The next day after work, he randomly decide to go to Dallas BBQ’s because we were both hungry. They seated us immediately, we order, we get to chatting. My main concern is if either of us know what we want, because I’d never want to hurt him. I won’t lie, I am quite the party animal. My behavior strays very far from the loyal, relationship kind of behavior, and I wasn’t willing to sacrifice that freedom just yet. After I communicated that, he understood and accepted that, and we just agreed to see where things go. This is when he revealed that he actually liked me for real, and doesn’t regret the decision we made to pursue each other. He orders me a shot then we decide to wrap up. The thing that blows my mind is that when the check comes, HE PAID. For EVERYTHING, and tipped. Needless to say, my bar is lower than hell. I hadn’t been out on a date where a man was that respectful in, well, ever. I go to the bathroom then one of our managers catch us, saying she’s been watching us the whole time. Believe it or not, she’s very supportive and happy for us, even though we had not been together for even 24 hours yet. After that, we just wandered around Times Square drunk, kissing until it was time for me to leave.
The next day was Saturday, our day off. We decided that I was gonna come over, start watching my show, then finally go all the way. I met his mother, she was very sweet to me and even hyped him up because she thought I was really pretty. Anyway, we got comfortable and we had sex. It was awkward, mainly because neither of us had gotten any action is such a long time before this. It was as if we were losing our virginities all over again. Eventually, the nerves went away and it starting getting good, very good. I wanted to be corny and played music to set the mood, and I vividly remembered Marvin’s Room by Drake playing once we started getting reallyyy into it. This was also the night he said he loved me. Oof.
Anyway, I stayed the night and never left. I basically lived with him for the rest of the month, only going home to grab more clothes and come back. I cooked for him, I cleaned for him, even making trips to the supermarket to grab stuff for breakfast and dinner. He spoiled me too of course, buying me lunch for work, taking care of me when I was on my period, helping me clean up whenever I prepared his meals, blah blah blah. It felt like we were newly weds before we were even officially boyfriend and girlfriend.
I had gotten used to being in his arms every second we weren’t at work, and started to miss him more and more. There was one problem I forgot to mention - I was moving back to my hometown at the end of the month. My last night with him comes, and he takes me to bar. We drink of course, and open up a lot more. We get home and this ends with him sobbing in my arms because he insists that he’s a terrible person, potentially a monster, and that I deserve better. For context, we are complete opposites. I’m the light to his darkness, I’m the outside to his in, I’m the joy to his sorrow. I’m reassuring him that this could work, only if he’s willing to let me love him. I move back to NYC in September, and we decided that if the distance doesn’t affect us, then we are safe to continue a relationship.
He helped me bring my bags to the bus station where I had to be heading home. We departed on great terms. However, he’s been in my head nonstop. I think of him every night, and miss falling asleep in his arms. I tried to find excuses to text him as much as I can, mainly just to hear from him and make sure he’s OK. I’ve been single for a while –almost three years. I hadn’t felt these feelings for someone in so long, and honestly, wasn’t planning on feeling them again anytime soon. This came very unexpectedly for the both of us. I go back to NYC for pride weekend, and I can’t wait to see him again. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t think of a future with him. Sometimes we would even joke about us getting married and having kids … But truthfully, it wasn’t 100% of a joke for me. Like we said, if the feelings are still there by the time I move back to NYC, we’re comfortable continuing a relationship.
TL;DR - He took me out on a few dates, then we decided to go all the way. I originally meant to just stay a weekend with him, but I stayed at his house until the end of the month, that’s how the bond grew stronger and stronger. We did everything together up until it was time for me to head to my hometown for the summer. I miss him tons, and even fantasize about a future together. We decided that if the distance doesn’t tear us apart, we are comfortable pursuing a committed relationship.
Shoot, I guess this is where this story ends.
P.S. - I’d appreciate it if anyone approached this story without judgment and more care. Please don’t bring religion into this, I understand that we have sinned a lot, lol. I am open to questions, similar stories, or even concerns. Whatever, just remember that none of you know me or my story, so you hold no place for judgment. Written with love <3

Hey M 23 had a phone date with F26 . It was good to start but then she started posturing telling me how she knows all these successful people and has a good job and is extremely well connected. Worst thing was when she asked me what I do I said I'm looking to go into finance. She said she had a friend who's boss has over 35 million dollars in finance. It's like everything she said was to either bolster her feeling of social status or degrade mine, but with a light fun tone to it. So if you're not paying attention you wouldn't really notice. Any thoughts? Why do people act like this? I've had a friend act like this and it seems to stem from deep insecurities. Point is it ruined my friendship. I'm curious what do you think of this? I'm highly considering calling it quits with her because I know where it ends. It ain't worth it. I bet she is pissed because I'm not blowing up her phone with validation and I didn't really kiss her ass when she was bragging about all that. Honestly I feel bad for people when they do this. A) they don't know how bad it looks b) they might have had a hard life and the pressure to succeed is so much they snap. C) they're narcissistic and therefore can't feel much and live with extreme insecurities. I just wanted to get to know her. Just be yourself and have a good time

I was raised in an ultra conservative, traditional southern baptist family. I was homeschooled through high school, most of my friends were from the small church we went to. I’m naturally introverted and pretty solitary, so the few chances I had with women in my teens I was so naive or terrified nothing happened. The escort today has been the third person since I’ve started talking a bit more about how I was raised to ask if it was a cult. Yeah, kinda…
I left that state and headed west a couple years ago. I’ve had a pretty cool job, rebuilt(building) a new world view, and traveled all over the country. I’ve gained a lot of life experience…except when it comes to women.
I decided to go this route more because I couldn’t come up with a good reason not to, instead of a particular reason that I should. I’m going back to school this fall and wanted to get the first time out of the way. I’m heading out on another long road trip tomorrow, and when I started thinking about this a couple weeks ago just kinda said fuck it. What a way to start the summer
I stumbled across the sexworker and related subs which got this ball rolling, I followed their advice for finding a provider and read a bunch of threads from other dudes that have gone this route. I found a preferred provider and a back up that checked all the boxes for being legit in a nearby major city (I’m in the US). Booking and screening was a breeze, and then I just had a week to wait.
Overall, it was thoroughly enjoyable. The concept of kissing kinda grossed me out, but it blew me away. Making out was the best part, like seriously way better than I’d have ever guessed. I also didn’t have much expectation for a blow job going in, but again it was great. She gave it bareback which surprised me, then I got scared I’d nut in her mouth on accident.
We fucked in a few different positions, I guess I was just too nervous and eventually went limp. Ultimately I think the act (she was good, but I’ve been saying “but really?” to myself since her first response “I’d love to meet with you”) and getting psyched up for it all week just fucked with me psychologically.
I had a lot of fun, I wondered a couple times during the booking process if I wanted to follow through or just ghost. I’ve learned at this point never to say never, but I don’t have any immediate plans to see her again or another sex worker. Ultimately the goal is to make some new friends and have a relationship, this wasn’t a life changing experience. Im sure I’ll still be nervous around new people, and have to force myself to get out there, but at a minimum it’s a monkey off my back, and maybe it’ll be motivation to get in therapy, continue to grow, etc etc.

Last month, I (29 F) had hit it off with this dude (30 M) during a work trip;and we had sex and we enjoyed it. I was looking forward to the next time. This time though, we just went straight to the bedroom. I really liked this guy and was hoping to have a good time. But then, he suddenly pulled my hand and asked me to feel his dick and blow him. I just said "no", because I don't like giving blowjobs. He tried convincing me, but somehow I didn't feel comfortable. I was hoping for some other foreplay but I didn't express it. I just thought he'd get the cue. He respected my choice and I walked out. He said he was very attracted to me, but then I was hoping that it would start with something like foreplay (kissing, hugging etc) I was looking forward to have a good time and that didn't happen and now I can't get him out of my head. I don't think I will ever be meeting him again. It's affecting my concentration and day to day activities. I keep playing different scenarios in my mind, so much that it is upsetting me. Again, this was something with no strings attached so I am not sure why it is affecting me so much. What do I need to do to get him out of my head? I don't really date that often so finding someone else is not really an option. . What help can I get? Is this some sort of a mental condition that needs professional help?
TL;DR - Had great sex during first hookup, did not go as plan ed during second and now it's affecting me.
Edit : I am so confused. I should be relieved, but instead , I am feeling terrible for the missed opportunity. Before the sexual advance, he casually mentioned that he is into hookers and he also snorted coke in front of me. I wonder if my mind is f'd up in many levels , to an extent that if I am attracted to a person the first time and then I find out bad stuff about them, I get into this denial mode and keep thinking about them 24x7. Its so bad that I need to prepare for a test and instead I keep thinking about him and checking out his FB photos

Judgment Day 2007
Date: 20/5/07
Location: Scottrade Center, St. Louis, Missouri
Two-out-of-Three Falls Match for the United States Championship:
MVP (c) vs Chris Benoit (2-0)
Women’s Championship:
Melina (c) vs Mickie James
Intercontinental Championship:
Bobby Lashley (c) vs Carlito
(Carlito hosts the Carlito Cabana and his guest is Bobby Lashley. Carlito says the way Bobby Lashley has disrespected Mr. McMahon is not cool but what will be cool is him winning the Intercontinental Championship. Lashley says Carlito just like Umaga can kiss Vince’s ass as much as he wants, it’s not going to result in him losing to a little punk like him.)
WWE World Tag Team Championship:
The Hardy Boyz (c) vs Lance Cade & Trevor Murdoch
(After the match, Shelton Benjamin and Charlie Haas attack The Hardy’s and it’s revealed they’ve reunited!)
Extreme Rules Match for the ECW Championship:
CM Punk (c) vs Elijah Burke
(Elijah Burke attacks CM Punk on ECW and says he’s not finished with him just because he pinned Marcus Cor Von at Backlash. Burke says he’s going to clean up ECW for Vince McMahon by getting the ECW Championship off him because Vince is right, Punk is a misfit who’ll never succeed in the WWE and is only the ECW champion through pure luck. Punk says not only is ECW the land of extreme but it’s also the land of misfits and it makes him and the ECW Championship the perfect marriage. Punk promises to not lose his title to a shameless ass kisser like Elijah Burke.)
World Heavyweight Championship:
Edge (c) vs Mark Henry vs Batista
(After winning the World Heavyweight Championship, Edge says once again he’s proved he’s not only the best wrestler in the company but he’s also the smartest as he watched The Undertaker take the ultimate beating before cashing in his Money in the Bank briefcase. Batista interrupts and tells Edge that he might think he’s smart but the reality is, he’s nothing but a coward who stole the World Heavyweight Championship and it won’t be long till he takes back what’s his. Mark Henry says not only is he back and took out The Undertaker, he’s going to destroy Batista again like he has before and will have no issue taking out Edge too because he has the one thing he really wants an opportunity at, the World Heavyweight Championship. Edge says both men have nothing to do with him and can stay away from his World Heavyweight Championship. However, Teddy Long disagrees and tells Edge that Batista and Mark Henry both have a case so Edge will defend his title against both men at Judgment Day. Edge is furious, already feels like Teddy Long has an agenda against him and demands to be traded back to Raw but Long denies Edge his request. During the match, Batista and Henry are so focused on beating the hell out of each other that it costs them as Edge hits a Spear out of nowhere on Batista and pins him to retain his championship.)
60 Minute Iron Man Match for the WWE Championship:
John Cena (c) vs Shawn Michaels (6-5)
(Shawn Michaels says he had John Cena beat at Backlash and if he wasn’t lucky, he’d be the WWE Champion. Michaels then challenges Cena to defend the WWE Championship against him one more time at Judgment Day. Cena accepts the challenge because he’s a fighting champion. Michaels says he doesn’t want this to be an ordinary match and tells Cena he wants it to a match he won his first WWE Championship at WrestleMania 12, an Iron Man Match! Cena says that’s fine because Shawn Michaels is about to find out he isn’t the only iron man in the WWE. Cena also proposes for it to be for a full hour which Michaels accepts. This is essentially the match they had on Raw in London in real life but with a different outcome. John Cena wins 6-5 to retain the WWE Championship in all time classic. After the match as Shawn Michaels gets up and receives a standing ovation from the fans, Randy Orton from out of nowhere hits him with an RKO, beats the hell out of The Showstopper in front of his wife to the point he bleeds and punts him in the skull. This writes Michaels off TV.)
Notes:
(The WWE Draft takes place on the May 28th 2007 episode of Raw. The same picks as in real life occur apart from the fact Bobby Lashley doesn’t need to be drafted to Raw because he’s already a Raw superstar 😅.)
One Night Stand 2007
Date: 3/6/07
Location: Jackson Veterans Memorial Arena, Jacksonville, Florida
Tables, Ladders & Chairs Match for the WWE World Tag Team Championship:
The Hardy Boyz (c) vs The World’s Greatest Tag Team
Women’s Championship:
Mickie James (c) vs Candice Michelle
Intercontinental Championship:
Bobby Lashley (c) vs Carlito vs Umaga w/Armando Estrada
(Umaga wins the championship after pinning Carlito thanks to Shane McMahon attacking Bobby Lashley who was on verge of retaining his title.)
Street Fight:
Kane vs Mark Henry
(Kane goes after Mark Henry and promises there will be vengeance after what he did to his brother The Undertaker. Henry says Kane doesn’t intimidate him just like The Undertaker doesn’t and he’s just another man on his path of destruction.)
Stretcher Match:
Rob Van Dam vs Randy Orton
(This is Van Dam’s last match in the company for a while as he leaves for TNA.)
Extreme Rules Match for the ECW Championship:
CM Punk (c) vs Chris Benoit
(Vince McMahon says he’s confident for sure that CM Punk’s days as ECW champion are rightfully numbered because he’ll be defending his title against the new draft pick… Chris Benoit! Benoit says Punk’s a talented wrestler but he’s no Chris Benoit, the greatest technical wrestler on the planet. Punk says he has a huge level of respect for what Benoit’s accomplished in his wrestling career but he sees this as a massive opportunity to prove doubters like Vince McMahon wrong and he’ll ensure he does in what’s no doubt his biggest challenge since winning the ECW Championship. CM Punk wins clean to retain.)
Steel Cage Match for the World Heavyweight Championship:
Edge (c) vs Batista
(Batista says that weasel Edge being the World Champion makes him sick and promises he’ll destroy him and take back the title. Edge says Batista doesn’t deserve another chance at the World Championship but Theodore Long disagrees and says Batista’s two one on one rematches for the title never had a definitive finish so he announces Edge will face Batista at One Night Stand and the match will be… a Steel Cage Match! Edge tries to convince Long to change the stipulation but Long isn’t having it and tells him he’s giving the fans what they want. Edge sneaks a chain into the match, smashes Batista over the head with it and escapes the cage to retain the World Heavyweight Championship.)
Falls Count Anywhere Match for the WWE Championship:
John Cena (c) vs Booker T w/Sharmell
(After being drafted to Raw, Booker T immediately sets his sights on becoming the WWE Champion. Booker T says Raw is a far fairer run place with Jonathan Coachman in charge compared to SmackDown with Teddy Long. Booker T basically kissing the ass of Coachman is why he grants him the opportunity and Coachman also announces it’ll be a Falls Count Anywhere Match. Cena says he’ll punch Booker T’s teeth down his throat while still proving he’s the top dog in the company while Booker T promises to win the 1 title that’s eluded him in his legendary career.)
Note:
(Sadly, the Chris Benoit tragedy happens between the 22nd-24th of June 2007.)
My opinion on Chris Benoit:
(So, now we’re finally here in the timeline 😬. First of all I just want to say to those who may ask “why have you pushed a murderer?” In the timeline, I’m booking as if I’m in all these years. As a booker, how would I know in 2004 for example what’s going to unfold in 2007? That’s why Benoit is pushed. I’m not going to utterly bury him while he’s alive in the timeline. Now what I’m going to do here is bury him now the tragic events have unfolded. Chris Benoit in my opinion is one of the greatest technical wrestlers of all time, I will never dispute that. I was a huge fan of his and when he won the World Heavyweight Championship at WrestleMania 20, it was an unbelievable moment and the fact he celebrated with Eddie Guerrero topped it all off. However, what he did was unforgivable and anyone who has any conspiracy theories like he was framed, I’m sorry it’s just not true and the police investigated it properly. The facts are, Chris Benoit did murder his wife Nancy and his son Daniel. I don’t care about CTE or the fact he apparently had a year to live with an enlarged heart. As Paul Heyman said an interview once, f*ck him. The facts are that Chris Benoit murdered his wife, murdered his son and then proceeded to kill himself. The WWE will absolutely never put him in the Hall of Fame and that’s the correct decision because Benoit lost that respect when he did what he did. I personally hope he rots and this is the last he’ll ever be mentioned in this timeline. I want to lastly say to finish this off, my heart goes out to those affected by this tragedy back in 2007 and Rest in Peace to Nancy and Daniel Benoit ❤️.)
Vengeance: Night of Champions 2007
Date: 24/6/07
Location: Toyota Center, Houston, Texas
United States Championship:
MVP (c) vs Ric Flair
Cruiserweight Championship:
Chavo Guerrero (c) vs Jamie Noble
WWE World Tag Team Championship:
The World’s Greatest Tag Team (c) vs The Hardy Boyz
Women’s Championship:
Candice Michelle (c) vs Mickie James
Intercontinental Championship:
Umaga (c) vs Santino Marella
Extreme Rules Match for the ECW Championship:
CM Punk (c) vs Johnny Nitro
(Johnny Nitro surprisingly replaces The Invisible Man and challenges CM Punk for the ECW Championship when he wasn’t prepared for him. Nitro cheats to win the championship off of Punk, much to the satisfaction of Mr. McMahon.)
WWE Tag Team Championship:
Deuce ‘n Domino (c) w/Cherry vs Jimmy Wang Yang & Shannon Moore
Last Chance Match for the World Heavyweight Championship - If Edge is counted out of disqualified, he’ll lose the World Heavyweight Championship:
Edge (c) vs Batista
(After One Night Stand, Batista asks Teddy Long for one more opportunity after Edge’s cowardly acts at One Night Stand. Edge tells Teddy to give Batista the match on one condition, if Batista loses he can never challenge for the title as long as he’s champion. Teddy Long grants Edge his request but also tells him if he gets counted out or disqualified, he’ll lose the World Heavyweight Championship to Batista. During the match, there’s a referee bump and Batista is getting ready to finish this until The Great Khali appears and lays out The Animal! Edge capitalises when the referee regains consciousness and pins Batista to retain the World Heavyweight Championship.)
Six-Pack Challenge Match for the WWE Championship:
John Cena (c) vs Carlito vs Mr.Kennedy vs Randy Orton vs Booker T w/Sharmell vs Bobby Lashley
(All 5 men make a case to be the #1 Contender for the WWE Championship. John Cena says he’ll welcome all comers to prove he’s the man. Jonathan Coachman tells Cena to be careful what he wishes for because at Night of Champions, he’ll be defending the WWE Title against all of them! John Cena retains the WWE Championship after pinning Carlito. After the match, Bobby Lashley stares down Cena as Night of Champions draws to a close.)
Notes:
(Edge tears his pectoral muscle, is put on the shelf for a while and is forced to surrender the World Heavyweight Championship.)
(Mark Henry wins a Battle Royal on the July 20th, 2007 episode of SmackDown to win the World Heavyweight Championship!)
The Great American Bash 2007
Date: 22/7/07
Location: HP Pavilion San Jose, California
WWE Tag Team Championship:
Deuce ‘n Domino (c) vs Matt Hardy & MVP
(Matt Hardy hates MVP and wants his United States Championship but they get paired as partners and are told to co-exist by Mr. McMahon who also rewards them with a Tag Team Championship match at The Great American Bash. Hardy and MVP win the titles.)
Cruiserweight Championship:
Chavo Guerrero (c) vs Super Crazy
Intercontinental Championship:
Umaga (c) vs Jeff Hardy
Batista vs The Great Khali w/Ranjin Singh
Women’s Championship:
Candice Michelle (c) vs Melina
Extreme Rules Match for the ECW Championship:
John Morrison (c) vs CM Punk
(CM Punk invokes his rematch clause for the ECW Championship. Vince McMahon tries to deny Punk the opportunity to win the title back but CM Punk tells him if he even dares to deny him his rematch then he’ll sue him because it’s a contractual obligation meaning McMahon has no choice but to let Punk compete for the ECW Championship. The newly named John Morrison who’s leaving Johnny Nitro behind tells Vince to not worry, he’ll take care of business for him which Vince gives him the vote of confidence. Punk says this time he’s ready for Morrison unlike at Night of Champions and will become a 2 time ECW Champion. Morrison says even prepared, he’s just too good for Punk. John Morrison cheats to retain the title after hitting Punk with brass knuckles when the referee isn’t looking.)
World Heavyweight Championship:
Mark Henry (c) vs Kane
(Teddy Long announces that Mark Henry will defend his title against Kane at The Great American Bash because Kane had earned an opportunity to fight for the World Championship when Edge was champion. Kane says that he’s got unfinished business with Henry and revenge will be sweeter when he wins the World Heavyweight Championship. Henry says Kane will once again feel his wrath just like his brother The Undertaker and Batista have.)
WWE Championship:
John Cena (c) vs Bobby Lashley
(Bobby Lashley wins a Fatal 4-Way match against Booker T, Randy Orton and Mr.Kennedy in order to face John Cena at The Great American Bash. Lashley tells Cena that he respects his dedication and desire but when push comes to shove, he has no hesitation breaking him in half if it means he wins the WWE Championship. Cena says Lashley is an incredible athlete who’s unbelievably gifted but he’s going to show the whole world that Lashley’s time isn’t now the way a lot of people think it is. John Cena retains after delivering an FU from the top rope and both men shake hands after the match. When Cena’s alone in the ring, Randy Orton from out of nowhere delivers an RKO to Cena and holds up the WWE Championship as the show draws to a close.)
Note:
(Bobby Lashley gets injured not long after this event and leaves the company in early 2008.)
SummerSlam 2007
Date: 26/8/07
Location: Continental Airlines Arena, East Rutherford, New Jersey
Ladder Match for the ECW Championship:
John Morrison (c) vs CM Punk
(CM Punk demands one more match for the ECW Championship against John Morrison which Morrison insists to Vince McMahon to allow his request. Morrison gives Vince an idea for what type of match it’ll be. Vince likes the idea and announces CM Punk will faces John Morrison in… A Ladder Match! John Morrison says he’s the prince of parkour and CM Punk's ambition of being the ECW Champion again will be crushed by him for good. Punk promises to become and 2 time ECW champion while also ensuring Morrison has no teeth after the match. CM Punk wins to become a 2 time ECW Champion.)
WWE World Tag Team Championship:
World’s Greatest Tag Team (c) vs Paul London & Brian Kendrick
Cruiserweight Championship:
Chavo Guerrero (c) vs Rey Mysterio
(Teddy Long tells Chavo Guerrero he’ll defend his Cruiserweight Championship at SummerSlam against… Rey Mysterio! Chavo says he’s been waiting for Rey’s return and at the event he cost him the World Heavyweight Championship the year before, he’s going to make sure he puts Rey back on the shelf again but this time for good. Rey Mysterio wins the title and retires the Cruiserweight Championship on the SmackDown after SummerSlam.)
Intercontinental Championship:
Umaga (c) vs Jeff Hardy
Women’s Championship:
Candice Michelle (c) vs Melina vs Mickie James vs Beth Phoenix
Triple H vs Booker T w/Sharmell
(Vignettes start to show that Triple H is returning to the WWE after another Quad injury. Booker T being aware of this challenges Triple H to a match at SummerSlam. Booker T’s motives are simple, Triple H once made his life a living hell and he wants to get revenge he never truly got. Booker T promises to put Triple H back on the shelf and embarrass him on his return. Triple H wins in a 10 minute match and Booker T leaves the company after this match.)
World Heavyweight Championship:
Mark Henry (c) vs Batista
(A one on one match that’s a long time in the making. Batista wins a #1 Contender’s Match against Kane and says this is a match he’s wanted for a while because he’s never fully gotten revenge on Mark Henry for putting him out of action which forced him to surrender the World Heavyweight Championship. Henry says he’s also been waiting for full revenge after Batista also cost him a year of his career when he came back and assaulted him. Both men brawl whenever they see each other in the build up. During the match when Henry’s on top… GONG! The lights come back on but Taker doesn’t appear. Henry then receives a Spinebuster from Batista and The Animal pins him to win the World Heavyweight Championship!)
WWE Championship:
John Cena (c) vs Randy Orton
(First time ever in a one on one capacity. Randy Orton says while Cena has been on top for the last few years, he’s always avoided facing him one on one and tells him the reason he does is because he knows The Legend Killer is better than him! Cena tells Orton to stop talking out of his ass and if he wants to fight him, he’s ready for the challenge and just like the others, Randy Orton will be on his list of guys he beat. Randy Orton cheats when the referee isn’t looking by hitting Cena with a low blow. Orton then delivers an RKO and pins John Cena to win the WWE Championship!)
Notes:
(Batista beats Mark Henry in a Street Fight on SmackDown to retain the World Heavyweight Championship in Henry’s rematch clause. The Undertaker’s Gong once again provides a distraction to Henry and there’s also a message on the titantron that reads “The dead will rise, September 16th 2007… RIP Mark Henry!”)
And that’s part 45! I hope you guys enjoyed this part. I’d like to add that I hope you don’t mind my passionate opinion on the man who shall not be named from now on. Anyways, enough of me dwelling about that! I’ll be back very soon to cover the rest of 2007 where we’ll see a few stars return, The Age of Orton begin on Raw and John Cena go down with an injury. Stay safe and stay tuned!

Firstly I don't create mods I just use em. But considering the BepInEx needed to be reworked since Gloomrot I'm super excited to see what new mods will be made or how many of the old ones will be updated. I really loved the Modern Camera Mod. I know there is an experimental out but the ceilings are transparent with no toggle (like the old Modern Camera had). Although I never used it I love the idea to be able to remove the hud as well (in the HideUIMod)! These two would make for some great screenshots or video content. If I had a request for a mod it would be able to
1) Free Cam - Press a button/hotkey that allows a free camera mode where you can fly around but keep your character in the same place. It'd make for great videos/screenshots
2) Slow motion/freeze time - again, for video/screenshot purposes
3) Servant stations - A small placeable, the size of a base portal, that you can assign a servant to. This way when that servant is in ur base, they will be assigned to that spot rather than walk around the base. Whilst I like some servants walking around, again for screenshot/video purposes, id love a way to keep the servant in one spot.
4) Servant station emotes - control what animation your servant makes whilst at their station. Salute, stand at attention, dance, wave, blow kisses, etc
I know these are ridiculous ideas but that's the point. What mod idea do you have? What mod would you LOVE to see in V Rising, if there were no boundaries and it could be done?

I (24f) bf(26) have been dating for a year, things have been really good between us, I’ve just started a new job I love, and life is alright I’ve also been going to therapy to try to become a healthier partner (I tend to avoid conflict and want to work on my communication skills and self esteem) my boyfriend is extremely social and has a lot of friends, some of which are female. I ended up cutting off all of my male friends because I started to feel like I questioned why they were friends with me and didn’t like the idea they could be waiting for some shot. My boyfriend and I talked about this and he says it makes sense as most men are like that. I had a bit of a problem with that idea because It made me wondered what would make him the exception, but moved along. Later on I met one of his female friends who seemed okay but made a slightly inappropriate joke, but it seemed like it was just a poor attempt at a joke that didn’t land. I didn’t hear it at first until my boyfriend brought it up later and said it would make him uncomfortable if he didn’t bring it up with me, and then a few days later he gave that female friend a ride to help her out. That’s all to quickly give some context leading up to my larger problem that is making me feel horrible. We were talking about past flings a while ago (dumb I know) and I asked if he had any regretful one night stands, he said that he had a few but that he definitely regretted getting drunk with his one close friend that’s a girl and letting her give him a blow job . That was a big shock because he had told me previously that they had only ever kissed before realizing they weren’t more than friends. I don’t know why I didn’t say anything I just felt myself go numb. He said that the incident really negatively affected their relationship for a while before they worked it out and they are still friends and still talk. I feel horrible and am over thinking and spiraling about everything. He’s the one person I’ve had real deep love with and could really see myself with but this incident feels like it blindsided me. I’m not sure if I’m making it a bigger deal than it is so I wanted to see if I could get some perspective. What would you do?

TLDR: How can I be significantly more forward & add some dominant spice with a girl who seems kind of bored?
I’m sweet & attentive but I can be kinky & rough.
My problem is I’m very timid. I love this girl and want her to feel safe.
The problem is, that seems to be killing our sex life. It’s been on a steady decline for years and now I’m seeking advice.
A long time ago, she was performing oral sex on me and I didn’t cum. I told her afterward that I’ve never cum from oral but she took it as a tremendous blow to her confidence. ‘That’s never happened to me before.’ She said.
So I’ve tried to get her to open up and communicate but she’s very closed off and protected. I tried implementing a code word to let each other know when we want sex (she’s never used it.) And just recently started saying a number 1-10 with the code word like ‘1 is I want sweet, kisses, gentle and tender. 10 is I want kinky rough borderline not okay-safe word needed.’
Yesterday I forced the conversation and had a breakthrough.
She hates foreplay, she says. “And ‘the thought of a 1 is repulsive to me. I don’t want to ‘make love’ Ew. I will probably never be under a 5, in fact.”
Which tells me I need to step up my aggressiveness in bed. She responds well to hair pulling, fingers in mouth, hands around throat, etc.
What other things can I try to spice things up again, now that I know what I know? How do I push my own comfort level?

I'm in a complicated situation as I'm still married and have also fallen for a friend who, with my husband's full knowledge, I've been seeing since late last year. We've always struggled with intimacy as she would get nauseous every time we would get hot and heavy.
(TLDR; My lesbian gf can't have sex with me because her feelings are too strong and I'm unavailable. I tried to be poly with someone who is not poly, and I'm probably not poly either. I thought I needed sex to know for sure if I'm gay. My gf doesn't want to be an experiment. We love each other probably can't be together until I figure myself out.)
Edited to take more responsibility for the situation per comment.
We never had sex, we couldn't get past 2nd base without her feeling sick or actually vomiting. I have known her for 7 years, and I care about her deeply. I'm super attracted to her and horny as hell for her. I was never pressuring her and she said it wasn't a big deal. We were both failing to honestly articulate our needs. She said she was going to work with her therapist to understand and work through this issue. But without ever mentioning any concerns or expressing any of her needs, she ended our relationship.
It broke me like I didn't know was possible. I cried every day for a month. We had some communication. She was distraught too. I felt like I was more of a lesbian than bisexual, and that I wanted to figure myself out before blowing up my family.
So I got on some dating apps, started reconnecting with my queer friends, and I told her that I was feeling like I'm a lesbian and not bi. She was super supportive, has been out for a long time (and without the nausea stopping her with other women).
We met up for coffee and talked. I said I was going to try dating. She didn't like hearing about it. We talked more and sat on a bench, started getting close, and she said that she loved me. We kissed, I didn't know what to do about it. We were back to talking and texting, and had plans to get dinner and talk about us.
Then she cancelled last minute and I was crushed again. I've never cried so much over anyone! I was giving up hope, moving on again, when she asked me to go for a walk and talk. She wants to do a reset, do better with communication, try again. I was surprised, but it was what I wanted. She is my first WLW relationship, and there's an intensity there that continues to pull me in.
So we're taking things slow and trying to do better. I was doing more check ins about her needs. Physically, she wasn't getting nauseous! She thought it was because she didn't want to be a homewrecker, and before this reset, her body would put an end to intimacy. But after hearing that I might be a lesbian, it made it easier to see that she was never a homewrecker -- I'm the only one who can do that. So we were able to be more intimate without any nausea.
But she is still holding back because she says her feelings are so intense (and I'm still married!). So we've had 3 recent opportunities for overnights - which is rare when you have a husband & child. Each time, she has said she's not ready for us to stay overnight together (even with no expectation of sex)- even though we've done it before. Including last night. I left her place in tears.
I would like to have sex with her. More importantly, I want to wake up with her. I want to know what it's like to be intimate with a woman I love. Feels like it's not going to happen.
From her perspective, it's crazy to get involved with someone who is married and has a child. She is protecting herself. But why did she want to try again?
I care about her too much for her to be some experiment.
If you've made it this far, thanks. I'm just so sad. Probably just knowing that I should be on my own before anything happens with her and I hurt her anymore.

I'm just going to use this as a diary pretty much more for myself since I feel like typing it will be eaiser.
I can't help but feel like all the things in my life; coincidences and all the random encounters with the people I met, could have gone better. Like maybe if I didn't meet a friend in one of science class then maybe I wouldn't have met the girl I loved for years or maybe if I took care of myself just a tiny bit better I wouldn't have lost so many friends.
I think about how I spent my days of highschool kind of just meshing and floating around friends and partners trying to find myself and see where I fit in. For years we had the same lockers and I had some the same friends for years. Since my freshman year was hard on me and I had to be hospitalized for depression a few times I didn't see anyone and had no friends. I emt a girl from the other kids I met Sophomore year I was there as much as possible and met friends I was a skater kid then a social smoker then I became a heavy smoker and then just stopped in senior year. I had met amazing people, people I'll always love and know they loved me but now we don't talk because it's been years and we drifted apart or we just grew up. I met and dated the girl I loved for years afterwards because she became my friend after walking past her every single day of school never speaking barely noticing one another and yet by pure coincidence I befriended her friend and their friends and her.
The things that make me feel existential are small memories of nothing moments in my life. There was the time we were just driving around on a Friday night without nothing to do besides talking and listening to music, but when we stopped in the middle of a random neighborhood and sat there listening to sad songs as we looked at the stars and talked about how we felt it makes it way into my head every time I see the stars. I think how the shitty toxic relationship pushed me closer to friend group and how my shitty abusive home life pushed me further and further out the door to run around drinks and smoke to find some way to escape where I was at.
I think about how after that relationship ended I fell in love with my best friend because she was always there for me and we had no romantic feelings for one another until one day we were in my room rough housing cause one of us took a phone or book out of the others hand, I tried to kiss her and missed her lips just barely getting the corner of her mouth. She told me to try again cause that wasn't a real kiss after she laughed at me apologizing about how I shouldn't have kissed her. If she hadn't done that would we have dated for years? Would I have been to Christmas as her families house? Would her younger cousin give me a french braid in front of the fire place? If my last relationship wasn't toxic would I have went through her phone and seen other guys tell her they loved her. If that didn't happen would she cheat on me or would I have such severe trust issues? If I took care of my mental health would we still be together, if I took care of myself would I have ended it because I wanted to end it myself more than I cared for her? Why were our birthdays a week apart? What caused her to date one of our friends for a month after we finally ended it once and for all? How long did it take for them to date? When we kissed the first time why did it take so long for us to finally get together if we cuddled and kissed and held hands everyday? What if we did end up moving in together what then??
Why is it so hard for me to forget about all these small moments with her? Why did all of our friends leave me too? Why did she show up to my best friends wedding? What would have happened didn't I go with someone else? Why did she seem so happy to see me? Did she miss me too? Why did I blow her off? Do I miss the small moments or do I miss her? What was the point of seeing her everyday for six years if it was going to be like this? If I hadn't met that kid in science class would it be different? If I learned how to communicate earlier instead of years after would it have worked out? What if I was honest and said I needed help instead of hurting everyone around me? I don't know what could have happened but where I'm at now I want to am I doing the best I can with what I got or is there another version of me doing better with where I'm at?
I'm not sad or anything I saw some show that made me think of what could have happened. I just feel as if this isn't the best outcome I want to hope that it's at least it's one of the most positive ones I could have hoped for. I know it sounds like I'm romanticizing the past and maybe I am a bit but I know that right now I'm happier than I was when everything ended. It just bothers me that I met so many people and ended up alone. Then again I know it was wronf for me to be upset after I gave up on everyone else first. Maybe what I'm really upset about is that it ended so horribly because they didn't see how bad I was doing and my cries of help went unheard.
Tldr; What if it was just a little bit different would my life be better off or would I have been fucked anyways?

Note: This is part 2 to Shiloh's Final Battle
Gomez and Tish pulled into their driveway and heard barking. They'd gotten a German Shepherd pup when Guillermo Del Toro's "The Strain" was on T.V. As a joke, but also because they loved the character? They named him Thomas Eichhorst after the Nazi vampire who was one of Guillermo Del Toro's most powerful villains ever created. No one put much thought into the name choice considering they loved all things horror. "What the hell has Eichhorst going off? He knows it's us!" Gomez couldn't understand why he'd bark at the 2 people he NEVER barks at. "I can honestly say I'm not even surprised after this day." Tish exhaled and proceeded to get out of the car. Eichhorst continued the call of his people. "IKE! EICHHORST! KNOCK IT THE HELL OFF!" Gomez yelled so Eichhorst could hear because he was behind the chain link fence in the backyard. He acted like he didn't hear a word. As they got closer to the house? They noticed Eichhorst was not barking at them. He was barking at the woods BEHIND them. "He sees something we don't." Tish matter-of-factly stated. She & Gomez simultaneously turned to look into the woods. Nothing. No noise. Nothing was there. Eichhorst stopped barking as soon as they turned towards the woods. Everything stopped. "What the hell is going on, Cara Mia?" Gomez was starting to experience what Tish had all day long. "I don't know, Mon Cher. I just know I don't like it." Tish continued glancing into the trees. "Probably time to sit back and relax. You've had a bad day that ended a rough week. It's time to just chill." As if knowing what Gomez had just said? His city issued phone started ringing. "NO. ABSOLUTELY not! I'm off tonight! What is so critical that Gomer & Goober can't handle it?" Gomez could feel his blood pressure start to rise. "Find out what it is 1st, Craig, before you go into a meltdown." Tish always called him Craig when she was irritated. "Hello?!" Gomez did a poor job hiding his inconvenience. "Man, it's Ol Shiloh! You gotta get over here, Gomez. It's bad! It's so bad!" Bubba was inconsolable. He was on the verge of tears. "Whoa, slow down, Bubba. What happened?" Gomez tried bringing levity. "We came by to check on him when we were on patrol. He was in the doorway, he was..." Bubba finally started crying. He hated it. The last thing he wanted to do was cry in front of his co-workers. He just simply could not process what the hell they'd rolled up on. "Wait? Ol Shiloh is hurt?" Gomez was trying to process what Bubba was saying. Tish's brow furrowed. She didn't like what she was hearing. "I mean, if you consider hurt dead with his fuckin' throat ripped out to his spinal cord? Then? Yeah, he's hurt." Bubba's anger at his own insecurities was boiling over onto Gomez. "Look, Bubba. Clearly you guys have been going through something over there. I'm headed that way. For future reference? Don't take your shit out on me. I didn't do anything to you." Gomez scolded. "Sorry, Gomez. It's just so..." and Bubba broke down further. Gomez hopped back into the car. "What's going on? Who was that? Don? Bubba?" Tish was concerned. "Hop in the passenger's side if you want to find out. I have to go." Gomez started the engine. Tish walked around and got in.
They pulled into Shiloh's driveway behind the Eerie, Indiana patrol car. Bubba came running out to greet them. "Don is in there with him. The paramedics just got here a few minutes ago." Bubba proceeded to catch Gomez up. He and Tish had been so busy looking at Bubba and the patrol car they didn't notice the bus parked to the side of the house ready to pick up Ol Shiloh.
Tish & Gomez entered the threshold where Ol Shiloh laid on his back, staring at the ceiling. His throat. Jesus, his throat. It was gone. They both were rocking back on their heels.
"We thought it was a big cat attack. It's not. Those bite marks on his throat? That's human not feline." Kennedy was an intelligent little bastard. Arrogant, condescending and holier-than-thou, but very intelligent. Not only would he inform all of the insubordinates around him about everything they didn't know? He'd do it with one hell of a cocky attitude. Ah, Kennedy, and his unsolicited lessons. Time to sit up and listen in class. ..
"When he opened the door? We thought it was an animal attack. Instead? He must've been attacked by humans. The bite marks definitely indicate human but the vicious nature of how deep the wounds went indicate something much more powerful. This was to his spinal cord." Kennedy didn't look like he knew-it-all. He looked perplexed.
"But how could a human bite that deep?" Gomez asked.
"I don't know. I honestly don't know." Kennedy was lost for the 1st time since becoming a paramedic 7 years ago. He'd never seen trauma of this caliber. He hadn't even seen this level of brutality and he'd rolled up on gang fights.
Don and Bubba were both on the front porch, looking in, mouths agape. Gomer & Goober indeed.
Kennedy loaded up Ol Shiloh's body with the assistance of a new EMT that Gomez was fairly certain Kennedy was banging. I mean, he was a total Chad so why wouldn't he?
Don put the camera away in the trunk of the patrol car. At least he had the presence of mind to get the pictures taken before emergency services hit the scene. This was going to rock Eerie, Indiana's foundation. Murder hadn't happened here in anyone's lifetime so this was a "big city" problem they weren't use to dealing with. Nosey people, scared kids, idiot media, this was not what Eerie needed right now. It certainly wasn't what he needed. He had enough of Allie putting out for anyone that would buy her a 6 pack or some cigarettes. Had he known he could've gotten off so cheaply? He sure as hell wouldn't have married her. Unfortunately, for his dumb ass? He actually fell in love with her. Why? He didn't know. Self esteem was never his strong suit. So? After dating 6 months, her only cheating 3 times, then getting pregnant with his baby? He made the perilous decision to try to make an honest woman out of her. Don sincerely doubted if Allie had ever been honest about anything in her life. Coincidentally? When they came back from their Honeymoon 2 weeks later? She'd miscarried. Well, she claimed she miscarried. Don never saw a pregnancy test nor would he have been 💯% sure the baby was his. He would've actually suspected the baby was not. Looking at all of it now, how did he not see it sooner?
"Get to those pics, ASAP Rocky, Don!" Gomez instructed. "Please, don't be an embarrassing Gen Xer who thinks he's so cool and up to date on all of the current lingo. They laugh at us only a little less than Boomers." Tish was still trying to get a handle on all of this and his Goofy antics weren't really in need right now.
The woods to the side of Ol Shiloh's place was the same as the woods to the back of Gomez & Tish's driveway. Eichhorst couldn't understand why his humans didn't acknowledge his bark. He never barked. He especially never barked at his humans. Why did they think he had? Didn't they see the kids in the woods? The little boy? The little girl? How could they not? As far away as the kids were? They smelled funny. He didn't understand. It was the same smell in the air that he sensed right before thunderstorms began and he hid under Gomez and Tish's bed. Humans don't smell like that. It's impossible to explain ozone to a German Shepherd.
The children watched as Ol Shiloh was loaded onto the ambulance and taken away. The couple were getting into their car and the deputies were already headed down the driveway.
"It has began." The dark-haired pale little girl spoke. "Indeed. It has. Let's see what Venerate has in store for the humans now." The boy replied and they headed towards town.
Eerie, Indiana was like any other Midwest, small town. You had your good ol boys & jerks. You had freaks and geeks. You had Bible thumpers and always humpers. Allie Hoff was the "always humpers" category. No one nor nothing could change that. The girl went through life bartering sex and blow jobs for anything she needed. It was a pitiful existence and she knew it. Unfortunately? She never learned and didn't know another way. With Eerie being so small? She was limited to the same "favor givers" over and over, again. Never any new blood. Never any fresh meat. It really stifled what few prospects she had. She looked up from where she was slumped over the bar, in her barstool, nursing a bottle of beer. She happened to look up to the front door. Who was that? She'd never seen him in here before. He was about 6'3" with dark wavy hair and ocean blue eyes. His skin was sun kissed and the muscles showcased the entire package. Wait. WTF? This dude doesn't belong here. Who the hell is he?
He appeared to glide and almost float towards her. He gestured to the empty bar stool next to her. "Is this seat taken?" He smiled with almost glowing white teeth. She locked up. Wait? He wants to sit next to me?
She just shook her head no because she was too shocked to speak. "Hi, I'm Vinny." He extended his hand and his gleaming smile never faltered. "Allie." She finally squeaked out. Guys like this didn't talk to girls like her. "Nice to meet you, Allie." Vinny swung around and attempted to get the bartender's attention. "I'll have a Jack & Coke. For the lady?" Vinny slyly smiled at Allie and she was entranced. "Same" was all Allie could say. He paid for their drinks and handed Allie hers. "I've never seen you before." Allie just finally came out with it. "No, I'm new to the area. You wouldn't have seen me around here." Vinny replied. "Oh? New from where?" Allie was trying to proceed with caution. She did not want to miss out on the opportunity that was this gorgeous specimen of a man. "You've never heard of it, trust me. No one ever has." Vinny still held his smile. "I'd still like to know." Allie returned a smile that was nowhere near as beautiful as Vinny's. "Maybe when we get to know each other better." Vinny conceded. "Oh? So we're going to be getting to know each other better, are we?" Allie coyly pressed. "If I have any say in it? Most definitely." Vinny winked. Damn. That boy was so fine she'd drink his bathwater if he peed in it. He was the perfect vision of the perfect man. It was as if he were tailor made just for Allie. How, though? How could she actually meet her real life Manic Pixie Dream boy? The one she'd dreamed about when she was a little girl. The one who laughed at everything she said. Listened attentively. The one who only had eyes for her no matter how many "rich bitch" girls were around. She'd treat him like a postage stamp. She'd lick every square inch of him and go back for 2nds on the important parts. "Allie, you strike me as a very straightforward girl." Vinny snapped her out of her daze. "I am. No bullshit." Allie replied. "Then? Allow me to be straightforward by telling you that I want to fuck you senseless." Vinny casually stated as if someone asked him for the time. "Well, that is certainly straightforward." Allie was stunned. She wasn't so stunned that she'd let an opportunity like this pass her by. She'd made up her mind that was going to happen as soon as she saw him. "And your answer?" Vinny inquired. "Anywhere. Any place. Any time Any day." Allie assured. With that? They stood from their barstools and headed outside. He even smelled good but not a typical smell. It was like the air at the beginning of a thunderstorm. He smelled like ozone. Ozone??? Was that even possible?
Gomez and Tish got home and plopped on the couch. Eichhorst came through the doggy door and trotted straight to Tish. "I've got leftovers, Piggy. Give me a sec." Tish opened her container from the restaurant. Eichhorst sat patiently waiting for his command.
"What a fuckin' day." Gomez exhaled exhaustedly. "Yeah. It has been. Poor Ol Shiloh. This is just too much." Tish's head continued to try to find rationality where there was one. "I'm getting in the shower and going to bed. You need anything?" Gomez slowly rose up from the couch, joints popping like a glow stick. "No. I'm probably gonna watch a movie and go to bed after." Tish answered. "Horror?" Gomez queried. "What else?" Tish smiled albeit a tired one. Eichhorst jumped up next to her on the couch and laid on her like a lap dog.
Vinny was walking Allie into their local little flop hotel room. It wasn't like she wasn't familiar with the place. The staff referred to her as "Frequent flier". She didn't particularly like the insensitive moniker but couldn't deny its accuracy, either. He closed the door behind them in one failed swoop. This was a practiced talent she noticed. Didn't matter. He was hers tonight.
"Make yourself comfortable." Vinny gestured to the only bed in the room. Allie took a seat. She looked up at him and noticed the ozone smell becoming stronger. Weird. He smelled good but she had never known someone to smell like a thunderstorm.
"I'm going to step into the bathroom for just a minute. I'll be right out." Vinny stepped into their adjacent bathroom. She heard loud music and laughter from somewhere down the hall but couldn't quite place where. It was for the best. Allie had always been, well, vocal. Normally? If a guy is hitting it right? She hit the vocal range of 2 stray cats screwing. She couldn't help it. She was like this every since puberty. It was all the girl thought about. She figured she was probably a nympho although she was never officially diagnosed. She couldn't hear what he was doing. It didn't matter. It wasn't going to affect her and what she was doing. She walked to the curtains and made sure they were completely closed. Although they were, why did she feel like she was being watched? She stripped down with the efficiency of a HazMat worker decontaminating. She heard the bathroom door opening. She kept her back turned so she could make the surprise last as long as possible. Was this the night? The night she could finally reach sexual satisfaction? Was this the dick that was going to change her life? There was a soft green glow coming from the bathroom. Must be a nightlight? She hadn't noticed before. Was it getting brighter? It looked like it was coming towards her. Was it Vinny? Maybe he's videoing me? Not like I'd care, but he could have asked. "Are you recording me?" She asked as she continued to look towards the window. His breathing was different. It seemed labored and, well, wet. It didn't sound like he did earlier, that was for sure. "You okay?" Allie asked. His breathing was raspier, louder, wetter. She decided to bail on her romantic idea of not turning around before he reached her. She turned around and her playful nature and smile fell away immediately.
Her brain couldn't process what her eyes were seeing. It couldn't be real. God knows along with banging any guy she could get her hands on, she used to hit hard drugs back in the day. This had to be a flashback. It had to be a "Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas" scenario. This? This "Mars Attacks!" bullshit right here? This is not reality.
It's bulbous head was transparent. It looked like a barrel eye fish that she saw on a nature show she used to blaze and chill to. That also explained the soft green glow. It sounded like and looked aquatic. That's where the wet sounds were coming from. It kept advancing. It had a white upper torso with arms and webbed fingers on each hand. What sent her over the edge? From the waist down? It was a human male. All the important parts and in working condition. How? She had no idea. But? When she meant working condition? It was working it's way right towards her. Wait, this thing is going to still have sex with me?! No. Absolutely not. "No. Stop." Allie feebly tried to resist. It did no good. Allie didn't know she was the reason he was even here. This was the whole gameplan all along. It was never a casual hook up.
Venerate had studied numerous different civilizations but Terrestrials always fascinated him. They were so primitive but also entertaining. The Alliance had tried many different hybrid trials between themselves and Terrestrials. They never made it out of infancy. There was a weakness that need strengthened in their own DNA to combine with humans. They worked on it until their resolution was Venerate himself. He has the best of what their kind has to offer with the malleable adaptivity to change himself into anything he needs to to be able to convince Terrestrials to trust him. It worked. Ol Shiloh thought Venerate was his deceased wife. Allie thought he was her dream man. He needs a human to impregnate. Beggars can't be choosers. It worked out perfectly. Allie took one look at his bulbous transparent head, his lower nontransparent stiff head and proceeded to pass out on the bed. It didn't matter. Venerate didn't need her awake to begin their hybrid breeding program. And? Begin the program he did. Everything was coming to fruition via the Alliance's vision. All of their hard work finally got them here. The pale, dark-haired children stood outside the hotel room window, peaking through the crack in the curtain. They were able to relay the mission a success with Venerate making first, second and third contact. Once the younglings come forth? The Alliance can begin occupation and what a glorious day that will truly be! Everything was going so perfectly. This just had to be fool proof. They walked off into the night, smiling so much those obsidian eyes even looked less demonic. This was the beginning of prosperity. This was the beginning of the end of humanity.
The Windows to the Soul: Allie's Assimilation
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Hey there! Trying out my luck on here and see if I find what I'm looking for, and possibly what you're looking for?
I'm a direct and intentional person, so I think posting here on reddit will filter out those who are not looking for the same thing as I am.
Currently in a dead bedroom situation, pretty much for over a year now. So looking for someone who also is looking to have their physical needs fulfilled, and is probably looking for that spark/excitement again? Good connection= good sex, am I right?
/LOOKING FO

• I'm hoping to find a AP that I can connect with, where we can joke around, talk about life in a way where we're like great friends, and I'm gonna be upfront... mainly great sex!
  
• I don't mind if you're married or not, as long as you understand that my first, and main priority is my relationship. I hope you're in the same page and could understand that.
  
• Looking for consistency as well. What I mean by that is probably seeing each other 2x a month, or more depends on our schedule. We can feel it out.
  
• Although this is mainly sexual (on my end, & I'm open to your needs as well) I would like it if we can connect as well. Talk a bit about life, our jobs, banter, and joke around. I think that's what makes sex awesome!
  

with that in mind, here's a little something about me:
/ABOUT ME/
-29M, 5'8", Athletic/Average Build 160 lbs, clean and DDF. Easy on the eyes, great hygiene, I have tattoos (tasteful). Dark hair and deep dark brown eyes, mixed. I have a bachelor's degree and a full time job (if that matters at all). Respectful of your space and time, not the creepy/stalker type.
-I'm into anything creative & artsy, mainly movies and graphic design. In terms of music, I like alternative/punk rock, indie, and folk.
-Pretty laid back and chill, also naturally am a goof ball, so I like to joke around, tease, and also somewhat do have a dark humor! I'm an explorer, so I like to hike and do some cool activities, but also can be just laid back, watch movies and have a drink. In short, I'm a very spontaneous type of guy.

• In terms of sex, I do have a high sex drive (hence, this post lol). I don't have any specific kinks, although the women I've connected with mentioned that I'm a gentle dom. So I like to be dominant, with passion and gentleness with it. So... to put it into perspective, here's:

/WHAT TO EXPECT FROM ME/

• I'd say that I like to build it up. Start with passionate kissing, down to your neck and trailing it all the way down around your belly, hips, before I eat you out (I love foreplay and eating you out). I would eat you out while looking at you, I like seeing reactions and how you respond with how I do it, what turns me on more is seeing you pleased and that I'm doing a good job (I'm an achiever LOL, my enneagram is a Type 1, so I can be a perfectionist with the things I do).
  
• and when you're blowing me, I prefer to hold your hair for you, so I can pull on it and have you angle your face towards me while you're sucking me off, I like to make eye contact while I gently push your head down to deep throat me, and touch your face with my other hand, I like running my hands down on your skin. I'm into kissing in between as well, I don't mind if you've been sucking me, I'll make out with you in between. (I prefer to have sex after taking a shower anyways, so we both are for sure clean)
  
• I'm good with any position and down to try what you're into, my favorites are definitely:
  

*Missionary- mainly because I like making out, neck kissing, chest nibbling/kissing, and most esp. seeing you reactions with some mild choking.
*Doggy Style- mainly because I would pull on your hair, and grab on to your neck. It's such a turn on to see your body arch a bit more towards me while I'm thusting to get in you harder.
*Cow Girl- It turns me on even more when a woman tries to be a dom sometimes, in a way that they try to resist me dominating them so they can be dominant (if that makes sense?) Such a turn on whenever I were to see your body motioning to get the feel of me in you that would feel good for you. Also so I can grab on your hips, pull you, slap and squeeze your cheeks, and nibble on your chest.
NOTE: I also am quite vocal, so I would definitely moan and cuss at times. If I'm feeling it, talk dirty depending on the mood. Hope you're okay with that.
/ABOUT YOU/

• Now, this is the part where I hope I'm not asking for too much, and I'm being realistic with this search. But hey, it has to be mutual right?

*FEMALE / WOMAN who is respectful, friendly, chill, and fun to talk to. It would be better if you have your life together so we can talk about how adulting life is LOL. I don't mind if you're a student, as long as you're pursuing something good in life to be stable 👍
*AGE: 25-33 Years Old, HWP
*Clean, Good Hygiene, DDF
*Must be willing to exchange photos at first. I'm not gonna lie, attraction is vital in order to build chemistry sexually right? I am in no way super attractive, I would say I'm about average, although my lady friends and women that I've connected with say I'm charming/charismatic, so I guess that kinda adds up LOL (I'm compensating so hard huh, LOL). --- So I'm being realistic here as well. So it's a must that we're both attracted to each other first.
So if this post is good enough for you or if you would like to get to know each other better, shoot me a DM! Would love to hear from you :)
NOT INTERESTED IN HOOKERS, ESCORTS, OR ANYTHING THAT INVOLVES PAYMENT! Let's not waste each other's time please!

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What’s the deal with people waving and blowing kisses to the audience (chat) while in boxes while others are talking? How about when someone in a box is talking and another person flat out talks to the chat. Is there a thing for box etiquette? Do you think you are famous? F outta here with that…

I (18m) have been friends with girl number 1, let’s call her Sarah, Sarah (15f) and I have been friends with her since November when I was 17, I would text her and eventually I took her to our local Christmas parade and I had a fun time with her, some time passes by and I don’t text her and I assume she wants nothing to do with me, after Christmas break I swiped up on her story and we text back and forth for while and we make plans and I come over and meet her and parents, I’m having fun with her for weeks on end, we were fwb’s and I took her out on dates, our dates end with us having sex or she would blow me, I genuinely like her but I was going to wait til she turned 16 so I could see what I can do, By this time I’ve met this girl, let’s call her Kaylee, Kaylee (18f) is someone I met during the last 2 weeks of school, I met her through my ex and we’ve been knowing each other for a long but it wasn’t til I become friends with her that I realized she was a queen, royalty really, When school ended, Sarah had to be out of town for a whole week due to her visiting her younger brother, I start hanging out with Kaylee over that week and by the time School ended I wanted to know her better, she turned me on like no other, we hung out a several days ago and we ended up kissing and I said things to her that made her fall hard for me, she knew about my fwb, one night Kaylee she’s would be a little sad about my fwb but since I’m not with her she wouldn’t say anything, she kept cuddling and kissing me, I realized my mistake and I cried, I remember wrapping my arms around her and she held me in, she said she doesn’t want to be an option and I respect her for that,I know I had to make a decision, I tried hard to enjoy the moment, she cried too and said if it had to be a choice, choose her, Kaylee has gone through a breakup not too long ago and she said that she its “just 1 more to my count, it would hurt but oh well”, I chose Kaylee and broke the news to Sarah, Sarah became blunt and in short I went to pick my hoodie up, I was crying my eyes out, When I pulled up to her house I tried wiping them away, her and her stepmom came out, she handed me my hoodie and her stepmom said “ give him his sweater, Leave and never come back”, I call Kaylee and Tell her what I did, I delete videos as well as photos of Sarah, Kaylee says I should’ve picked Sarah instead, I cried as i told Kaylee my feelings and emotions, I go home and Kaylee loves me a lot though she says likes me, Kaylee doesn’t believe anything I say, honestly I don’t blame her, she says I might manipulate and leave her, Idk if I like Kaylee, she’s texts me non stop and she says the most romantic things and she is obsessed with me but she thinks I’m going to dump her a week or two later, I don’t want to believe her and I she says I’m the first to treat her really good, She’s texting me as I’m typing this and it touches my heart that she does, she’s gonna leave for 4 days and idk what to do or think of during that time

"well she is a hooker and she got her teeth knocked out before."
"ive slept with a hooker. not sex. she was just a friend of mine. we used to watch the twilight zone and she would shoot heroin, and she would give me some foil so i could smoke it, she said she didnt wanna be respibible for me shooting it. and we would sleep and watch the Twilight Zomne and do heroin."
"i tried to watch a movie with a chick on a laptop. im lucky she was a slut or i wouldnt have gotten any"
"its where you take a hit of pot and then press your lips on the girls mouth and blow the hit in her mouth"
"im not gonna be happy until i see The real John Lennon kissing hoes and grabbing coochies with a blunt in his mouth and a guitr strapped on his back"

My mother is not a witch but she's superstitious. She taught me if I found lost change I should do the following thing:
Say "Your father and mother should come here!" Blow a kiss on the coin. Put it in my pocket.
This will make the coin's parents come to my pocket, bringing me wealth essentially.
Now I read about lost change being fae traps and that made me think about this whole ritual. Do you think I should continue doing this? Am I putting myself at risk with this? Should I be saying something else, like "thank you"? Should I just leave lost change on the ground?

I've been trying to figure out where on reddit I should put this but here goes nothing; this is a throwaway account and it's going to be a very long one. For a bit of context I'm in a polyamorous "relationship" where there is also an extremely large age gap among the three of us. I (21F) met my partners, lets call them Collen (46F) and Doug (56M) the beginning of January 2021. My friends kept pushing for me to go out and meet someone and have some fun so I signed up for a dating app not expecting much to come of it because of my "unique" type romantically. I'm completely into the age gap relationship thing so I raised the age on my search to 30-50. and with my luck two swipes in and there she was; beautiful blonde with greenish-blue eyes a great smile. I swiped so fast I couldn't stop myself, and it came back saying that she had also swiped right on me too. I didn't exactly take the time to thoroughly read through the profile because after the mutual swiping I decide to read the profile a little bit more, and it turned out to be a couple. Maybe I should've backed out then but in my mind it was like yolo why not. They are both attractive and who knows maybe it'll be a fun fling to have from time to time until I feel ready to find someone to settle with. I'd never heard of polyamory or any of the things that come with it so I was basically going in blind. So we connected and initially It was just chatting with her through the app getting to know what they were looking for and things like that. She then suggested that I add him on snapchat so I could talk to him as well and do a video chat verification of myself. So I did and to my surprise I'd hit it off with him too. It was like I could talk to him about any and everything. Deep conversations came easily with him. They both reassured me they wouldn't force me to go too fast or do anything I don't want to do. Made me feel very comfortable from the get go. Eventually the whole conversation moved to snapchat they created a group chat and I could text them separately whenever. I mostly spoke with him separately and she would really only respond in the group. I met up with him about a month later. She couldn't come along as she had to stay home with their daughter but gave us her blessing to have fun and tell her about it tomorrow. It was a great time we talked sat by the water till almost 5am. Another month in they invited me over to their place so we could all be together and I of course accepted. When I got there I was shocked to have been greeted at the door by the two of them and their daughter. For another reference I love kids and have been helping my siblings and other family members raise theirs since I was 6 and I'd told them about that as well, But still it threw me for a loop because it'd only been 3 months they still don't know too too much about me and we all knew I wasn't exactly coming over to just "have dinner and watch movies" and it seemed strange to me. We had dinner and it was nice we laughed a lot and all got along pretty good. When it got later in the night Colleen put their daughter to bed and Doug and I went to their bedroom. She joined us and we got busy and in the midst of it I began to bleed as apart of this health condition I have which they were aware of, and they immediately stopped to care for me clean me up an make sure I was ok and insisted that I sleep over for the night. They grabbed a blow up bed and set it up in their room for me. That simple gesture did something in my heart. I come from a pretty fucked up broken abusive home some of which they'd also known about so no one had ever really taken care of me like that before until them. Immediately my heart was absolutely sure this wouldn't be a one time fling like i'd thought. Fast forward some time everything was going pretty well. We all talked, sent pictures etc in the group and then I'd come over their place again and we'd have a good time I'd either sleep over and go home, and the cycle just continued on like that. Now up until May there had never been a title placed on what we had going on, so I wasn't too hopeful it'd stay on the same track it was on. Then at about the end of May he asks me to be their girlfriend. Says it's something they both want and again blindly going through with it I said yes, but looking back I should've asked her myself if that was really what she also wanted and maybe I could've saved myself the heart ache. So now we are officially in a relationship and everything is going fairly well.. Fast forward to 2022 about end of July maybe early into August. She started to become... distant small stuff at first like not wanting to have sex because she wasn't feeling well which I completely understood never would I make her feel bad for that. Then it became not wanting to be in the same room as me. Like Doug their daughter and I would be in the living room watching a movie or something just hanging out and she'd leave and go into their bedroom and wouldn't come back out until dinner or it was time for their daughter to go bed so she could tuck her in. It started to make me feel... weird and I couldn't bring myself to ask her what was going on, but Doug would continue to reassure me that she was attracted to me she loved being with me. I wanted to believe him but I couldn't in my heart and due to past trauma I didn't want to face if she'd say no. Now don't get me wrong she and I spent time together just the two of us. Sunday's she and I would go out shopping but you could cut the tension with a knife during those rides sometimes. I wanted to say something but Doug had prior told me about a girl from their past who hurt her and left her emotionally stunted with women so I alway tried my hardest to make sure I didn't do that to her and didn't do anything to cause her any discomfort sort of letting her come into it on her own. Plus she showed her love in other ways with catering to me buying me things particular to what I love. She'd said I love you verbally to me on 2 separate occasions which she apparently doesn't do. So I just could never find the right time to do so. Then Doug started searching on the app again for other women to add to it. He liked to watch and they'd had foursomes with other women where he would watch them with Colleen and take videos that have been shown to me before. I didn't know how I felt about this so I just went along with to see where it would go. Luckily it has never gone beyond a texting conversation among them although we have come close a few times. Anyways end of October early November of 22. Everything was so completely off between she and I felt it every time I would go over to their house. I didn't know what to do or how to address it. It was starting to really take a toll on me mentally. And they were also planning to move to another state where her family is and that caused me to worry more then before because I would not be going with them, who is to say that they won't meet another woman or women on the app and brush me off to the side numerous thoughts went through my mind over this. Plus it would be close to her father and best friend so she is definitely going to want to spend a great amount of time with them and there would be no real way to explain who I am to them considering I'm hispanic and they are White so it wouldn't be easy to play it off and none of them know that she is into women and that they are apart of the lifestyle not even her best friend. (This information is important to my point) Then one night Doug was driving me back to my house and he told me she had cried in their bedroom that morning while I was still asleep because she is uncomfortable in her body and uncomfortable around me. Flat out my heart sank and in my mind all I could think was how could you love and be with someone but not be comfortable around them or even talk to them about it, and you're moving to a new state you pretty much are going to want nothing to do with me. This triggered my abandonment issues like nothing else ever could and they knew of this issue and my need for reassurance I thought they would understand my need to know especially Doug since he questioned constantly if I was happy with our relationship and the age gap and if i wanted to leave I reassured him constantly that I couldn't go anywhere. I cried that night and decided to open the app myself just to find someone to talk to or even distract me for a moment nothing extreme. It escalated and i did cheat emotionally and I kissed the girl but that was it at that time. I felt bad and I am terrible at lying so eventually the truth exposed itself. the day of it was like she could feel something was going to change she came out of their room to where I was on the couch and just made out with me out of the blue. I didn't know what to do. Let's just say the truth revealed itself on that drive home that night and we broke up... for 18 days. I tried to move on with my life because every one was telling me to since the age gap and a bunch of other factors as well so I did and ended up being set up to be raped twice. needless to say my faith in humanity is gone on that end. so I tried one last time to talk to him and work things out. I did and by Christmas we were back together and working on getting better. Now here we are June 2023 they've found a house they will be moving into in just a few weeks. I've been helping them clean and pack up their old home a few times during this process. Doug swears nothing will change but everything will especially considering technically I'm only now in a romantic relationship with Doug and Colleen and I.. I don't even know if you could call it a friendship. Things are hitting that weird point again and he has met another girl on the app he wants him and I to meet and play with its only been 2 days and she's basically giving herself up to him as a submissive which he loves and gave the both of them access to her remote vibrator to pleasure her with which of course he had to tell me about. Now with all o that back ground out of the way here comes the real reason for my post. Despite all of the things I said above there are many red flags about them that I continually overlooked because of the lovers gaze i had on them. Including and I'm not proud of it pedo.... and incest (they both swear they'd never really cross that line with their daughter but I am not 100% sure I believe especially after he told me why he lost his old job) Especially with Doug he even talks about how things would've been if they would've raised me when he would've started wanting to play with me. I'm not proud that I stayed and overlooked those things part of me knows I stay to protect their daughter from them, and the other knows I stay because I trauma bonded myself onto them and can't get away. I'm not even attracted to anyone outside of them yes it is that bad. Lately things have been so confusing and tossed up i am ready to call it quits. (I am a hyper aware person to a default so I know when someone is trying to manipulate and play mind games with me which is what she is doing and I let them think they are succeeding and him he is just attracted to how young and hyper sexual I can be when we are together.) but not before I set a few little fires. I've curated a plan to send a letter to her father, and best friend. As well as his siblings (his parents are diseased) detailing what they've done and thus ultimately outting her as bisexual to them which I know is wrong but after the emotional and psychological abuse they instilled upon me it seems appropriate. Before she married him She was having a fling with her bosses sister at her bosses house. I know the bosses name and have her information so I could send her an email with the detailed story. Of course that is not grounds to fire her but it will cause enough tension and discomfort in my eyes. She is also adopted and recently found her bio moms family; I have their information as well and plan to give them a thorough warning about their estranged family member and what comes with her since they do explicit talk about the family members they would fuck including children of their cousins etc.. It is a toss up considering her father and best friend may be completely supportive of her and not cause any harm there. This won't repair the abuse they've done to me or help me heal but I took the higher road and over looked so many things for 3 years. Someone has to stop them in their tracks so they never do what they did to me to another woman again. WIBTAH?