplomats, and was a patron to numerous nobles and artists, including the famed Hans Holbein. I don’t love this line and some of the others in the musical because of the ditzy way in which Anne is portrayed, which is very different from reality. However, I try to remind myself that she’s just a character, and she isn’t meant to be historically accurate. Ooo, but then I met the King - And soon my daddy said, you should try and get ahead It appears that Anne caught Henry VIII’s eye in 1526. Having learned from her sister’s example though, Anne refused to sleep with him or become his mistress. She quickly gained the ability to influence the king. There isn’t much evidence that her father Thomas Boleyn actually pushed Anne toward her relationship with Henry, but this is a common portrayal of the situation in books, film, and TV shows. He wanted me, huh, obviously, Messaging me like everyday, Couldn't be better, then he sent me a letter and who am I kidding, I was prêt-à-manger Ooh, sent a reply, Ooh, just saying hi, Ooh, you're a nice guy, I'll think about it maybe, XO baby Henry VIII wrote Anne many love letters which still exist today. You can read them here. These letters give us most of the information we have about their relationship, including the fact that Anne refused to sleep with him for much of their seven-year courtship. Unfortunately, we don’t have Anne’s replies to Henry, but evidence indicates that she really did avoid his advances for a long time and Prêt-à-manger literally means “ready to eat” in French. Here we go (You sent him kisses), I didn't know I would move in with his missus (What?), Get a life (You're living with his wife?), Like, what was I meant to do? As I noted previously in the blog post on No Way, Anne Boleyn was already living in the same palace as Henry and Catherine even before Henry noticed her. Anne was Catherine’s maid of honor, and thus, lived at court along with many many other nobles and aristocrats. However, in December 1528, Henry set Anne up with her own “very fine lodging…close to his own,” as reported by a French diplomat of the time, and there are lots of reports that she basically had her own shadow court and was acting as a second queen at that time. “What was I meant to do?” has a slightly humorous effect in this song, but it reflects the reality that Anne Boleyn really didn’t have many choices here. She was able to resist Henry’s sexual advances, but she couldn’t fend him off altogether because he was the king, and her livelihood and the rest of her family’s livelihoods really depended on his favor. She tried to make the best of the situation by refusing to sleep with him and insisting that he marry her, but she didn’t have much control over it beyond that. CHORUS Sorry not sorry 'bout what I said - I'm just tryna have some fun In an interview with the Chicago Shakespeare Theater, co-writer Lucy Moss said that “Sorry, not sorry” was directly inspired by one of Anne Boleyn’s mottoes in life - “Let them grumble; that is how it’s going to be.” Anne very briefly adopted the Latin version of this motto in 1530, “Aisi sera groigne qui groigne.” She even had this motto embroidered on her servants’ livery coats! This demonstrates Anne’s feelings about those protesting her elevation and the king’s attempts to get rid of Catherine of Aragon. She didn’t end up using it very long - the imperial ambassador Eustace Chapuys, who /hated/ Anne, claimed that she changed it once she realized it was actually Margaret of Austria’s motto (Groigne qui groigne et, vive Bourgoigne). However, Anne spent several years at the court of Margaret of Austria as a child, so it seems unlikely that she wouldn’t have realized this. Another possible explanation is that she just realized the motto wasn’t doing anything to calm the tensions. Don't worry, don't worry, don't lose your head I didn't mean to hurt anyone - LOL, say oh well - Or go to hell I'm sorry not sorry 'bout what I said - Don't lose your head “Don’t lose your head” is a common colloquialism meaning “don’t lose your temper.” I tried to figure out where this saying came from and how old it is, but didn’t have much success. Some people do say that it actually originally specifically was referring to executions by beheading, so it works very well in this context. The lyric obviously refers to Anne’s ultimate demise, but it also refers to Anne Boleyn’s infamous temper. Anne was brilliant, but it’s well documented that when angry, she often said spiteful, threatening things. One courtier said that she spoke to her uncle once in words that "shouldn't be used to a dog." It’s also reported that she said if Henry ever left her as Regent when he was away, she would have Princess Mary killed. VERSE 2 Three in the bed and the little one said, If you wanna be wed, make up your mind Her or me, chum - Don't wanna be some Girl in a threesome, Are you blind? Reports from the time indicated that Anne and Henry had a very stormy relationship and had a tendency to have huge arguments and then later would reunite blissfully. One report described their relationship as “storm followed sunshine, sunshine followed storm.” We also know from Henry’s love letters that Anne refused to sleep with him for most of their pre-marital relationship, so there’s definitely a lot of truth to the fact that Anne demanded things from Henry that really no other woman ever had. “Three in the bed and the little one said” - refers to the nursery rhyme “Ten in the Bed,” which has an unknown origin. Ooh, don't be bitter, Ooh, 'cause I'm fitter Ooh, why hasn't it hit her? He doesn't want to bang you, Somebody hang you “Somebody hang you” is both modern day slang for telling someone to kind of fuck off and also refers to an incident in 1531, before Anne was queen. Anne “said to one of the Queen’s ladies that she wished all the Spaniards in the world were in the sea; and on the other replying, that, for the honor of the Queen, she should not say so, she said that she did not care anything for the Queen, and would rather see her hanged than acknowledge her as her mistress.” Here we go - (Your comment went viral) I didn't really mean it but rumours spiral (Wow Anne, way to make the country hate you) Mate, what was I meant to do? Anne really was pretty unpopular at the time. The English people really loved Catherine of Aragon; she had been their queen since 1509 and had seen the country through many tough times, including serving as regent while Henry was away at war and publicly begging for the King’s mercy for various subjects on several occasions. Records indicate that crowds shouted out encouragement to Catherine of Aragon whenever they saw her during the king’s “Great Matter.” In addition, the entire concept that a man could set aside his wife really scared women, as it was an attack on traditional family values and a threat to their own security. At the time, women depended entirely on their husbands. If their husbands could set them aside, they would be ruined and destitute. In November 1531, a mob of women (supposedly 7,000-8,000) actually went after Anne while she was dining at a house on a river; she only narrowly escaped them by crossing the river in a boat. This wasn’t the last riot of women against Anne Boleyn either; another one happened in 1532. Finally, apart from the common people’s general dislike of her, plenty of nobles hated her as well, as she had a temper and a sharp tongue and was known for being rather arrogant. She also played a large role in influencing Henry VIII and was very active in her support of or opposition to various policies. VERSE 3 Tried to elope, But the pope said nope, Our only hope was Henry He got a promotion, Caused a commotion, Set in motion the C of E The rules were so outdated, Us two wanted to get x-rated Soon, ex-communicated, Everybody chill, its totes God's will “Tried to elope but the pope said nope” - Henry started asking Pope Clement VII for a dispensation to annul his marriage to Catherine of Aragon and marry Anne Boleyn starting around 1527. They likely thought this would be pretty easy, as there was precedent for royals getting annulments and marrying again. However, Catherine of Aragon just happened to be the aunt of the Holy Roman Emperor Charles V, who sacked Rome in May 1527 and took the Pope prisoner. However, even after the Pope was released, he avoided issuing any sort of official ruling on Henry VIII’s petition. He did allow for Cardinal Wolsey (of England, and then Henry’s chief courtier) to hold an ecclesiastical court on the matter, but stipulated that another papal legate had to be there as well. This legate, Cardinal Lorenzo Campeggio, had been instructed to delay things as long as possible, as the Pope was hoping that Henry would get sick of Anne and the issue would go away. Although the court case lasted from May 31, 1529 to July, Campeggio adjourned it for a summer recess. The court never met again. Wolsey was later arrested and likely would have been convicted and executed for treason if he hadn’t died from illness beforehand. Henry eventually left Catherine of Aragon completely, riding away one day without saying goodbye and having her moved to another household. Henry and Anne married secretly in November 1532. She quickly became pregnant. The new Archbishop of Canterbury Thomas Cranmer (formerly Anne’s family chaplain) declared Henry’s marriage to Catherine of Aragon null and void in May 1533, and shortly thereafter, declared Henry and Anne’s marriage to be good and valid. “He got a promotion, Caused a commotion, Set in motion the C of E” In 1533, the English House of Commons (with encouragement from Henry) forbade all appeals to Rome and penalized those who tried to introduce papal bulls into England. This set up the modern Church of England, separate from Rome and the Pope’s influence. After this, Pope Clement VII finally acted, condemning Henry’s marriage to Anne, declaring the marriage to Catherine legal, and ordering Henry to return to Catherine in March 1534. The Pope also announced a provisional sentence of excommunication against Henry VIII and Thomas Cranmer. However,his excommunication wouldn’t be formally enacted until 1538, after Henry and his courtiers dissolved the monasteries in England, dismantled several of the shrines, and executed a ton of Catholic rebels involved in the Pilgrimage of Grace. In late 1534, Parliament declared Henry the supreme head of the Church of England. “The rules were so outdated” probably refers to Henry not being able to annul his marriage to his first wife. At this break, a section of Felix Mendelssohn’s Wedding March from A Midsummer Night’s Dream plays. This song was written in 1842 and is one of the most frequently used wedding marches. Henry's out every night on the town, Just sleeping around, like what the hell Keep in mind, before Henry got with Anne, he slept with her sister Mary enough that LOTS of people believed that Mary’s children were his. That’s gotta make you paranoid. And he already had an acknowledged illegitimate child with another noblewoman, Bessie Blount. Henry started taking mistresses during Anne’s first pregnancy (couples at the time generally abstained from sex during pregnancy to avoid hurting the child). was almost certainly sleeping with Anne’s first cousin Margaret Shelton, who served as one of her maids of honor, for around six months in 1535. Finally, starting in February 1536, reports came out that Henry was super interested in another of Anne’s maids-of-honor, Jane Seymour. We all know how that turned out. Henry reportedly gave Jane a locket with a miniature portrait of himself inside; Anne ripped it off her neck when she saw it. Henry was betrothed to Jane a day after Anne’s execution in May 1536 and married her less than two weeks after the execution. If that's how it's gonna be, Maybe I'll flirt with a guy or three, Just to make him jell /sigh/ This is a vast oversimplification of the entire situation at hand, but yes, Anne was known for being flirtatious and charming throughout her time at the English Court in the tradition of courtly love. However, she was specifically accused of adultery with one of her musicians Mark Smeaton, courtiers Sir Henry Norris, Sir Francis Weston, and Sir William Brereton, and her own brother George Boleyn. Most historians believe that these charges and the evidence to support them were made up by Thomas Cromwell, a powerful courtier, in order to bring down Anne. Anne had argued with Cromwell over the redistribution of church revenues from the dissolution of the monasteries (Anne wanted the revenues distributed to charitable and educational institutions, Cromwell wanted to give it to the king and take his own cut as well) and foreign policy (they disagreed over whether to ally with France or the Holy Roman Empire). Henry finds out and he goes mental, He screams and shouts, Like so judgmental, You dam-ned witch Mate, just shut up, I wouldn't be such a b- If you could get it up Here we go (Is that what you said?), And now he's going 'round like off with her head (No) There’s a report of one argument between Henry and Anne after the investigation against her began, but most evidence seems to indicate that Henry just left a tournament one day and never spoke to Anne again. She was arrested soon after, taken to the Tower of London, and tried and convicted of adultery, incest, and high treason. However, Henry and Anne had definitely had some serious arguments before Anne was brought down. There are numerous reports of them fighting and shouting at each other. “you damned witch” - It’s pretty common to hear that Anne Boleyn was a witch or engaged in witchcraft in some way now, but this wasn’t a real charge at the time. However, in later years, various people spread the rumor. One Catholic writer Nicholas Sander described Anne Boleyn as having six fingers on her right hand and having a projecting tooth (but he said this in 1585, so like - how would he know?). He also alleged that she miscarried a monstrously deformed child. None of Anne’s contemporaries actually mention her having an extra finger, projecting tooth, or deformed child- and considering how much they hated her, wouldn’t they have mentioned it at the time if she did? “wouldn’t be such a b- if you could get it up” - As I noted before in the post on Wives, there’s no historical evidence about Henry’s abilities in bed to support this line. However, this may refer to one of the grounds for the annulment of his marriage to Anna of Cleves later in his life, as Henry claimed he could not consummate the marriage with Anna. It also just seems to further demonstrate Anne’s known habit of saying things in anger that she regretted later.
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2023.06.04 14:08 helenalena r/NBASpurs stands in solidarity with third-party developers and will be going private on June 12-14. Please visit or join the subreddit's official discord to talk Spurs, basketball, videogames, and anything under the sun!
How did we arrive to this decision? Four of the most active moderators, (u/Discord_Show
) have collectively agreed to make the subreddit private to protest reddit's recent policy change on API calls, making it so expensive that it will kill third-party apps as a result. According to our subreddit's analytics, the majority of redditors access NBASpurs
on iOS and Android, and most of them use Apollo or Reddit Is Fun. I use Boost myself on my phone, and old.reddit.com
with RES (Reddit Enhancement Suite)
and uBlock Origin
on desktop. u/SquandasNutCheese
uses Reddit is Fun. We've tried the official reddit app and I must say, it's nothing short of rubbish. Utter trash, save for the chat feature but that has a couple bugs as well.
You've probably heard of the news somewhere else, but I've copied and pasted it for your reference below:
A recent Reddit policy change threatens to kill many beloved third-party mobile apps, making a great many quality-of-life features not seen in the official mobile app permanently inaccessible to users.
On May 31, 2023, Reddit announced they were raising the price to make calls to their API from being free to a level that will kill every third party app on Reddit, from Apollo to Reddit is Fun to Narwhal to BaconReader.
Even if you're not a mobile user and don't use any of those apps, this is a step toward killing other ways of customizing Reddit, such as Reddit Enhancement Suite or the use of the old.reddit.com desktop interface.
This isn't only a problem on the user level: many subreddit moderators depend on tools only available outside the official app to keep their communities on-topic and spam-free.
What's the plan?
On June 12th at 12:00AM EST, many subreddits will be going dark to protest this policy. Some will return after 48 hours: others will go away permanently unless the issue is adequately addressed, since many moderators aren't able to put in the work they do with the poor tools available through the official app. This isn't something any of us do lightly: we do what we do because we love Reddit, and we truly believe this change will make it impossible to keep doing what we love. The two-day blackout isn't the goal, and it isn't the end. Should things reach the 14th with no sign of Reddit choosing to fix what they've broken, we'll use the community and buzz we've built between then and now as a tool for further action.
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If you'd like to discuss the Finals with your fellow Spurs fans, head on to discord.gg/nbaspurs
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2023.06.04 14:03 baume777 An alternative interpretation of OMORI's plot
I am actually expecting a lot backlash for this since the majority of the fandom loves the twist lol
Part I: Characters
Sunny is the main characters, we spend a good portion of the game exploring his dreams, and even the real world is explored through his perspective.
Sunny tends to dissociate, even before Maris death, as is evident by the excerpt found in the lost library:
"This year, ☐ was lucky enough to get assigned to a desk next to the small window."
"Every day during class, ☐ would gaze listlessly through the opening... at the shadows of the trees, the clouds creeping overhead."
"His mind drifted elsewhere... into his own worlds, his own stories, his own adventures."
"He had a habit of doing this.It was easy for him to get lost."
"Today was the same as any other. ☐ stared vacantly out the small window as the clouds passed one by one."
"Suddenly, a hand playfully slaps his back, snapping him out of his reverie. ☐ looks away from the opening."
"☐☐☐ smiles. He motions that class is over and that it's finally time for lunch. It's pizza day today, and theyneed to bolt to the cafeteria before it's all gone."
"☐'s stomach growls. He looks at the small window one last time."
"He would have to continue his adventure another day."
The dissociative tendencies are very clear, described as his mind being elsewhere.
However, the excerpt also shows off another key-trait: Imagination.
Sunny has extraordinately vivid imagination, as displayed by the entirety of Head Space, as well as his liking of imagining himself and his friends going on adventures, even in the real world, as well as both before and Maris death.
The situation described by the Lost Library is pretty much identical with the real world event involving fighting the recycultists.
One more important, but less dicussed point, is his excellent memory. Sunny can recall the correct order of Basils photographs without failure, even after 4 years of staying inside.
And speaking of the album, he can also accurately recreate their content in Head Space, shown by the HS version containing pretty much the exact same content as the real one, just with the aesthetics adjusted to Head Space. Furthermore, the scribbled out version found in Black Space are 100% identical with the reeal ones, just blacked out with marker.
Considering this, I'd say good memory is an understatement.
I'd go as far as attributing him with Photographic Memory.
But despite this, Sunny forgot something, 4 years ago he repressed something.
And he is aware of this. Dialogue from various HS characters allude to this, and urge him to try and remember:
The truth that you've locked away... You must find it no matter what.
You have to... for the both of us.
Even if you hide something, it will always be there.
Bullet points for Sunny: Prone to dissociation; extremely vivid imagination; amazing memory; knows he forgot something and believes he can recover it
Basil is a very controversial character, receiving a lot of hate, but also a lot of love.
Basil-haters often attribute him with traits such as 'obsessive' or 'manipulative', even though none of these are accurate on closer inspection.
I'll just list of a few of his traits, which will be highly relevant for the crux of this theory, though just indirectly.
- Basil has abandonment-issues. These are repeatedly displyed by franctic pleas for someone to not leave him.
- Basils view of other characters are mostly based on idealization. It is seen through assgining flowers with highly positive meanings to his friends, while ignoring any negatives they might hold.
Furthermore, this behaviour is very prominent in his complete refusal to accept what Sunny had done.
- Basil is also deeply troubled, with latent suicidal ideation and tendencies. The by and large biggest red flag is encountered on '3 Days left', where he says this to Sunny...
It's nice to see that you're still around...even if it's only for a little while.
Here. Take my PHOTO ALBUM... I want you to have it.
...Basil acts like he is saying goodbye to Sunny, and hands off his most precious sentimental belonging...
...Despite not even knowing that Sunny is moving away.
- Basil is highly emotional. He displays extreme emotional reactions when put under pressure or faced with emotional hurt.
The previously mentioned instance of learning of Sunny moves triggers him to run to the bathroom, where he has a mental breakdown.
Judging by dialogue like...
BASIL's been going to the bathroom a lot lately. I hope it's not my food...
And when we got to his room, I tried to talk to him... but he said he had to go to the bathroom and ran off.
...this seems to be his go-to coping-mechanism to deal with stress, and doesn't even seem to be limited to interactions with Sunny.
Furthermore, at the lake-scene, Basil hysterically screams for help, despite the hooligans actively attempting to calm him down, not at all acting hostile towards him.
- Although rare, there is at least one instance of him acting extremely angry, particularily the scene before his boss-fight, and he seems to have huge trouble to contain his anger, actually having to resort to delusional behaviour to quell it.
- Basil displays severe dissociative and psychotic (hallucinations and delusions) symptoms. The dissociation in particular is shown in what appears to be fuzzy memory:
A lot has happened since these pictures were taken.Sometimes, it feels like it was all a bad dream.
It's hard to remember now, but... I think... at the time...I took photos of what I was most afraid to lose.
Additionally, certain dialogue alludes to severe psychological issues being present prior to joining the friend-group: Processing img s4afsed5ef3b1...
From the points listed above, the only one I consider to be debatable is the anger-issue. However, the other 5 traits are genuine canon. Processing img q8mx1difef3b1...
Great, so now we have established for Basil to canonically suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder.
II.a Sunnys case
Does Basil have his own White Space and Black Space?
The idea of the White Space is based on the ability of some people to completely isolate themselves when a traumatic happens. They isolate their mind and travel through the White Space to relieve their memories. From my personal experience, not everyone it able to do it. If Basil would have had his own White Space it would've been full of disturbing imagery, and, unlike Sunny's, it wouldn't be static but really dynamic with a lot of fast changes. Therefore I don't think Basil would be able to escape his own mind like Sunny does. And that's why his problems manifest in the real world. After all, something exists because of Basil’s idea that it exists in the first place.
Source: OMOCAT interview from Cydonia streaming translated in english : OMORI (reddit.com)
Pay close attention to the part that I highlighted.
OMOCAT openly states that Something exists for the simple reason that Basils believes it to exist to begin with. But if Somethings existence is based on Basils belief, then this raises the question why Sunny can see it, too.
I believe that this cutscene is the answer:
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It seems to me that Sunny only began to be haunted by his Something due to this conversation, in which Basil asks Sunny to remember Something while simultaniously already suggesting what Sunny is supposed to remember.
Essentially, Sunny sees Something because of Basils suggestion of it existing to begin with.
This sets an interesting precedent of Basil unintentionally influencing Sunnys psyche by merely asking a suggestive question.
Another thing to note that this is just a short snippet of this conversation, and that there are more black-and-white cutscenes that display different parts of this particular encounter.
Another one is this:
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This is clearly the first creation of White Space, right?
You see, there are certain special characters explaining the lore of Head Space, one of them being Daddy Longlegs.
He actually has dialogue explaining the creation of Head Space:
You have reached the end of the LOST FOREST... but the beginning of the truth.
I will tell you a story that has been lost through time... a story about the creation of this reality.
In the beginning, there only existed two... the DREAMER and his room.
The DREAMER grew weary of his room and created a door that led to many different worlds.
Walking the path as a visitor to these worlds, the DREAMER would come and go as he pleased.
Slips and falls, tumbles and drops... the DREAMER's curiosity and clumsy exploration eventually led him to a certain world.
One not like the others... one painted with chaos and bathed in darkness.
The DREAMER slowly became filled with dread. Quiet as they may have been, words of malice quietly crept into his mind. Whispering lies, secrets, and truths.
The 'DREAMER and his room...'
clearly refers to Sunnys White Space.
Meanwhile, the world 'painted with chaos and bathed in darkness'
very clearly refers to Black Space.
This means, according to Daddy Longlegs, that White Space existed way before Black Space. Furthermore, he states that only after Sunnys first encounter with Black Space did he 'slowly became filled with dread'
, which seems to imply that Sunnys most severe issues started at a later point in time than the creation of White Space.
Now, since White Space already existed prior to Black Space, this creates a problem:
As stated by OMOCAT, White Space exists to provide relief of memory - meaning that Sunny had already repressed memories at this point.
However, if we assume the cause of supression to be 'the truth' about Maris death, both Something and Black Space, and the Black Lightbulb should have already been a thing from the very beginning.
However, this is not the case. The black door as well as the lightbulb make their first appearence in this cutscene.
What this implies to me is that, just like Something, Black Space was created due to suggestions Basil made in this conversation, and subsequently the Black Lightbulb was created to supress Black Space.
In fact, Black Space can be further linked to being the product an external source: Processing img sjtem9akhg3b1...
White Egret Orchids, at least in this game, represemt the phrase: 'My thoughts will follow you into your dreams.'
Furthemore, Black Space in general is strongly linked to Basil, both due to the overwhelming presence of Stranger as well the fact that it is always Basil that will find the path to 'the truth'.
This entire dynamic is very interesting.
Appearantly, there was a period of time in which Sunny was completely free
of the influence of both Black Space,'the truth' it contains, and Something.
This might sound crazy, but this seems to imply that all three of Black Space, 'the truth' and Something can be traced back to this conversation, but not any further.
This becomes even clearer when you line up the three cut-scenes in the order they appear in the game:
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The implication here is that this conversation is what triggered Sunnys Hikkikomori-lifestyle and caused a sharp shift in Sunnys behaviour.
This may be hard to accept, but what is being implied here is that this is the starting point of Sunnys 4 years of agony.
This is extremely weird, since 'the truth' about Maris death is supposed to be the source of his suffering, yet it started only about a few months after her death.
Why did Sunny only become haunted by 'the truth' after this point?
It can't be explained by repression either since a) the Black Lightbulb is required to repress it and b) the Black Lightbulb is what caused his Hikkikomorism to begin with, yet Sunny is stated to have gone to school up until this point and was actually willing to let others reach out to him.
This is a stark contrast to his behaviour after this conversation.
answer that makes sense is the following: 'The truth' simply didn't exist
up until this point, not even in a repressed form.
This scene depicts the literal creation
of 'the truth'.
'The truth' in it's entirety is an idea that Basil put into Sunnys head.
A hanging black light bulb... the repression of an idea.
It is openly stated that the Black Lightbulb is not the repression of a memory - that is White Spaces purpose - but in fact the repression of an idea.
Additionally, there actually is dialogue hinting at the replacement and subsequent repression of memories:
BLANK Your memories are not free. To gain a memory, another must be shrouded. And yet... All memories will eventually fade.
What I propose is the following: Basil wanted to talk to Sunny about 'the truth'. Now, the problem is that Sunny had already repressed the memories of Maris true death - suicide.
So, when Basil realizes that Sunny doesn't remember... he fills him in, similar to how he recounts the events of Maris death prior to his boss fight.
This is also the reason for the photo at the treehouse: Since Basil believes that Sunny had already 'forgotten' the truth at least once before, he decides to leave him a physical reminder - a photo and the key to the toy-chest.
This is supported by the 'Don't forget... it's in the toy-chest'-message - there is no reason to write a message urging Sunny not to forget about it unless Basil has a reason to believe Sunny might forget about it to begin with.
Now, Sunnys got a huge problem - since he already had repressed his memory at this point he had no way of falsifying Basils account. And since he trusts Basil, he makes the wrong choice and believes him.
Subsequently, this triggers the creation of both Something and Black Space.
Quiet as they may have been, words of malice quietly crept into his mind. Whispering lies, secrets, and truths.
This is referring to Basils words during this conversation.
Even though Sunny tried to repress them, the only thing he achieved is pushing them to his subconscious - where they then rampaged rampaged and grew in strength over the next 4 years.
In essence, this constitutes a case of both False Memories
and Shared Delusional Disorder
And it makes sense. You remember the characterization of Sunny at the beginning of this post?
Well, check this out:
Greater creative imagination and dissociation are known to relate to false memory formation. Creative imagination may lead to vivid details of imagined events. High dissociation may be associated with habitual use of lax response criteria for source decisions due to frequent interruption of attention or consciousness. Social desirability and false memory have also been examined. Social desirability effects may depend on the level of perceived social pressure.
Individuals who feel under greater social pressure may be more likely to acquiesce. Perceived pressure from an authority figure may lower individuals' criteria for accepting a false event as true. The new individual difference factors include preexisting beliefs about memory, self-evaluation of one's own memory abilities, trauma symptoms, and attachment styles. Regarding the first of these, metamemory beliefs about the malleability of memory, the nature of trauma memory, and the recoverability of lost memory may influence willingness to accept vague impressions or fragmentary images as recovered memories and thus, might affect the likelihood of accepting false memory. For example, if someone believes that memory once encoded is permanent, and that visualization is an effective way to recover memories, the individual may endorse more liberal criteria for accepting a mental image as true memory. Also, individuals who report themselves as having better everyday memories may feel more compelled to come up with a memory when asked to do so. This may lead to more liberal criteria, making these individuals more susceptible to false memory.
There is some research that shows individual differences in false memory susceptibility are not always large (even on variables that have previously shown differences—such as creative imagination or dissociation), that there appears to be no false memory trait, and that even those who have highly superior memory are susceptible to false memories.
How convenient. This is literally Sunny. Sunny displays all of these traits. Sunny is morbidly predispositioned
to aquire False Memories, especially due to his great trust in Basil, his best friend.
Additionally, 'recovering repressed memories' is notorious for confabulating False Memories:
However, when memories are "recovered" after long periods of amnesia, particularly when extraordinary means were used to secure the recovery of memory, it is now widely (but not universally) accepted that the memories have a high likelihood of being false, i.e. "memories" of incidents that had not actually occurred.
And there actually are fairly strong hints that can be interpreted as Sunnys recovered memories being memories that were imagined at Basils suggestion:
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A basic, common yet effective technique to determine memories as either dreams or imagined events is to look for inconsistencies, either with reality or among the memories in question.
And there are several inconsistencies to be found in those photos.
The problem with this procedure though is that such inconsistencies can be dismissed as simple oversights on the developers side, meaning that this is 100% percent dependent on ones willingness to interpret them either as inconsistencies or a developers oversight.
But for the purpose of this theory I'll continue under the former assumption.
And these are the inconsistencies I found:
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Truth Photo: Only lower level has vine-pattern, no table bellow the window, hanging photos (Note: The table bellow the window is actually gone in RW present time, but in the past there was one.)
Real World: Both levels have vine-pattern, table beneath the window, photos are on a sideboard.
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Well... no. In reality, it is a sliding door:
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Left photo: Left tree has no branch, right one has one on it's right side.
Right photo: Left tree has one branch on it's right side, right one has none.
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Judging by the position of the sun in the photos, the incident is supposed to happen close to sundown.
However, this images shading implies nighttime.
Additionally, Aubrey mentions that Mari was found in the evening. And actually, the neighbours were home.
Or, at least Hero. Hero actually states that he was home in the afternoon of that day.
It is not unreasonable to say that if Hero was home, he would have somehow been alerted of what was hapenning: A crash, a scream, or simply looking out the window to see Sunny and Basil carry a dead Mari.
You know what have not been suspicious at all? Mari, walking across her own backyard towards the tree. Processing img y16y8reu2t3b1...
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Left: Mari faces away
Right: Suddenly, Mari does face towards
As you can see, there are quite a few inconsistencies that can be found in those photos.
II.b Basils Case
But up until this point, the only thing I've argued for is that Sunny memory is based on Basils account, and not that the incident in it's entire actually never happened to begin with.
Well, let us look at the following question: How realistic, or even feasably possible is 'the truth'?
The answer: Not at all.
You see... there is a standard procedure by authorities for suicide-cases.
One, the deceased has the to be officially pronounced dead - and for this, either a doctor or a paramedic is necessary.
The problem is that Mari supposedly fell down the stairs. There absolutely have to be
at least bruises. And, in fact, the notesheets that Mari carried while falling are noted to be blood-stained. There also was blood.
The paramedic would find unexplained physical trauma and blood. At this point, they would be required to notify investigative authorities and alert them to evidence of foul play.
Two, in cases of a suicide without a suicide-note, a standard-investigation is carried out, including an obducation.
This procedure is mandatory, and cannot be vetoed even by close relatives.
And even if the investigations would yield no results, this case is more likely to be considered an unsolved homicide rather than a suicide.
There's also the matter of physical feasability. Can Sunny and Basil even pull this off...?
There's 2 scenarios for this incident. Case I: Basil did it alone and Case II Sunny and Basil did it together.
Case I: Complete nonsense. Basil cannot pull this off.
He's 12 and Mari is 16 and significantly heavier. He's too weak.
The game actually comments on Basils strength, or more percisely his lack of exactly that:
BASIL ... OMORI... You're so heavy...
BASIL Come on... Up the stairs you go...
BASIL Phew... Thank goodness you're awake.
BASIL Are you hurt at all? I was trying to pull you toward this white light at the top of the staircase...
Key word being 'trying'.
This is the scene in question: Processing img vbf5agr23v3b1...
As you can see, Omori is still lying at the bottom of the stairs. This means Basil didn't even manage to drag him a single step upwards. Basil completely and utterly failed to even move another 12-yevar-old.
There is no way he can even remotely exert the force necessary to do that to Mari.
Case II: Sunny and Basil did it together.
I will concede that if they sling the rope around the branch, and then both of them at once oull at the rope, then they actually can get her to the necessary height.
The problem is the following though:
If they follow this procedure, they still have to fix the rope to the branch.
To do that, one of them has to let go of the rope, scale the tree and then tie the knot.
Now consider this: The setup essentially functions like a ⚖️:
Whatever is heavier at either end of the rope will remain on the ground.
Sunny and Basil together are heavier than Mari.
Either of them alone isn't.
As soon as either lets go of the rope, Mari will plummet, while the other 12-year-old will be lifted of the ground.
Another problem is scaling the tree. Sunny is afraid of heights, to the point that even the staircase is a serious obstacle.
Here's a visiualization of the necessary heights: Processing img fcjjnly56v3b1...
Height of the branch: ~ Maris height x 1.666
Height of the noose: ~ Maris height x 1.2
Lowballing Maris height to the average 1.60m will lead to the following results:
Height of the branch: ~ 2.65m
Height of the noose: 1.92m
You can see that 2.65m is pretty high up.
In Basils case, it is actually implied that he is a bad climber due to a fear of height as well:
It's been pretty busy with school lately, but we finally made time to get together and go to the park today. Here's KEL hanging his legs off a tree. He's such a good climber! I wish I was as fearless as him.
This already constitutes a huge problem.
The alternative option is that they first tie the rope to the branch, and only then put Maris head through the noose.
The problem is the height of the noose. They'd have to lift Maris head ~ 1.90m of the ground.
This is problematic, since Mari is dead and thus her body acts like a limp noodle. They'd have to lift her by the head to avoid her body or head slumping over, and this creates a problem of reach.
Mind you that this is a situation in which even an adult would struggle to lift a person of comparable stature to this height.
Can two 12-year-old-boys, who are in a clear state of shock pull this off?
I highly doubt that.
And if we are to assume the scrapped descriptions of the album as a basis, then the case is already clear:
It is impossible, since all problems regarding Case II apply even more glringly to Case I.
Now, that still leaves the question on why Basil genuinly believes in this False Memory.
Well, we have talked about Basil and BPD, haven't we?
Well take a look at this:
This paper presents an analysis of dream-reality confusion (DRC) in relation to the characteristics of borderline personality disorder (BPD), based on research findings and theoretical considerations. It is hypothesized that people with BPD are more likely to experience DRC compared to people in non-clinical population. Several variables related to this hypothesis were identified through a theoretical analysis of the scientific literature.
Sleep disturbances: problems with sleep are found in 15–95.5% of people with BPD, and unstable sleep and wake cycles, which occur in BPD, are linked to DRC.
Dissociation: nearly two-thirds of people with BPD experience dissociative symptoms and dissociative symptoms are correlated with a fantasy proneness; both dissociative symptoms and fantasy proneness are related to DRC .
Negative dream content: People with BPD have nightmares more often than other people; dreams that are more likely to be confused with reality tend to be more realistic and unpleasant, and are reflected in waking behavior.
Cognitive disturbances: Many BPD patients experience various cognitive disturbances, including problems with reality testing , which can foster DRC. Thin boundaries: People with thin boundaries are more prone to DRC than people with thick boundaries, and people with BPD tend to have thin boundaries .
The theoretical analysis on the basis of these findings suggests that people who suffer from BPD may be more susceptible to confusing dream content with actual waking events.
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What this suggests is that people suffering from BPD are significantly more prone to DRC, which is an inability to differentiate between dreams and reality. On top of that, DRC is trongly linked to the concept of nightmares.
And Basil, in fact is hinted to suffer from this by his own dialogue:
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A lot has happened since these pictures were taken.
Sometimes, it feels like it was all a bad dream.
Note that he specifically says 'since these pictures were taken'
- in the timeframe he describes, Maris death is included.
If it wasn't clear before what I was getting at with this, by now all the pieces should have fallen in place.
Yes, I am suggesting that the plot of OMORI is not some sort of murder-mystery, but instead a tragic tale about two boys who were completely ruined by a mental hell that exists exclussively in their heads.
Essentially, I am arguing that 'the truth' is a Red Herring, and that taking the obvious conclusion at face-value is a fallacy.
Here's a general outline for the backstory:
At the day of the recital, Mari commits suicide.
Sunny and Basil are the ones to find her. Both develop PTSD. Additionally, Basils BPD drastically worsens due to his trauma.
A few months pass. At an unspecified point during this time, Basil has a terrible nightmare influenced by his trauma, and due to BPD-related DRC mistakes it for a genuine memory.
He goes on to talk about 'the truth' to Sunny. Many reasons are possible: He just wants to comfort him, or maybe he did so in a desperate hope that Sunny would deny this memory to be true.
But Sunny has amnesia. And he is morbidly predispositioned to develop False Memories at other peoples suggestion. And since he has no way of debunking Basil recounting of that day, he accepts it as true.
Meanwhile, Basil had noticed Sunny to have 'forgotten' about 'the truth'. So, to ensure that Sunny does not do so again, he tapes the key to the back of one of his photos, and leaves the 'Don't forget'-message on it's back.
Basils influence on Sunnys vulnerable psyche has triggered the creation of Black Space (Note how the door to BS is located in a field of White Egret Orchid, which represent the phrase 'My thoughts will follow you into your dreams' Black Space is Basils suggestion following Sunny into his dreams).
In order to subdue it, he creates the Black Lightbulb, and starts to shut himself off completely.
4 years of silence follow, and in the meantime, 'the truth' rampages in Sunnys subconscious and grows in strength, as implied by both Stranger and Daddy Longlegs.
At the night of '3 Days Left', Sunny actively tries to remember 'the truth' and destroys the Black Lightbulb.
This causes the 'idea' that Basil unknowingly planted in Sunnys mind to resurface full-force.
What follows is a Sunny 'remembering' a False Memory, based on Basil account of the events. The photos are from Basils POV, in a book labeled 'Basils Memories', and are riddeled with inconsistencies and impossibilities.
Additionally, Basils claim of 'Something behind Sunny' having killed Mari is actually based on a truth: Since Something=Mari, this means 'Something killed Mari' is correct, just twisted beyond recognition.
I'd like to add that this theory also solves certain plot-issues rather nicely, and offers concrete conclusions rather than vague interpretations and shallow symbolism.
Specificall the key and photo in the treehouse, as well as the the meaning of the White Egret Orchid come to mind.
There is just one question left unanswered:
BASIL Aww, MARI... I wish I could be more like you! You always seem to have everything under control.
MARI That's not true at all! It just seems that way from the outside!
The implication here is that Mari has more going on than she lets on.
Additionally, she expresses a certain strong belief:
Everyone... I know it's tough right now, but we have to stay positive! We should all try to be like BASIL! Even when BASIL is upset, he always manages to smile.
She essentially says that one should suck it up and smile regardless.
This behaviour is dangerous.
If you actively try to cover up your problems up with toxic positivity, other people cannot offer help, and may result in those problems becoming worse and worse. This behaviour would explain why nobody saw it coming.
Mari is also a perfectionist.
Researchers have begun to investigate the role of perfectionism in various mental disorders such as depression, anxiety, eating disorders and personality disorders, as well as suicide. Each disorder is associated with varying levels of the three subscales on the Multidimensional Perfectionism Scale. For instance, socially prescribed perfectionism in young women has been associated with greater body-image dissatisfaction and avoidance of social situations that focus on weight and physical appearance.
Perfectionism is known to be a great contributor to both mental disorders and suicidal ideation.
I already have a specific disorder in mind, but more on that later.
Perfectionism is increasingly considered to be a risk factor for suicide. The tendency of perfectionists to have excessively high expectations of self and to be self-critical when their efforts do not meet the expectations they have established, combined with their tendency to present a public image of flawlessness increases their risk of suicidal ideation while decreasing the likelihood of seeking help when it is needed. Perfectionism is one of many suicide predictors that affect individuals negatively via pressure to fulfill other- or self-generated high expectations, feeling incapable of living up to them, and social disconnection.
This is pretty much the behaviour I have previously described.
In this context, it would make sense for Maris suicide to come out of nowhere due to a tendency to hide their problems and social disconnection.
Social disconnection is acually hinted at at least twice.
SUNNY giving MARI a big hug! MARI doesn't come home until late now because she's taking extra classes to prepare for college. Me and SUNNY have been hanging out a lot, but I'm sure he still misses her a lot.
According to Basil, Mari doesn't come home from school until very late. Furthermore, she appearantly barely gets to spend any time with Sunny, despite him being her brother and literally sleeping in the same room.
Subsequently, she probably gets little to no time to spend with the others either, including Hero.
This is further supported by the Black Space II area known as 'Mari is home':
Hey, OMORI... I think your sister is ignoring us. Maybe you should go talk to her.
We can't have a picnic without MARI!
MARI hasn't been home in a long time... She just needs some room to adjust.
According to Aubrey, Mari is ignoring them. This hints at increased social isolation on Maris side.
Heros wording also brings us to the next topic:
Adjustment Disorder is in essence very similar to depression, but caused by an accute psychologic stressor. The disorder usually disappears once the offending stressor is terminated and the person manages to 'adjust' to the situation. The type I am suggesting is essentially very similar to Burnout.
Adjustment Disorder poses a strong risk-factor for suicide, especially if it is in conjunction with perfectionism.
Mari was extremely stressed in the months leading up the recital:
Mine and MARI's school books. MARI has been coming home late because of cram school. She must be tired...
Maris parents are sending her to cram school, which causes Mari to come home very late.
It is reasonable to assume that the majority of her free-time, most notably the weekends, were probably consumed by practicing for the recital.
A table lamp. MARI has trouble sleeping, so she reads books before bed. I often turn off this light for her after she falls asleep.
It is openly stated that Mari has problems falling asleep. This serves to make mental exhaustion and depressive tendencies even worse.
The way I see it, Mari was under constant and extreme pressure in the time leading up to the recital. Her busy schedule impeded on her social life, and combined with a prefectionist tendency to try and keep up an image of flawlessness resulted in her problems to go unnoticed by the others.
The closer the recital came, the more the pressure on Mari increased. She wanted it to be perfect, but since only the weekends are left to practice, this severly limited her opportunities to practice.
However, Sunny hated the practicing, and he also hated Mari locking herself away on the piano for hours at a time.
This conflict caused an alienation between the two siblings.
All of those issues combined provide both a realistic and believable reason for Maris suicide as well as an explanation as to why nobody saw it coming.
All in all I'd say that this alternative interpretation of 'the truth' greatly increases Mari depth as a character based on actual in-game evidence.
That should be about everything. If you have any questions, feel free to ask in the comments.
What do you think about this theory?
While I certainly expect a lot skepticism, I think that at the very least I have proven that this is fairly substantiated, realistic, and narratively compelling alternative interpretation of OMORIs plot.
Before you ask, yes, I do headcanon this.
I particularily like the subtle hints, and howthe characters personality, relationships and backstory fall in place very conveniently.
A lot of little details on their own can be dismissed very easily, yet together they converge to a very powerful argument.
Essentially, I love that this interpretation re-defines 'the truth' as an ingenious Red Herring.
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2023.06.04 13:49 Zapstack23 I'm tired. (Introspective Vent)
The following vent is much more of a general vent about my life and thoughts than a vent about a specific bad day or topic. I'm going to be writing quite a bit, so if you don't have the time I don't recommend trying to read it, because I feel you should only read it if you can make it to the end of my vent.
I'm posting this because I just wanna have all my thoughts spilled over a public page. For no particular reason. Maybe people may see this and some may give advice, and while I'd definetly appreciate it, getting advice is not the MAIN reason I am writing this here. I just need to have this sitting here because it's just what my brain is telling me to do.
I have been wanting to write this for maybe a month now, but just never got around to to it until now.
First, a lil' introduction:
I am a guy, I am 16 years old and I was born in Romania and been living here since.
Ok, now without further ado, I will begin listing off the 5 main topics that have been frustrating me for the past few years.
1 My Ethnicity and Its Bullshit I am a gypsy. More specifically a "spoitor", one of the many subgroups of gypsies in Romania.
Now, I know what you may think when reading that, but no, I am not talking about racism.
I have never been made fun of or bullied for being a gypsy.
So it's not a racism problem. Rather, it's more about the gripes I have with my ethnicity's people myself. More specifically the dumb traditions and culture and how they affect me:
-Our traditions We have so many unnecessarily trashy aspects to our traditions, especially marital ones. So basically, in most cases at least, the groom and bride's parents choose their spouses for them, or at least heavily influence their decision. It usually goes like this: The groom's parents find a bride for their son. They pay the bride's parents money for their daughter's hand in marriage for their son. So the groom and bride end up together because the parents and maybe other relatives decided so, instead of just two people falling in love with eachother and deciding to get married. Although I see that many of the new weds among my close and distant relatives are seemingly happy with their spouses, so I'm not exactly sure about every aspect. But yeah, there's arranged marriage. Now, besides the arrangement of the marriage, I've also noticed many of the grooms and brides pairs are related to some degree, usually not to the point of first degree cousins though. Nonetheless, incest is not as frowned upon in our ethnicity as you'd hope. So there's that. Now besides the fact that many marriages are arranged, and there's a pretty high chance the espoused are somewhat related, most of these marriages occur when the weds are between the ages of 12-17. So, we also got a whole lotta teen marriage. And also, they usually have kids soon after their marriages, so teen pregnancy is also common. And besides their weird obsession with early marriage, they also put so much emphasis on virginity that there's a tradition where relatives will gather at an event where the groom and bride have to have sex for the first time while a white shirt is placed under them, and one of the old relatives (I can't remember exactly which) then takes that bloodied shirt and shows it off to the people at the event to demonstrate the bride's virginity. Oh, I forgot to mention that it's mandatory only for the bride to be a virgin at the time she marries her husband, but the groom could have as many bodies as he wants by then. Which brings me to my next point: Gender inequality. And overall overbearing gender roles you're expected to adhere to.
-Our culture It's really dumb and douchey. Who would have thought? There's a great emphasis on acting grander and richer than you are, excessive cockiness and flexing, unnecesarry conflicts, a lack of education, and overall being an ignorant, insensitive, close-minded and conservative douchebag. Most of our people are homophobic, racist and very judgemental in general. They are very loud and obnoxious towards people, and lack self awareness. They never bring facts to their arguments, instead they just bark at eachother and maybe eventually fight dirty using blades, swords or axes, and over the most stupid irrelevant shit. They also have unconventional, risky jobs. And they're also way more superstitious and guillible on average than non-gypsies. Also more likely to abuse things like alcohol/smoking, and to become beggars. Many of them have improper hygiene. And the kids want to grow up too fast. I could just go on and on. But that's not really culture, it's more of a general personality and way of living.
When it comes to things like music and fashion though, we don't fare much better. Although I do have to say things like that are subjective.
And in my subjective opinion, our music and fashion sucks ass.
The music spoitor gypsies (and gypsies in general) listen pretty much exclusively to is called "manele" (it's very popular with non-gypsy romanians in general too). It's kinda like a oriental type of music with whiny melodic vocals, and there's other variations of it in other balkanic neighbours and middle eastern countries. The drums are pretty much the same in all songs, most of the manele singers sound very similar, and just in general all manele songs sound like eachother. But yeah, I just don't personally fuck with this type of music, however it's pretty much the only music my parents and relatives listen to, so I constantly am bombarded with it. Therefore I've kinda started despising it, even though I'm expected to like it too.
Music aside, my people's sense of fashion sucks ass too. Again, in my subjective opinion.
It's basically tacky ass designs and patterns, slim fitting clothes, edgy text and things like Gucci/Versce type lions and gold prints and just a whole bunch of goofy shit. Also a lot of ugly designer clothes (usually fake). It's more about the brand than the look. But yeah, overall many ridiculous patterns, eyesore bright colors, childish matchy ass outfits and overall clothes that just scream "Give me attention!!!". And once again, I am expected to want to dress like that too. Which I don't.
And how do these things affect me? Well, I am constantly expected to like and embrace/adopt their culture and adhere to their traditions too, and frankly, that's just not who I am, and attempting to be like that just gives me identity crisises and a lack of self expression. Fuck that. Trashy ass culture. It's like you took many of society's flaws and dialed 'em up to 11.
2 My Loneliness and Lack of Connections I don't have many friends. Outside of my cousins, I'm genuinely friends with only one dude at school. And we pretty much only see eachother at school. Now don't get me wrong, he's a great guy, spending time with him is nice, we have many common interests to discuss and similar moralities. However, I would really like to connect to more people, and have a group of friends I know I could depend on to have fun and hang out with.
I mean there are 2-3 other guys that I don't go to high school with but I went to middle school with. We were friends in middle school and hung out sometimes. I'm technically still friends with them, but we haven't really been seeing eachother. Maybe only once every few months. At this point we're more like acquaintances on good terms than friends. And I just... don't feel very connected to them anymore. Like when we hang out something doesn't feel right. There was this one dude whom me and my best (and only) friend used to be a trio with. But him and my friend got into a fight once and stopped being friends. Then I was basically split between hanging out with the two separately, and eventually I kinda stopped talking to the dude. We never told eachother officially that we're not friends anymore or something, we just kinda fell out of connection with eachother, and I remained friends with my current best friend.
Yet once again, even though I do have one great friend, and a couple of nice cousins I hang out with, it just doesn't feel like enough to me for some reason.
In general, in public at least, I'm a quiet, awkward and shy person, mostly with new people, which made it pretty hard for me to make other friends. I'm introverted too, so my social battery is pretty low. Yet I don't want to be alone, I just don't know how not to be. I've missed quite a few opportunities of meeting new people and meeting older acquaintanes again, yet I was kept away from it by my social anxiety.
I spend most of my time alone, but not necessarily always because I want to.
I desperately want to have a bigger, connected group of friends to hang out with on the daily. Play fun games and record silly videos with them. Discuss personal issues and encourage eachother. Look at the stars in the night sky together and relax. But it just isn't happening, and I don't know how to get over my social anxiety and awkwardness, and it feels impossible to achieve.
I cannot hold a proper conversation with someone if I haven't known them for a while already. I'm reluctant to speak to the staff at stores or tell people on the bus that I need to get off the bus, because I keep fearing people care more than they actually do, and am afraid of judgement. I am especially awkward when it comes to talking to girls.
I feel weirdly envious seeing people hang out in large groups or having a significant other, makes me feel so left out and pathetic, like I'm missing out. I can't help but blame myself, because what else am I supposed to do?
I hate having social anxiety and a lack of social skills. It's eating away at my happiness anytime I remind myself of it.
And when it comes to my parents, well, although I'd say we're on at least ok terms with eachother, their conformation to the previously mentioned gypsy culture they try to enforce on me sours our interactions on the daily, and we just kinda have nothing in common to hang out over. And whenever I try being my true self and express my interests to them they judge me for it. So my relationship with my parents always goes from pretty alright to ohmygodimgonnafuckingleavethishouse. And through it all, I can't help but feel disconnected from them, which is so weird and kinda sad, because I felt genuine love for them when I was younger.
And when it comes to siblings, I have none.
So yeah, I'm lonely and I hate it. But actually trying to interact with new people is scary and tiring, so I hate that too. It's like an endless fucking vicious cycle of feeling depressed due to loneliness and feeling anxious due to attempting to socialize.
3 My Insecurities and Unfortunate Circumstances I have a major insecurity: I'm a short dude. 5'5 (165 cm). I know it's not something I can change, therefore not something I should waste time and energy focusing on, but I just can't help it. When I see younger people and girls my age taller than me and I feel so bitter. It's just how my brain works. I get fucking happy when I see dudes shorter than me, how fucked up is that?
Besides that, I'm a little chubby, but I've been working on it and I'm like 6 lbs (3 kg) away from reaching my ideal weight. So that's something I'll fix, but in the moment it's still kinda annoying.
That's where the physical insecurities stop. I consider myself somewhat average to even maybe handsome when it comes to my face, just depends on the day. And I don't have problems like acne or crusty skin.
But now come some inconvenient circumstances that make feel more insecure in other areas.
One of them is my parents not wanting to accept my personal style, the way I wanna dress and have my hair cut, and it makes me feel so restricted and like I can't truly be myself. Which by the way is one of the things souring our relationship. While dressing and doing my hair the way they want me to makes them pleased, it also makes me feel opressed and disingenuous.
Another is that I don't really have my own proper room. I mean yeah, there is this room I sleep in and spend most of my time in, but it's less my room, and more just the only bedroom in our house.
So basically, this is my grandpa's fault. He had quite a huge amount of money but was greedy with it, so when he got our house constructed he only built one bedroom for all three of us (me, my mom and my dad). I slept with my parents 'til pretty late because of this, as I only started sleeping alone at the age of 9, when my parents moved to sleep on an extendable couch that becomes a bed, in the living room.
But yeah, the room I sleep is just a bed and a TV, with a closet with my parent's clothes in it, while my clothes are in a closet in the living room, the room my parents sleep in. Confusing, I know. But basically it was like it was never planned for me and my parents to sleep separately, which in turn caused the design of our house to be very inefficent and badly thought out.
I just want a desk in my room, you know? Something to put my PC on. It's currently in the living room.
Speaking of my PC, this one is partially my fault, but after having a potato PC since I was 3, I finally upgraded to a new one 2 years ago. My main goal was of course to run games smoothly. But, because I did improper research and my dumb ass thought the amount of RAM was more important than the video card when it comes to games, I got an expensive PC with a good motherboard and 32 GB of RAM, but with a shitty video card since I didn't focus on it. So yeah, there I was, new PC, but games running just as badly as on the old one because I was stupid.
I mean, even if would've had a good PC now, since it sits in the living room as I mentioned earlier I would have possibly been judged by my parents for the games I played on it, even if there was nothing inherently wrong with them.
And yeah I guess having some self-expressive posters and stickers in "my room" would've been nice too, but that's also not a possibility.
But at least somehow I guess my family got the bigger end of the stick. One of my mother's sisters (my aunt ofc), with her 2 daughters and her husband still have to live with my grandparents AND another one of my aunts and her husband, while another aunt lives in a cheap dirty apartment.
So my grandparents made a lot of money, but refuse to use it, therefore my family and my other direct relatives' families have to live in these flawed ways.
But yeah, I can't wait for us to rebuild our house eventually, so I can have my own proper bedroom and so can my parents.
4 My Lack of Productivity Since I spend most of my time alone, in a room with only a bed, TV and a closet, I end up spending like 85% of my time on my phone.
Thing is, I have a few interests: drawing, animation, music, writing and photo/video editing. It's just that the combination of a lack of a proper personal space and minimal social interaction make me unable to motivate myself to actually pursue any of these interests or practice them as hobbies. I do doodle sometimes on my phone, but that's about as far as it goes. And I don't even at least consume content that would add to my culture, like watching movies/tv shows, reading books/comics or listening to albums. I just either mindlessly scroll through the same 3 social media apps or watch some meaningless video on YouTube, maybe even while snacking on junk food. Or maybe rub one out to porn after spending too much time picking the video.
Oh, have I mentioned that I'm also doing more poorly than ever when it comes to school and my academic endeavors? Oh, I didn't? Well, now I did. I'm not failing my classes, I'm just not putting in as much effort as I could, because it feels meaningless, but this is such a lazy approach.
So I do nothing good with my free time because of the frustration I have with other things in my life. At best maybe I'll hang out with my cousins.
5 My Overthinking Brain Honestly, my mind might just be my biggest enemy. Pretty much any second I don't distract myself with my phone, my mind is going all out worrying about the most stupid shit. From cringing at that one thing I did years ago, to having existential crises over wondering what comes after death. From panicking about my future job and career to being overly curious to try drugs. My brain is active all the time, yet it chooses to keep on teasing me with problems I shouldn't even worry about. While I may come off as excessively negative in this rant, I actually am a rather optimistic person a good portion of the time, I just have this inconsistent mood, swinging between depressed and hopeful out of nowhere.
It makes me sometimes wish I was just dumber. So I wouldn't have to overthink anything and lose so much time and so many opportunities.
Basically my actual life is very underwhelming and boring while inside my mind I am constantly overwhelmed by the amount of possibilities and things in this world. Sometimes I even thought about suicide, but never actually considered doing it.
At this point I don't know if I may have some mental illness, and I don't know if I'll find out because if I'd tell my parents I want to see a therapist they'd either probably laugh at me or scold me then bring me to church or some shit.
So yeah. Through all these things that make me so unsatisfied with my life, I can't help but think I'm overreacting. Most of these things are pretty insignificant (I think) but there's so many of them it adds up and makes me want to just cry. But I can't. I'm emotionally numb.
And I'm tired. So tired. Physically and mentally (especially).
Just.. Just tired.
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